Friday, April 21, 2006

I recently started playing The Elder Scrolls III: Morrowind again, and it's reminded me how much I missed playing it. And glitches are incredible fun to take advantage of. However, the three hours you spend getting all of your stats up to something near 39,900 is not fun.

But being able to run up to a random person and go 'shink!' is really fun.

--Sere
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Saturday, April 15, 2006

*fangirlfangirlfangirlfangirl* EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
OURAN HIGH SCHOOL HOST CLUB IS AN ANIME!!!!!!!!! I'm about to die of happiness. I LOVE the manga, and it's an ANIME!!!!! EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!! *can't fangirl enough* Seriously, this is great. I'm seriously sitting and watching it with a exuberant expression and my hands clasped to my busom. AND OH MY GOD HUNNY'S VOICE ACTOR IS PERFECT! Eeee, eeee, eeee, it's all so cute and it totally respects the manga! EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!! I never did expect the uniforms to be . . . uh, yellow, though. I think I'm going to die of the cute. I still, however, totally want Tamaki's babies. Hopefully the episodes will be coming out faster than the manga, heehee! *is so horribly evil* EEEEEEEEEE, Haruhi is soooo kyoot! *fangirlsfangirlsfangirls* The way Tamaki finds out in the anime is more amusing, methinks, and Haruhi looks SOOOOOO CUTE.

I will SOOOOO be waiting for the next episodes to make it onto the internet. The style is adorable, the music is great, and I think they're really pushing the TamakixHaruhi relationship, from what I've seen of the opening credits. *watches the first episode again like, five times* Just toooooooooo cute!

On another note, I've also been watching Erementar Gerad, which is this story about a boy named Coud (I think it would probably translate to Cloud) who finds a girl - Ren - in a coffin-like box, and it finds out she's a living weapon - an Eden Raid - who binds with him and she wants to go to the Garden of Eden - where all Eden Raids are born - and Coud is like, "Mmmmkay. I'll take you cause you're cute and it's so obvious I'm going to fall in love with you." And, uh, the romance between Coud and Ren is pretty much the whole series, from what I've seen. And the only reason I'm watching it is because Dai bought me a figurine of Ren from the series and I thought she was so cute and just HAD to know what her series was. And I had heard a little of the plotline and had to know if it was as screwy as I had heard. And what do you know -- it was.

I've never really been a recent anime watcher, but these are two animes I'm definitely watching. *fangirls some more*

--Sere
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Wednesday, April 12, 2006

Alas, poor Yorick! I knew him, Horatio.
I'm so tired of being a petty and jealous person. I'm jealous of a girl I don't even know, who is apparently better friends with my best friend than I am even though they're nearly strangers.

It's so stupid of me to be jealous.

I'm jealous of so many people for stupid reasons. I'm 18, I should be more mature than this.

When did I become this way?

--Sere
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Sunday, April 9, 2006

Nostalgia at its finest.
Thundercats DVDs

. . . wow. Please kill me, I actually want to buy the Thundercats DVDs. And seeing that makes me want to find all the old anime series I used to watch and see if there are DVDs. Like Voltron: DEFENDAR OF THE UNIVARSE!!!!!! I loved watching Voltron. I wanted to be the princess. I apparently had a thing for pink, because I wanted to be Kimberly (the pink ranger) and the princess Allura, who dressed in pink (but pilots the blue cat, hmm). How come the only person who had their uniform matching their lion was Pidge, the smart midget? I miss all the old shows I used to watch. Like Ronin Warriors. I was in love with Sage, the green dude. Everyone still swears he's gay, BUT HE'S NOT. Actually, if it weren't for the girl (Mia, I think), I'd say they were all gay. They sure looked it. What other old series did I watch? Gundam Wing, of course. Macross, but I can't remember if Macross was really Robotech redone or the other way around. And DBZ. Yes, I watched DragonBall Z. I have to shoot myself now that I admitted it to the public, but I watched it. And Digimon. And Monster Rancher. Anyone remember Monster Rancher? And Power Rangers. And Transformers. And, the Johnny Quest show that tried to be 3D but failed miserably. The Adventures of Johnny Quest? Captain Planet, Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, Ducktales, Bonkers, Freakazoid, Biker Mice from Mars.

I watched a lot of television as a kid, geez.

--Sere
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Thursday, April 6, 2006

Random rantings and ramblings of a crazy person.
Here's something that annoys me: when a guy acts more like a stuck-up girl than I do. I hate it. I mean, there's nothing wrong with a guy that is sensitive, because you know that they can understand you, but when you don't want to talk to someone because if you say something they don't like they sign off and go sulk, it's frustrating. Then again, I've been not talking to this guy much because he doesn't think before he says something and most of the conversation is him making fun of me. And it's so stupid. He'll make fun of me all he wants, but the minute I retaliate, he gets all huffy about it, like I insulted his very core of being or something.

But the thing is, you're not allowed to make fun of someone without letting them make fun of you back. The road runs both ways. If you make fun of someone, they get to make fun of you. It's what is fair, and if you don't like it, then don't make fun of people. Plain, simple, easy.

Sadly, even though that is a commonly known factoid, people still think they can make fun of someone with immunity. Such is the fate of the human race, I guess. *shrugs*

Choir contest in the morning. Huzzah! [/sarcasm]

--Sere
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Wednesday, April 5, 2006

Shooooo tired. ~_~
Nothing to report here, other than OMGWTFSTRESS, and OMGWTFWANTTOKILLPEOPLE.

Although, in good news, I get to participate in the Choir contest on Thursday. I was sooo anxious the whole weekend that I'd get a failing notice, and I never got one and it made me so relieved. I already missed out on Solo/Ensemble contest because of grades *kicks AP Psych* and I WASN'T going to miss out on the 5A contest because of grades too. It does suck that we can't get our pieces together in a manner that doesn't absolutely SUCK (it's the male section of the choir, sadly) and the choir contest is so close. I JUST managed to get the second girl's choir piece memorized, but it's French. You'll have to excuse me if it's a little crazy to memorize.

But yeah. I have a crazy amount of stuff to do. Ugh.

Also, I had to go to the doctor on Friday, and it was not a happy-fun time. I had a crazy amount of stuff done and I spent most of the time running from the 3rd floor to the 2nd floor and vice versa because someone had forgotten to do a test. In all, I had a hearing/vision test, a lung function test, a physical, x-rays for my hips (I still have to pick up the stretches), a vaccine for meningitis, and blood drawn. It took almost two and a half hours to get all that done. I left at 12:50 to get there, and didn't get home until 3:30. I just hate it because I still have a huge bruise where I got my blood drawn (it's this nasty yellow colour now, blech) and my shot still hurts a little, but not as much as it did. At least I can sleep on it.

--Sere

P.S. Senior research papers suck. They suck so bad they vacuum. Like a black hole. I HATE THEM SO MUCH.
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Monday, March 27, 2006

These are the days when you wonder if it's worth having friends.
Well, I'm back to limited or no internet access, bleh. I'll get on when I can, but I don't know how much I'll be on.

But in other news, that friend I was ranting about a couple posts down? Pissed me off big time yesterday.

She lied to me. Blatantly. For no reason.

In her LJ and her Xanga, she mentions that she purposely drank two bottles of vodka. "Well that's all for now, I have a green apple smirnoff with my name on it! HUZZAH!!!!" and "meh last night i was unsuccesful in getting tipsy from two bottles of smirnoff". I don't really mind about that, I mean, I don't approve of underage drinking but if that's what she wants to do, then I'll let her do it. If you want to go out and be a total slutwhorebitchtramp, fine with me. It's your life.

I'm pissed, because when she talked to me on AIM, she said she "ACCIDENTLY" drank two bottles of vodka and thought they were Jones Soda. When her journal CLEARLY says differently.

I mean, why lie? And about something so STUPID, even? If she was lying to me about this, how much other stuff has she lied to me about? I really thought I could trust her, but I've quickly learned that I'm not so sure.

Just a note to all you smart people: If you're going to lie about something to one of your friends, MAKE SURE YOUR JOURNAL SAYS THE SAME THING, cause your friends really DO read your journals. And will know if you're lying to them. And, yes, they will get mad at you for it, because guess what? YOU DON'T LIE TO YOUR FRIENDS ABOUT SOMETHING STUPID.

I can understand if it's a big problem and you really don't want your friends to know about it until you think they can handle it and you can handle it, but don't lie about stupid things. Don't lie about small things. People always think that it's the big things that get you caught, but it's not. It's the little small lies that you don't even think about that screw you up.

So just don't lie, and you don't have to worry about getting caught, kthnxs.

--Sere
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Friday, March 24, 2006

God loved me when I did StVS. Some of my best damn writing is right there. Then again, I went through this time when I wrote like crap and someone should have ran me over with a cement truck and then I wrote really good.

Can I PLEAZ get back into that 'good' time? I need it. I am currently stuck on KING. However, I might be stuck because it's almost 6 in the morning and I have a shitload of projects due. And three days to do them-including today, that is.

I might as well get at least an hour of sleep and then do my projects. And hope that Illusion posts because I might just forego an introduction post and say Althena was shut off the whole time or something stupid like that.

Yeah, signing off now.

--Sere
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Monday, March 20, 2006

I'm not a happy Sere, YOU HAVE BEEN WARNEDEDED.
Well, apparently one of my good friends got disowned on Tuesday and is currently living in a different town and - from what I've read - is planning on staying there, and you know what the greatest thing about it all is?

I HAD NO FUCKING CLUE. At all. I mean, she didn't call (apparently her phone died and she didn't have my number memorized, I think it's a load of bullshit), didn't drop by, nothing. Fucking TUESDAY.

I mean, what the fucking hell. I've been used to her not coming online for a couple days (I mean, no one can be on EVERY DAY and have a life) but I had been getting worried.

Bloody fucking TUESDAY. Two days short of a week in the dark. And I know she's been able to get online somehow, but she didn't even send me a mail.

All she went on about were her 'new-found' friends, and about how they were sooo nice for letting her stay with them. She apparently didn't even think that my parents might have let her crash here. IN TOWN. Not AN HOUR AND A FUCKING HALF OUT OF TOWN.

It's seriously made me think: what kind of friend am I to her, then? I mean, she gets kicked out of the house and decides to stay with a person she's just met? She doesn't try to get in touch, or have her dad get ahold of me to make sure she's okay?

Fuck it. I'm probably making a mountain out of a mole hill. Molehill? Eh, who cares. I probably wouldn't even be angry like this if I hadn't quit my Effexor.

Yeah. I quit my Effexor. Pretty much cold-turkey. And I know that it was probably the most retarded thing I've done, but I was just SO TIRED of the fact that if I didn't take it every day I'd have withdraw symptoms. And I guess I've just gotten tired of trying to fake it. I never FELT any better taking it. I mean, I think I felt like bawling like a baby less with it, but I can get over that.

I was tired of being dependent. Because I'm too dependent. I'm graduating in FUCKING MAY, and I feel like I'm 13. I haven't grown up yet. And that's stupid. I'm legally an adult now, I should start acting like one. I have been so dependent on my medicine that I've trained myself to believe I can't be happy without it. That I HAD to have it to be happy. That's bullshit.

I mean, yeah, I'm clinically depressed. My brain doesn't make enough of the happy neurotransmitters and therefore I like to stay in bed and cry a lot. But I've let that anchor me to one spot. Just like with Dustin, I had let it consume me and I couldn't move on. So it's time for me to quit making an excuse for the fact that I'm weak and stand up.

It's several years too late for me to realise that I need to quit being such a baby, but hell, it took my sister to 22 to probably have the same epiphany I'm having now.

I WILL learn to be stronger.

In other, equally as unhappy news, I've remembered why I hate wearing dresses. My lack of torso and large hips make me look like a whale when I wear a dress. A very large and unhappy whale. Such a reminder does not bode well for Prom, in which girls wear dresses. Dresses that make me look like a whale. Curse you, genes!

--Sere

I also want to mention, that if I were of legal drinking age, I think I'd be drunk off my ass right about now. It has been one of those moments that makes me want to take up underage drinking. (In all of my 18 years, I have only taken swigs of alcoholic beverages, and they have all tasted horrible. I am proud of myself.)
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Sunday, March 19, 2006

Mehness.
Just as a word of warning (and apology), I don't know how much I'll be on the next few weeks. It's really bad timing (since I'm signed up for an RPT, gomen ne, Reiku!), but my computer time is limited (I'm currently on the main computer doing this) so I won't be updating much and I'll probably not be on OB any. Unless I get lucky.

Other than that, I don't have anything to say. Except that I'm glad it's Spring Break. Spring Break is nice. Most of it will be spent doing homework, however. *sob sob* And doing chores. *more sobs*

I gave myself a burn today. I was cooking and my wrist somehow tapped the edge of the pan. It's about an inch in length, but it hasn't really hurt. I mean, normally when I get burns and I don't put ice on them they hurt like crazy, but this hasn't. It's really weird. And it hasn't blistered up like most burns normally do. It just looks like a big scar. I don't really know what to think about it.

Anyway, that's all. I'm off.

--Sere
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