Wednesday, February 18, 2004

   Love: Episode: 367
Feeling kinda ackward and got stuff to say...and I can't tell anybody from school or they will go blab it out to everybody they see... ( NOTE: If you are reading this Colin, I mean it, you tell this to no one, I know you like blabbing stuff to people and I need you to keep your mouth shut) My bestfriend Lianne is leaving for Quebec- agian in the summer and it seems that before she leaves she's trying to do a special thing for us...or what she thinks is special... she is trying to "hook" her close friends up( Me, My God-Bro and some others)
with a boyfriend or girlfriend...I don't like this...but I know I can't stop her from doing what shes set out to do...she rarely listens to me... and on this case she won't listen to me at all, and denying ( even when the proof of the truth is dancing naked infront of her) thats shes trying to "set me up" when I don't want to be "set up." Love is a really delicate feeling for me....and I have my morals on how I shold find love and this is not the way I was thinking of, and If I reject the guy...im afriad that she might think im odd and side with her other friends or think Im a lezbien or something and Im scared of that. (I have nothing agianst lezbiens) I need some kind of advice..from anybody...cause this topic is really stressing me out and I would a appreciate any kind of advice..... thanks guys.

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Monday, February 16, 2004

   ^^ Family
Family fights... yeah I have had waaaaaay to much experience with that stuff... I just feel kinda bitter today and wanna tell someone..but no one wants to listen..so Im gonna write it here.
It's not that I don't care for my family...I do... I love all of them...except for my father... you might think that this is some stupid childish pouting.. something that will pass in a day or two.. nobody can truly hate thier father. Well I hate..nono...hmm..I *dislike* my father... not just because he *hates* me as he has said multiple times in my life ( Yes...he has TOLD me he hates me...if you don't belive me there is nothing I can say)...but because my childhood isn't all happy happy because he's always been there to push my face down into the dirt... I dunno..I wish that my childhood was better.... BLAH im thinking too much...XP Geez..Im gonna go think in my room..lol... Its not that im sad or anything..Im use to hating my old man.. and of coarse vice versa... ^^ See you all later...and Happy Family Day...
Bye!
PS: Er.... Please visit my God-Bro's site...er.. DarkWizard..
PPS: Im only writing this cause im thinking this...not because I want someone out there to pity me...its not that way.. ^^ Im not saying that you guys DO pity me...just want you guys to know its that way.
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Saturday, February 14, 2004

   ^^
Happy Valentines Day too all! * Disappears and reappears hauling out a huge box of chocolate and starts handing out to everyone* I hope you enjoy today...ermm...more then me I suppose..Im gonna spend my day with my Grandma knitting...( if your confused read below posts) and get her flowers cause she loves collecting flowers...XP Personally Valentines Day is just like any other day and I could really give a s***.
Loners unite!! lol
See you all later. Enjoy the chocolate and have a nice day.

PS: Please go visit my god brothers site! ^^ Its DarkWizard! ^^ Thanks people.
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Friday, February 13, 2004

Hmm...
Hi peoples! ^^ I got back from my grandmas! I couldn't knit with her today cause one of her long time friends came over to chat with her. What lousy timing....T_T Im here talking to my god bro on MSN ^^ I love RPing on the net! ^^ LOL..yeah im bored...lol ..hm...its Valentines day tomorrow.... T_T Im not saying I hate that day (maybe just a little)..I just feel.... uncomfertable....@_@ Well I hope you guys have a nice Valentines day..see you alls laters! ^^

Question:
This is what im thinking right now, so its just random stuff: If you were to have a crush on someone...but they never really ever took any notice of you, how long would you for them to come up to you? Would six years be too long to wait for them? And after six years..would you give up?
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Thursday, February 12, 2004

   Hey all.
Im sitting here..and bored outta my mind...yeah one of those days. I feel really lonely, and when Im like that, I sing...man that must really sound wierd but I just you know...sit there and make up a tune ...with no words..just random humming and stuff. I think I inheritated this from my grandmother..who hums all the time, I feel really bad cause shes probably bored and I haven't done anything to cheer her up. T_T But now I have no school 'till next Monday so I can go visit her and help her knit ( Yes I can knit, my grandma taught me, my friends think im a freak but Im quite proud of myself) or maybe go shopping with her ^-^.
I haven't updated lately cause i've been busy and you know all that. Valentines Day is coming up, I don't like Valentines day...too many couples walking around being all happy and lovey....XP Well thats all I have to say for now hope your all doing well. See you later.
Bye.
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Tuesday, February 10, 2004

Aww..
Man I really missed you guys! Geez...Ive been gone along time..im sorry..but I got alot of school work and its killing me off very very slowly... o.o somebody save me! ^_^ lolz um... lets see...nothing happening much right now...lol...agian school sucks. Hmm..I was riding the bus today and the bus driver wasn't paying attention and we almost crashed into another bus coming in...scary...-_-;; Geez...after lotsa honking and shouting we finally took off...gosh...T_T They gotta watch where they are going!! ^_^ It would have been kinda cool to be in the hospital I guess....the food isn't bad and they have great service....just joking ppl...*grins* Okay I gotta go visit your lovely sites now!^_^ See you laters! * hugs*
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Friday, February 6, 2004

   Hey
Im back... * doesn't even try to aviod all the vegetables thrown at her* Yes...I missed you all as well.. im sorry for not posting alot...but school was keeping me busy... * pionts to the binder full of homework* VERY busy. I put up some new music. I still haven't gotten my new Shonenjump yet....its bugging the hell outta me..T_T; I fell asleep today at 4:30 P.M..whats the big deal? I NEVER fall asleep unless its the nighttime ... its so wierd, and when I got up around 6:30 P.M I find that I have a slight fever. =_= STUPID Calgarian weather always changing!! ARG! Im gonna suffer hotness on Monday and freeze to death on Tuesday..I WANNA GO HAWAII! Damn it...lol see you guys later.

PS: I still love Calgary even through the weather has been killing me.
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Wednesday, February 4, 2004

   Hi sup
Im back from hellish three days at school..I might not visit your guys sites all that much any more if it gets too busy. >_< Sorry. Nothing much to say thats good... lol..yeah me and my crap life...lol..um... they are coming out with a real life Evangelion movie (juss like the DBZ real life movie) And its looking good...except that Shinji is gonna be played by Daniel Radcliff ( Guy who plays Harry Potter) THAT freaks me out bad...o.o Dan's okay looking...but hes not Shinji material...-_-; Too twitchy and hes accent is gonna ruin it..and they are changing all the names I think so its gonna be all wierd..well thats it for now..see you guys later! BYE!
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Monday, February 2, 2004

   Hm.....
Well people I failed my coarse and didn't get all my credits ^_^ I got 18 credits but I had to get 20...T.T Ya..I hate you too god... T.T Well my parents aren't happy... im not happy but im happy when Im here with you chaps...lol..@_@ Um...new coarse this semester.... its all crap..im taking cooking...and please all pray that I don't burn the whole school down trying to bake some cookies...I tend to burn things alot...lolz..then Chinese....OMG the teacher is WWWWHHHHYYY too happy all the time and I don't understand much Mandrian (SP)....T.T Im use to Cantonese ^.^ hmm..thats all..if any one wants to say something go ahead! Im all ears! ^.^ BYE!

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Sunday, February 1, 2004

   I feel happy.
LOL Awww...Wing your sucha sweet heart!! * Hugs and kisses* Thanks for making me feel better and I love you too! ^-^ lol That story made me laugh... what were you thinking?!Your so cute XP. Thanks Shanny for being there for me..but...Im not much of a talker on MSN, you will find me extremely boring to talk to...T_T;; lol...but If I ever feel the need to talk, to you I'll email you k? ^_^ * hugs*. Shinigami I hope you didn't get into any trouble!!! XP At least you beat your old man eh? ^_~ I had fun too! Lol..all that suspence @_@ I hope we get to talk soon! ^_~
Im feeling better today! ^_^ (As you can obviously see ^_~) I drew a couple of pictures to vent some not so happy feelings...and yeah..lol..feeling much better! ^_^
I was going through my old videos today, and I came upon the Titanic....and I must say...I HATE that movie. I have always had a fear of deep water..and after watching that movie I am *terrifed* of deep water and boats......T_T;; And seeing all those dead ppl floating in ice didn't help much ethier....T_T;; Instead of making me cry at the end i found it rather stupid that Jack dies cause Rose can't get off her plank of wood and let him have a turn on it.. she did have a life jacket on for pitys sake..T_T;; Well thats just my opinion ..lol...Im gonna go try and draw a piccy of Goku now...I never quite get the hair right...lol..see you all next time! * HUGS*

PS: I got a comic for you guys to read..lol..its so cute an' funny...I really hope you enjoy it...and thanks to Hopeless Dreamer for showing it too me! ^-^
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