Saturday, July 9, 2005

   -sigh-
nobody even comes to my site...and if they do, they don't comment on anything...i hoped that i could have at least a few friends here...and i do, but...i'd hoped more would keep in contact. i comment on alot of people's art, but i never get anything back. maybe i'm just selfish? eh....truthfully, i kinda knew nobody would like my art. i'm not that good and my camera sucks. i don't have a scaner.....
i dunno, i guess i'm just a little depressed lately.

My heart is black
my mind off track
i can't get back
to the way i used to be...

i dunno, i just made that up like, five seconds ago. and there is some little kid show on tv that is driving up the flippin wall because it's so happy and cheerful, saying "No, it's not hard to grow up" well guess what kids? those liars are messing with your heads! growing up sucks more than a kid with a lollipop!
>,< grrr....
so far, i hate being 14. life isn't fun for me. i was happy a couple of hours ago, but now...i'm utterly miserable. the kids got hyper, then settled down, mostly, and now are so silent it's freaky. my art is suffering lately....i drew something last night, but should i post it? -sigh- i was listening to L'Arc~en~ciel late last night and drew it to the song "Coming Closer".

No one hears
No one hears you
No one cares what you do
can't slow it down
you know this is your fate
are you feeling lonely?
so lonely, lonely
cry to the wind...

...........jaa ne, i guess.
Kaze Sakaku...over and out.
~*PockyShinobi*~

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   Babysitting is actually fun~! ^.^
the kids are watchin Stuck On You, which in my personal opinion is pretty funny. they are being total angels today, and i'm really having fun with them. Their names are Kristine and Alan, and to me are more like friends than kids i babysit. really, it's alot of fun, plus i get paid pretty well. Alan's birthday is tomorrow, and i feel bad because i didn't get him anything. and Kristine's is in three....so i have to get them both something. hmmmm..... but what? -ponder ponder-

things are sometimes a little hectic, but i handle it fairly well. and i get to eat and draw. and for some reason they always turn out good. -shrug- feels like a second home.

they are playing with the dog.....lol! thier dog is really cute. one ear goes up and one goes down....like a puppy! and apperently, likes cheezits.

Well, i got to go now.....
Kaze Sakaku, Over and Out!
~*PockyShinobi*~

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   UBERLY MEGA MORALITY BLOODY DEATH HYPERNESS!
WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!! i am UBERLY byper to the extent of eating a sock! MUAHAHAHAHA! DIE STUPID SOCK! -bounce-
Did you know that if you eat chocolate at 10:12 at night you get more energetic than you would during the day?! my brother is playing System of A Down right now....this Cocaine make me Feel Like I'm On this Song! that's the name of the song, but you know? drug are bad for you! (nodding furiously)i have absolutely NO idea HOW i can type right now because i'm shaking and twitching and and.........0.0 OH MY GOD! A NOODLE! GET IT AWAY! AHHHHHHHHH!!!
-runs sreaming and somehow manages to get into the teletubbie land place- 0.0 OH MY GOD.......this place....it's.....AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

yeah, i'm hyper. got a probelm? to freakin' bad! so WHAT if it's late?! in Japan, it's daytime! i can be as freakin' hyper as i want! SUGAR RUSH! SUUUUUUUGAAAAAARR!!!!!
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-giggles- okay....i think i'm better now.....so i'd better go before my insanity comes ringing my doorbell again....
-creeps away slowly-
Kaze Sakaku, Over and Out!
~*PockyShinobi*~
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Friday, July 8, 2005

   ehhhhh....just woke up.....
-YAAAAWN- it's 10:12 am here in California right now...and since it's summer, i've been trying to sleep more....but i've babysat everyday this week and am doing so again tomorrow. My head hurts a little....but that's probably from the disgusting pizza i ate about half an hour ago. I put up some fanart...but being the baka kitsune i am, i put up the wrong picture, so this morning, i put up the real one. ^.^;; comments are welcome, and i do realize that it's not great. it was a year ago...in Febuary...actually, it was for my mom's uh....34th? yeah...so that was TWO years ago...i'll try to put more recent ones up later.
Kaze Sakaku, Over and Out!
~*PockyShinobi*~
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Thursday, July 7, 2005

   i'm not here very often, am i?
huh.....i guess i should update more often. my birthday was just a little while ago, and i've been trying to make more friends. i suppose i'm fairly depressed lately, because i'm moving from all my freinds here...and i dunno how i'm going to adjust. it's pretty hard on me and my family, mostly because we're biting each other's heads off over little things. i guess my poems and art have become a little on the dark side....and i'm going for more...umm....solid colors more than pictures. my stupid computer isn't working right and it keeps shutting down, so i can't really post any of my fanart. -sigh- i have alot to do...so for everyone who comes to my site, i'm sorry, but i might not be here alot to update. i will try, tho. here's a poem for y'all....i guess....

I'm not crazy,
but i'm not sane
why must i play
this messed up game?
Hold my soul
please don't break it
lost in my fear
i just can't take it

that one's lame......i have one about suicide somewhere that's fairly good...made all my teachers cry. heh!
Kaze Sakaku, Over and Out
~*PockyShinobi*~
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Saturday, July 2, 2005

   slightly bored
-sigh- none of my friends are on right now. i'm kinda lonely. has anyone ever noticed how much moving sucks? not only are you mentally tired...your whole body seems to ache. my back is totally worn out....and i think i'm having a reaction to someting in the air...it's july and i'm as sick as a wet dog in the middle of December. heh! fun..NOT. my art is suffering because i've lost all ideas thanks to overexhaustion and complete boredom. AHH! ^.^ i'd like it if more people actually VISITED my site...
Sakaku, over and out
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Tuesday, June 28, 2005

   Howl's Moving Castle
hey everyone. barely anybody reads this, but oh well. just wanted to talk about Howl's Moving Castle a little bit. man, i've loved this movie since day one. went to see it June 17th(the last day of school for me) at the El Capitan theatre in Hollywood the first day it came out. and let me tell ya...Howl. Is. HOT.
i won't ruin the story for those who have not seen it, but i highly recommend it. it takes place around the industrial period, and it mixes witches and wizards into the mix. Sophie is a girl who is cursed by the wicked witch of the waste. (hmmm..sounds familar?) and cannot tell anyone of her curse. she is turned into an old woman when she feels bad about herself, or thinks she is not good for anything. she falls in love with the uberly hot Howl (who can blame her?) when she becomes his maid basically. House-keeper. whatever. for all those people who have seen it...isn't Markel CUTE?! i LOVED it when he hugged Sophie and said "Don't go, Sophie! I love you!" i mean...AWWWW! =^.^=
Howl....mmmm. he's awesome. somewhat of a "i'm too cool" pretty boy at first...but when he begins to know Sophie he lightens up and becomes a total sweetheart. he's adorable when he's excited! he tries to make Sophie feel at home in the Moving Castle, and eventually wants to protect her. and Sophie gives him courage to stop running away...(he's a coward) and fight the war that the movie is about. All the while the REASON for the war is basically kept secret thru the WHOLE movie, but it's RIGHT THERE in front of you. really fun, really cute, and you get to see Howl's butt. ^.^ A+ is my opinion. well, Kaze Sakaku, Over and Out!
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