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Friday, September 2, 2011

100 degree Fever
I don't understand why I still have baby fever. I've had it for long time. Like over a yr now. And what confuses me the most, is that i still have baby fever and I'm not even with my ex anymore, who was pressurin me to have his next kids.
& I wanted to but the only thing stopping baby fever is that I'm still in school, and that I'd miss camp. IDK. Well it doesn't stop it. It just controls it.
N whenever Target puts me to work in the infants section, it gets my eggs all in an uproar. [LOL]

So yea I'm waiting, n its not like I have someone to be a baby daddy, but it like, idk I want my childdd.

THIS IS NOT NORMAL. NOT FOR A 19-YR OLD.
FUCK THE WHAT?

N I don't want a 100% white child. lol. I want him mixed, with, idc what else, anything but aryan blonde hair blue eyes.. If I could choose I'd have a boy. Yea I've had alot of time to think about it.

But it's pretty impossible for me to get pregnant. Because if I'm just a few hours even off of taking my pill, I get fuckn cramps n bleed. So I'm a nazi with that. Cuz otherwise its just fucking inconvenient.

I wish I could adopt. I'd have a kid, n eventually rescue one. Go overseas n adopt a behbeh.

I sound nuts. But I feeeel like I'm 21-22. Seriously.
*sigh* I just need the real world to kick me a little harder in the ass. Thats y I wanna move out n be broke frm payn rent. Maybe that'll kick my fever.

Oh n for me to remember how much I love partying n having free time, n spending money on myself. Cuz with a kid, can't do it. So I just wanna live it up now n do as many things as I can that I couldn't do if I was preg or had a child to take care of.
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