myOtaku.com: Seira Relur

myO Still <3's You

Vitals

Birthday
• 1988-03-26
Gender
• Female
Location
• The Depths of my Secludedness
Member Since
• 2004-11-16
Occupation
• Hot Topic
Real Name
• Refer to me as Seira or The Hidden Pagan

Personal

Achievements
• 1st Dan (Black belt)
Anime Fan Since
• 1st seaon of Digimon... which sucked after that... too bad...
Favorite Anime
• Yu Yu Hakusho, Inuyasha, Full Metal Alchemist, Fruits Basket
Goals
• To be a 1st Dan with my katana
Hobbies
• drawing, computer, writing, karate
Talents
• drawing, karate

myOtaku.com: Seira Relur

Sunday, December 19, 2004

Steam Let-er Out-er
Merry Meet, Everyone!

That was fake enthusiasm. Why? Because my Dad recently decided on alcohol, crack, his secretary, and other shit over his own wife and daughters. He was yelling at my mom saying shit like "I never really did love you", "You're poisoning the girls into thinking that I'm the bad guy and that you're all the victims" and my personal favorite that he said to me and my older sister... "I don't know why you're letting you're mom brainwash you with shit about me ruining your life and future. My drinking doesn't affect any of you in any way." Yeah, I'm a Junior! And he thinks that I'm so blind as to not be able to see that he hasn't been coming home some nights, do shit for his secretary like take her out of state, then bitch about taking me to school when its only a 5 minute drive in the direction he's heading in the first place! Sorry about that. I haven't really liked him for a few years now. Ever since he turned my stomach into a mix of black, blue, green and yellow for trying to let a cat in the house to save it from the cold (over react much?). I'm glad that my mom finally quit lying to herself and kicked him out, but what makes me furious is how much this is making my mom so miserable and heartbroken. She is too good of a person to deserve that kind of pain. I mean, she has already had to work five jobs and now she has to come up with the money all on her own. We'll probably lose the house, most of our animals (18 cats, 2 dogs, and a raccoon), and I don't know about this computer, but I'll make sure Dad doesn't take it for all your sakes and my sanity. I'm sick of people saying "maybe it was for the best", "Oh I'm so sorry, are you okay?" and "If you ever need anyone to talk to, I'm here for you." It WAS for the best! I WAS okay until you kept reminding me of reality! And if I WAS ever to need someone to talk to, it probably won't be you anymore, now that I can predict every word you will say! I'm not weak! I don't give into such stupid emotions, and I don't need pity. It makes me feel like a fool.

Sorry again about this little outburst. I needed to let out some steam.

Blessed Be.

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