Sorry I haven't posted in a while. I should change my music sometime, too. Boy have you guys missed alot! Ok, you all know Jatna, right? I know you're probably sick and tired of hearing about her, but whatever.
Anyway, this dude she was going out with in the summer called her. It turned out, that she and the dude (Andy), just sort of wanted some space, and this was just at the end of the summer. And Jatna lives with her cousin Joulie. (I think that's how you spell his name.)
So, I guess Joulie talks to Andy, or hangs out with Andy or whatever, because Andy called her, and he was all mad and everything. So, how do I know all this you ask? Well, I went online that night, and Jatna was online, and she said there was this major problem or whatever.
And I thought it was gonna be nothing, like, Jatna was just overreacting or whatever. And she was all like, can I talk to you over the phone? I'd feel more comfortable that way. (Don't ask me why. I never really did find out. Don't really care that much.)
So, I called her up, and she sounded like she was crying. So she explained to me what was going on, and surprisingly, it actually made me kind of mad. Mad at Andy, because he was sort of/kind of being an asshole. Joulie because he kept egging Andy on to be mad at her and crap, and that he lied to Andy saying we did some shit together that we never did.
And finally, Jatna, because it was ultimately her fault, cuz she broke her promise. Oh yeah! They made a promise that wouldn't really go out with anyone or whatever. They could like flirt and stuff, but not actually have a serious relationship and crap like that. I was also kind of mad at her, because she dragged me into somehow and it really wasn't my problem.
I mean, I can sort of see why she would, because she felt I should know, or maybe for emotional support (which I would NOT have appreciated), but either way, I was mad at her. I was having such a good night, too. Long story short, Jatna eventually said "whatever", "do what you want", and "I don't really want to see you anymore." And then, way back when, I was worried about us being together screwing up our friendship, and it sort of did, because now I was really mad at her, and I wouldn't have been if I hadn't gotten together with her.
So, Jatna got the bright idea that we just become, what she likes to call, "friends with priveliges." And it doesn't SEEM like that, anymore (it's been like a week since this all happened,) but it kinda bothers me, because she's one of my best friends, but at the same time, I'm romantically interested in her. So, I don't want to screw up our friendship, niether does she, but we're both interested in each other. It's screwed up! I hate it! It's stupid! And it wasn't even my idea either! Maybe I'm just missing a sense of closure or something.
Man, this rant really didn't help me at all. What a waste. And I've been feeling like this ever since it happened, too. Maybe I'm still mad at her or something? I don't know.
Catch ya later you guys!
Thanx for reading
Sephistrife15
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