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Dearest one and all I'm sorry. I haven't been on for quite a while now. I'm deeply sorry.

I'm living a happy life yet being HAPPY couldn't even stop the PAIN in my HEART. WHY? Everyday, I always thought about: What would happen if I never met him? If I didn't find love at all. Would I still be HAPPY then? My friend Mae used to be with him, until I came along. Now him and I are together. But it hurts, why did he do that? Why couldn't he stay with her? Her heart now is totally broken than the one before I ever met her. Just today, I miss him so much because we're on our Christmas Break. Just then I heard he and she are going to the mall tomorrow. Later, I thought I know that they are best friends, but would it seem like they miss each other. Can't they see that deep down maybe that they both miss one another.
I don't even know what I'm saying now. I'm Happy to be with him, but my heaty aches to see them both. Why?
If I never met them? Would my life still be useless? Lonesome? Painful? Invisible?
I............Don't..............Know.......

Knowing how much I changed now, they would both tell me not to think this way..or that it isn't my fault. IS IT MY FAULT? I Don't Know...
SEPARATION................
This is all our last year to be with one another. The last year then we separate to go to High School....

I guess that's the mysteries of life......

Everyone I'm sorry. The Darkness couldn't possibly disappear from my heart, even if Love is Happiness that will destroy it. The Past memories will bring it back.

Sorry one and all,
Rose(My confused emotion)

In a way, I guess I'm Kinda like HINATA.
SHY..QUIET..HARD WORKING..and I DON'T GIVE UP.
I guess...heh
Mine Kinda involves hiding my trueself. I Consume all of my anger and pain. Then hide it behind a Smile ^^....-_- heh that's if you can tell. The bad thing is Where does this Anger and Pain go? heh that's really an UNKNOWN.