Sunday, July 10, 2005

My cats
This is precious

and tiger

awwwwwww!!!
anyways...wats up everyone??? Nothing new here. I miss my YUKINATER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and shuichi and myori and every one les!!! I really want to have a good birthday party but it dosent look so good...thats really all I want cuz I never have good parties. But I geuss Im just being a bitch like always. I'm sorry everyone for being who Iam. I'm sorry cliff, I miss you so much, and I dream about you every night I just wish I had one more year, one more month, one more day, one more hour, one more second to show you how much I love you and to share with you my sympathy and I miss your hands touching my tired face as you moved in such grace around me as if you were my only. But it seems its way over now.

lyrics-
AFI- "This Celluloid Dream"
Calling tears from deep inside, oh, you're so exquisite And in the mirror, all midnight eyes Oh, if I could remain, but it's just a visit All midnight eyes read "vacancy" Twisted, twisting
To the lovely dancing lights, I begged, "May I cut in?" But they never stopped playing "their song" Of a joyous song they sing, I've heard whispers On a freezing note, I resonate Just like romantic verses, just like a joyous end Just like a memory, it twists me Just like romantic verses, just like a joyous end Twist... twisting me
You land as lightly as the new snow, cinematic Onto the melting boy, and melt away You light as gently, you're so cinematic Bathed in your radiance, I melt
In the glitter, in the dark, sunk into velvet Praying this will never end In the shadow of a star, in static pallor I realized I never began
Just like romantic verses, just like a joyous end Just like a memory, it twists me Just like romantic verses, just like a joyous end Twist... twisting me
You land as lightly as the new snow, cinematic Onto the melting boy, and melt away You light as gently, you're so cinematic Bathed in your radiance, I melt
All the colours upon leaving, all will turn to grey All the colours upon leaving, all will turn to grey (All grey) All the colours (All grey) upon leaving (All grey) all will turn to grey (All grey) All the colours (All grey) upon leaving (All grey) all will turn to grey... grey...
You land as lightly as the new snow, cinematic Onto the melting boy, and melt away You light as gently, you're so cinematic Bathed in your radiance
You land as lightly as the new snow, cinematic You land as lightly as the new snow, and melt away You land as lightly as the new snow, cinematic Bathed in your radiance, I melt

Poem-

Philip Rollins-"I wish my eyes were shut"
I wish my eyes were shut.
Then I'd have no fears.
Go through life
With no hate or tears.
Or if I were numb,
I'd feel no pain.
Never drowning in shadows,
Or soaking in shame.
Maybe an angel
Feeling good so much,
Then I wouldn't be scared
Of love's sweet touch.
Kissing me softly
With one deep breath.
Sweeping me into
Eternity with the rest.
I wish I wasn't
Always so alone.
Everybody's something
I just want to go home.
Nobody to talk to,
They're all cloned and fake,
And then there's me.
Easy to break.
They think I stand on a pedestal,
Perfect picture in a frame.
There's more to it.
Underneath the mask there's shame.
Horrible things
Said and done,
But nobody will listen.
To them it's fun.
I hold onto my anger
Locked in a box.
Chains all around it.
Attached are locks.
I wish there was a key
To let it all out.
But instead it builds up,
Exploding without a doubt.
Sometimes I want to scream
So long that life escapes.
Then I'd shut my eyes.
I'd be the angel of disgrace





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