Oh my god.(!) I just had the craziest/most serious/ridiculous/most hilarious conversation with my friend Jatna. She's in the 10th grade, just like me, and she came from the Dominican Republic. She's 15, (yay! I'm older!) and... yeah.
And, oh my god, she is the most stubborn, *struggles for words* ....... person(!) i know. And it sucks! She still cuts herself, and even though every fiber in my body says tell a teacher and a parent, because she's one of my best friends (and i like her) i don't say anything! why?????????
that's one of those really good questions that you can never seem to find the answer too. Like, you know how some stuff, like, works, but defys all logic? Like math? Yeah. Exactly.
God! I'm rambling! And she thinks no one likes her or whatever, and that she's looked around and crap, and no one really likes her or whatever, and then i kept asking her why, and insisting that people really DID like her, like wanted to have a relationship with her or whatever. Really it's just me, but I wanted to make her feel good about herself.
And then she just says... maybe i shouldn't say it... aw to hell with it! She said because no one could like someone like or whatever ! She said "No one could like someone as screwed up as me"
My heart just sank. She's my best friend. I like her. She always seems like nothing really bothers her, and all she really has is this face like: fuck off, like alot of punk girls have on their face. And I know she cuts herself, and I know she doesn't feel to good about herself, but, i didn't realize that's exactly how she felt. (I wonder if she opens up to other people like this?)
But it was so hilarious too. I know you're thinking: What?! How can you say that?! but just some of her reactions were funny. I thought some were just hilarious.
Well, now that I got that all off my chest, I don't have to talk about it anymore, I can use proper grammar, and I don't have to ramble anymore. I actually feel much better now (not really, j/k), and I better get going because I have to take a shower soon. Ttyl!
Thanx for reading
Sephistrife15
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What is it with all these girls and there emotional problems?