Monday, June 26, 2006

another poem for my bffl and her bf too ^^ oh and for me and eric ^^
ok yall this is for my friend kagomegirl3 ya girl u know who u are ^^ the poem is called love ^^ i think it is a good poem and kitcat show it to tyler its for both of you ^^

LOVE
everynight i cant sleep my mind is overflowing with thoughts of you i open and close my eyes i love you i say that im my head over and over again i have to find you and tell you everything that i feel about you not just that i love you but everything i love you for and i dont want to write it down i want to speak my love i awnt to shout it out to the heavens i want everyone to know but then again i dont i want you and only you thats all i want, you dont have to buy me things to impress me because every minute spent with you is like a lifetime spent,with you everyone and everything seems to disapear into thin air it seems as if we are the only two people on earth looking back on the memories i spent with you i realize that all i want is a love that will last forever but unfortunitly that long lasting love disapears and you as well,just as soon as i wake up it will all be gone


well i hope you guys like it especially you kitcat and tyler seee ya^^
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Monday, June 5, 2006

   -_0 wink lol
lol well here is a new up date on my profile x.x its a poem its called ...life and death..its a love poem so dont worry guys and gurls especialy u squirrel ^^ this poem has a backround to it lets see hmm lets just say its for eric espinosa the one person out there that has ever seen me for who i am ... and i can be myself around him...

LIFE AND DEATH

life is the thing tha clings us to this place we call earth but the one question is what is death is death another life or just a thing that happens i wounder what death will bring me weather it is heaven or hell or weather i will stay on earth does heaven like me? well if heaven wont have will hell? i dont know to be honest i welcome death i know it will bring me happyness but as i keep waiting for death to come you cross my mind and i start to fear death i fear that i will never see you again as i sit in the darkness waiting for you to come and save me and take me to another place far away from the life that i live i shut myself out wishing for you to come and help me out of this hell that i have fallen into i am waiting for you to come through the darkness and put some light into my life i try to fade away from everything try to get away from the darkness but the darkness keeps pulling me back i try to grab onto something to hold on to but i keep losing grip im about to five up but thne you cross my mind and then i know i can never give up not unless i never want to see you again i dram they seem so real but then i wake up and i realize that your not there i cry while lyring there in the darkness im waiting for you to to come and save me you see me smile everyday because im trying to stay im my own world as far form reality as possible cuz in realit i knwo the truththat if i go back to reality the darkness will consume me once again and i will have to keep trying to find a wayout again by myself because you may never come for me but somewhere in my black broken heart i know that you are trying to get me out by making me smile and laugh everytime you get a chance so i am never going to give up hope tha you will oneday waounder into the darkness hopeing to find me and take me back with you into the light
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Saturday, May 20, 2006

   hello everyone guess wut
well ok here is all how it started last week i told this guy named dylan that i kinda had a crush on him and well ya so then the week after he gives me his cell phone # and then i took it and called him that night and well we made short talk cuz my mom made me do the dishes but he called me back an hour later then the next day during the week he started giving me hugs isnt that cute? well anyway then on thursday he called me up again well ok text messaged me and asked me out on a date so last night we went out on a date we listend to music and then he took me to dinner and i swear he was so cute when he is trying to be romantic he he and then today we went to the skating rink and he treated me to a drink he is so cute!!! he he i cant stop saying that well ya see ya
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Tuesday, December 27, 2005

  
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Thursday, December 22, 2005

   hi every one look i am not allowed to chat online ne more
im not allowed to chat onine ne more *cries* sorry it is such a big loss to me no fair no fair sigh wut will i do now hmm *pulls out pen and paper* ahhh ne suggestions i cant get this
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Friday, November 18, 2005

   hi everybody im bk
hi peeps im bk but i wont be online tomarrow cuz my cousin alex is pregnant it is a boy yay oh and i know it is a little young but she is fifteen and her bf is a goth not that i have a problem with goths ok so no offense to those different ok ^^ well anyway ill be at my cousins house so yea see yal later ok
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Sunday, October 30, 2005

   hey did any one catch that japanise movie with the town and demons
i did i was creepy cuz at the end when the little boy found out that his sister beat the game and became the demond oh man then she started singing (one two three four five six seven eight nine ten ready or not here i come) then she sang (come play hide and seek with me) it was really creepy oh i got goosebumps down my spine
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Saturday, October 22, 2005

here is another poem ok well dont tell anyone but i used to cut myself so this sounds like a good poem ok
ok well first of all katlyn if u read this dont be alarmed remember i used to not doing it anymore ok here we go

I AM A FAKE

SMALL SIMPLE SAFE RISE TO CARRY ALL OF MY REGRETS THIS IS NOT A SMALL CUT THAT SCABS AND DRIES AND FLAKES AND HEALS I AM NOT AFRAID TO DIE BLEED AND FUCK AND FIGHT I WANT THE PAIN OF PAYMENT WHATS LEFT BEHIND BUT A SECTION OF PIGMY SIZED CUTS MORE LIKE A SLEW OF A THOUSAND OF A THOUSAND OF UNWANTED FUCKS WOULD U BE MY LITTLE CUT WOULD U BE MY THOUSAND FUCKS AND MAKE MARK LEAVING SPACE FOR THE GUILT TO BE LIQUID TO FILL AND SPILL OVER AND UNDER MY EVERY THOUGHT MY SAD SORRY SELFISH CRY OUT TO THE CUTTER I AM CUTTING TRYING TO PICTURE UR BLACK BROKEN HEART LOVE ISNT LIKE ANYTHING ESPECIALLY A FUCKING KNIFE
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Thursday, October 13, 2005

   omg school was so funny
i so got in trouble today at school and here is how it happend ok well we were coming back from the theater stage and back to math class and we had a substatute for math and kimmy just said i sware the sub is gonna break mrs coleys chair then when mrs corley comes back she will say what the hell happend to my chair so me and judy started laughing hard in class so she said u want to join brice in the princeaples office then keep laughing so we laughed harder then the sub said yea getting in trouble from the priceaple i like that then me and judy started laughing harder and harder then we said ok were done then allen said something funnny and made us laugh again and then kimmy said omg amber judy are u ok they are gonna die from laughter we laughed harder then i didnt want to get in anymore trouble then i was already in so i put my hoody hood over my head and laughed harder with judy kimmy said amber judy dont die so the sub said amber shirley judy baker then judy allen and kimmy said amber didnt do anything then she said both of u girls get out of my room now then when we didnt listen she yelled get out of my room so me and judy got up grabbed our stuff but the sub said leave ur stuff then judy didnt listen then she yelled at judy then me and judy went out side of the room then the sub said sit down we didnt sit down so she closed the door and left then judy and i stood at the door looking at the window then she said see im sitting down then judy used the window as a mirror it was so funny and fun then the bell rang for school to end and me and judy went to go get our stuff and the sub said ur not going anywhere then judy said its four oclock we can go where ever we want so judy shoved the sub and i followed it was soooooooooo funny ok bye

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Sunday, October 2, 2005

OK HERES ANOTHER POEM
HEY HERES ANOTHER DEPRESSING POEM AND SAME THING AS THE LAST ONE IF U CANT TAKE IT DONT READ IT K, HERE WE GO THIS ONE IS CALLED DARKNESS AND IT ROCKS OK,
MY WHOLE LIFE IS SURROUNDED BY DARKNESS THE DARKNESS IS THE ONLY THING THAT KEEPS ME COMPANY THE DRAKNESS IS A BETTER FRIEND THAN ALL OF THE FRIENDS THAT I HAVE AT HOME IF THERE WHERE A LIGHT WOULD I TAKE IT WHO KNOWS MAYBE BUT WHERE WOULD THE LIGHT TAKE ME AND WHO WOULD TAKE ME THERE WHO KNOWS AND IF I DID TAKE THAT LIGHT WOULD IT BE A HAPPY PLACE OR A SAD PLACE WOULD IT HAVE MYSTICAL OR DISASTEROUSE THINGS WHO KNOWS AND WHAT WOULD HAPPEN TO THE DARKNESS WOULD IT REMAIN AND WAIT FOR ME TO COME BACK OR WOULD IT FOLLOW ME THROUGHOUT MY LIFE SO I CAN COME BACK WHEN I FEEL WHO KNOWS WOULD I LIKE THE LIGHT BETTER THAN THE DARKNESS OR WOULD I HATE IT MORE THAN THE DARKNESS WHO KNOWS IF I WENT WOULD I BE HAPPY OR SAD JOYFUL OR LONELY WHO KNOWS AND IF THAT LIGHT CAME WOULD IT COME FOR ME AND WOULD I BE READY TO TAKE THAT LAST STEP INTO THE DARKNESS OR WOULD I DISAPERE FURTHER INTO THE DARKNESS WHO KNOWS NO ONE HAS COME YET BUT WHEN THEY DO I WILL KNOW
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