Thursday, January 27, 2005

Euphoria
So one of the people I know but haven't talked to in awhile, noted that when she felt apathetic, there was a sense of euphoria, as if she had just taken a shot of morphine to the vein. I felt that way for a long time, just going through each day, not actually dealing with what was happening around me, it was like I was floating around life and never really stopping, as if, I weren't really a part of life but just watching. What I find amusing is that you kinda subconciously go into that state to get away from it all but that's when we seem to find out the most about ourselves and the people around us. I noticed a lot about myself in this period of time how that maybe I wassn't such a pompous ass after all, I don't really know what I am, it doesn't matter. All I know is this, I'm me, and anyways who wants to get in the way of me being me and doing what I'm gonna do will be taken down. Have a great night all!

Oh yea, by the way I take my licsence test tomarrow! Cross your fingers!!

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Monday, January 24, 2005

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To Whom It May Concern
To Whom It May Concern
Ahem *Clears throat* FUCK OFF!
Is it really so bad to believe in a delusional world if you're not hurting anyone? To take a recent occurance I was really pissed of at work then I walked outside to a friggin wind gale. Now you must know out of the four basic elements (Fire, Water, Wind, Earth) Wind is my utmost favriote. The wind sets me free, which is way you will always see me driving with my window down, which is also why I love going outside. But so I notice this massive windstorm and think to myself (outloud so I hear) that the wind was reacting to my emotions. So the people who were with me convinced to laugh in my face for my silly little beliefs. So what? if I believe stupid stuff like that, it's not hurting anyone I'm not forcing you to believe it. So leave me alone and let me live my delusion, it makes life that much easier even if it is a lie. So what if I want to believe that I can just go off somewhere and leave everything behind me. So what if I believe that somewhere out there something lies undiscovered. So what if I believe that love can withstand all. That mankind still has hope or that money doesn't really matter WHO GIVES A FLYING FUCK JUST LEAVE ME ALONE AND LET ME LIVE IN MY SILLY LITTLE WORLD!!!

Current Mood: aggravated
Current Music: Grosse Point Blank Soundtrack
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Friday, January 21, 2005

   MIDI Crazy!
Alright then! I need to find a good Midi, can anyone please if you can give me a good MIDI site. IT would help greatly.
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