Monday, November 12, 2007

Over and Over
Song: Over and Over by Nelly ft. Tim McGraw

I royally messed up yesterday. I was hanging out with Alyssa and I did some stuff that I shouldn't have. Like relationship ending kind of stuff. And I'm sooooo sorry for it. Here's the deal.

We ate at the local pizza joint and I got kind of tired of being there, so we moved the party to the movie theater, where my favorite DDR machine is. We were playing and then I hear an oh so familiar voice...the one of my ex girlfriend. Seeing her put me into this protective mode and I wouldn't even kiss or hug Alyssa. Needless to say, it made her feel really left out and like I was ashamed of being with her, when all I was doing was being protective of myself and trying not to start any drama between my ex and Alyssa. But then, I guess I was so upset and frustrated that I snapped at Alyssa and yelled at her.

Like I said, I screwed up. And I'm still trying to make it better. Alyssa says it's ok, but I really know it's not. It's not ok to do that kind of stuff to anyone, especially your girlfriend. I don't want to lose her, because she is the person that I can't wait to see when we go on dates and she just makes me feel awesome, while I make her feel like crap sometimes....which isn't how it should be, but I let my stupid fears step in the way of our relationship. I really do love Alyssa with all my heart and I just want to be there for her and make her feel special.
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Comment Corner:

John3:16: I see your point, but sometimes I do get frustrated about the whole respect thing. I tend to turn the other cheek and suck it up, but there is such thing as common courtesy in this world. I'm a human, just like you. I have a life, family, friends...etc. I don't deserve being treated like a criminal or a little kid when I did nothing to deserve it in the first place....y'know?

I do give all my glory to the lord though. Like Proverbs 3 says " Trust in the LORD with all your heart, And do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He will make your paths straight." It's my favorite passage and one of the greatest promises of the scripture. So I find that's something to base my life off of.
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Alrighty everyone, I have some serious soul searching to do, but I promise that I will make it better. Have a good day everyone.

God Bless
Korey

1. O Lord, who shall sojourn in thy tent? Who shall dwell on thy holy hill? 2. He who walks blamelessly, and does what is right, and speaks truth from his heart; 3. who does not slander with his tongue, and does no evil to his friend, nor takes up a reproach against his neighbor; 4. in whose eyes a reprobate is despised, but who honors those who fear the Lord; who swears to his own hurt and does not change; 5. who does not put out his money at interest, and does not take a bribe against the innocent. He who does these things shall never be moved.

Psalms 15
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