myOtaku.com: Scrap

Well just after my last day of school I feel like a dream of a fantasy just ended then now I am onto reality which is very lost. And right now feel like my mind has lost it am I in love or in pain? Well I don't really know the answer but I just know that when I first met the love that brought a bright light to my dark heart I just know that he would finally heal my heart but I guess I might be wrong because I am darkness and not all light can heal the dark. And I know that somehow my lonliness is growing beacuse I feel like the light just broke my heart into pieces. Well I might be wrong but I do know that being ignored and left out is one plan that shows hatred in their eyes that they really do hate me. I just can't think anymore am I not in love or hated, it is just to wrong I have to no the truth my entire life can't take it ..... more pai causes more lonliness and more friendship makes more love....I mean who am I to be if I am both..
But I have thought about it alot and somehow I guess I am a darkness than a light because in school I spend most of my time talking to myslef than, talking to friends. One lesson I knew about the light is that when you have found love you get lots of comfort but later it will soon end to a most broken hearted end. And I am guessing that this might be my path, because just looking through his eyes words of hatred approaches and that's what might be whats left of me.

1: Do you believe in dreams?
2: Do you believe in nightmares?
3: From all the posts I have put up am I more of the light or the dark?
4: Do you think I should give up love and move on?