Friday, September 8, 2006

   friday at last...
it's finally friday..and i'm sooooo tired it's unbeleivable..but anywho. My weekend is looking great, you know what i'm doing? Absolutly nothing..i might go to sethy's football game tommorow but other then that i'm staying home and sleeping off the last four weekends..cause i don't get peace anymoroooorrreeee!!!

Teh sethos requires sleep!!

Anyways...how's life everyone...mine is boaring and tiring and such...hip hip hooray!!

L8ter Daze,
Sethos
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Thursday, September 7, 2006

   back at school..
So like, sitting in first period again...it's really hot in here...So this is something that i need to get out of the way before i forget to do it at all..

IF YOU ARE GOING TO ONICON AND CAN POSSIBLY FIT ONE MORE PERSON IN YOUR VEHICLE LET ME KNOW IMMERDIATLY PLEASE!!!!I'M WILLING TO PAY GAS!!

That's really all i needed to say..i would be working on my fanfic right now because it needs to get done so i can start to type it up...but i have blockage in mah brain..the ideas aren't coming in like they should..i guess it's cause i'm so busy..anyways...that's all for now..i'll be back later with some more un-exciting updates.

L8ter Daze,
Sethos
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Wednesday, September 6, 2006

   urggh..
So like, being sick sucks ass!

I've been doing nothing but watching re-runs of stupid cop shows all day cause the remote is on the other side of the room and i can't stand up for to long with out being sick..So like my mom helped me upstairs so i could at least talk to someone.

Well all day has given me time to think and get some things out of the way before onicon, which is pretty helpful..but it still sucks staying home and falling even more behind in math..grrr..

anyways...back to staring into space..bai..

L8ter Daze,
Sethos
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Tuesday, September 5, 2006

   yo..
Minor update from first period. i now have a myspace for anyone who wants to add me.

Screename: Sethos
email: sethos_chaos_ruler@yahoo.com

And for those of you who would use this to send me annoying chain letters, my email is down and only works to set up accounts. so enjoy that.

L8ter Daze,
Sethos
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Friday, September 1, 2006

"What confuses me.."
Time: 8:23pm
Song: Do you call my name
Artist: RA

~~ lyrics ~~
Some people seem to think they always know what's best for you
Their little minds try to create a world to keep you still
The bolt is thrown, the cage is locked
You saw this, don't you lie
At first you cry and then you hate those people stole your will...
Do as you are told and maybe then we'll let you out
You might be dead and cold, you might be full of doubt
Don't try to escape cuz you don't have nowhere to go
If nothing is your fate... there's no scenario
No nothing
Do you call my name
Do you stain my brain
My eyes are blurry and I can't see you anymore
Do you call my name
Do you breed my pain
My heart is bloody and I can't take it anymore
So you just sit there, stuck, afraid to risk reality
Afraid to cause yourself more pain, to face insanity
But nothing ventured, nothing gained
You see... your fear's your cage
You beg for help but you're alone, stuck in a helpless rage
Do as you are told and maybe then we'll let you out
You might be dead and cold, you might be full of doubt
Don't try to escape cuz you don't have nowhere to go
If nothing is your fate... there's no scenario
(it's me.... I see, please... let me out I'm petrified)
Do as you are told and maybe then we'll let you out
You might be dead and cold, you might be full of doubt
Don't try to escape cuz you don't have nowhere to go
If nothing is your fate... there's no scenario
(C'mon)
Do you call my name
Do you stain my brain
My eyes are blurry and I can't see you anymore
Do you call my name
Do you breed my pain
My heart is bloody and I can't take it anymore (2x)

~~ lyrics ~~


Today in english, we read an essay that was written for TAKs by one of our senoirs. It was a free topic, and the title was "What confuses me." And as we read it, i started to think about the words, and i started to cry..So i asked for a copy of that essay, so that i could write it here.

"What confuses me."

Last night I watched a starving child cry.
I could see the sharp outline of his bones jutting out from beneath his taught skin- his rib cage heaving visibly as the sobs shook his poor, fragile body. I saw his swollen belly and the way his limbs hung limply at his sides, like broken twigs. But what stayed with me were his eyes. Sunken and shadowed in their sockets, his tears seeming to glitter from the depths of some profound emotion that I could not seem to grasp or understand. I watched as they carved shiny, silver traces through the dust on his cheeks, and for a breif moment I wondered whether he could really see me.
Seconds later he was gone - replaced by a the image of a dancing Coca-Cola dan as the news broadcast switched over to a commercial. And I sat there, mulling over his predicament while wondering whether or not to start my Calculus homework. To me, he was nothing more then a poster child, and I had homework to do.
You may ask me what confuses me in life. I'll tell oyu. i'm confused by the fact that I sleep in a two-story, four-bedroom house while an African family of twelve huddles in a dilapidated old shack made of sticks and mud.I'm confused by the fact that i'm five pounds overweight whereas others haven't seen a bite of food in over a week. i'm confused by the fact that the bracelet I wear around my wrist could support a child for a month. I'm confused by the fact that I watched that helpless little boy cry - and didn't shed a tear.
I wonder when I changed, when I became so devoid of human emotion that I could look misery in the eye and merely shrug my shoulders. Touch break,kis! Life's rough. When I think about it, I frighten myself. It seem as though there's a side of me that I didn't eve know existed - one that has become so numb to the tragedies of this world that it no longer feels the tug of simple human kindness. I can rant and rave about the injustices of this world until I'm blue in the face...I can spout out Bible verses about love and charity until my voice turns hoarse..But the fact remains the same: I didn't cry.That confuses me.
That night as I layt in bed, the boy's image flashed before me again in my mind. And suddenly it occured to me: he has a name. In that single, swift instant, something inside of me seemed to give way. He was a real person, flesh and blood - living under the same sky, sleeping under the same moon. It's hard to forces yourself to see something you are so willing to ignore. It's easier to spare youself the pain than embrace the truth. But at theat moemtn i knew that i was helpless to cvhange the reality before me. That boy had gone to bed hungry.
But he no longer cried alone.


This story really touched me..i haven't cried in a while and that really got to me..So yes, that was the information of the day..

L8ter Daze,
Sethos
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Tuesday, August 29, 2006

   this class is kinda boooorinnggggg.
I'm sitting in my first period listening to a lecture from the sub..which is boaring..so i'll update again later when i'm not supposed to be listening to her...

This last week has been nothin interesting..but not as bad as i felt it would be...i have a job interveiw tommorow..woo

gotta go!!

L8ter Daze,
sethos.
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Tuesday, August 15, 2006

Durr.
Time: 4:27 am
Song: Sexy Back
Artist: Justin Timberlake
Mood: confused/tired

~~ lyrics ~~

[Verse 1]
I'm bringing sexy back (yeah)
Them other boys don't know how to act (yeah)
I think what’s special is behind your back (yeah)
So turn around and I’ll pick up the slack. (yeah)

Take em' to the bridge (listen)

[Bridge]
Dirty babe (aha)
You see these shackles
Baby I'm your slave (aha)
I'll let you whip me if I misbehave (aha)
It's just that no one makes me feel this way (aha)

Take em' to the chorus

[Chorus]
Come here girl
Go ahead, be gone with it
Come to the back
Go ahead, be gone with it
VIP
Go ahead, be gone with it
Drinks on me
Go ahead, be gone with it
Let me see what you're twerking with
Go ahead, be gone with it
Look at those hips
Go ahead, be gone with it
You make me smile
Go ahead, be gone with it
Go ahead child
Go ahead, be gone with it
And get your sexy on (yes)
Go ahead, be gone with it

Get your sexy on (yes)
Go ahead, be gone with it
[X6]

Get your sexy on

[Verse 2]
I'm bringing sexy back (yeah)
Them other fuckers don't know how to act (yeah)
Come let me make up for the things you lack (yeah)
Cause your burning up I gotta get it fast (yeah)

Take em' to the bridge (listen)

[Bridge]

[Chorus]

You ready [x3]
Yes

[Verse 3]
I'm bringing sexy back (yeah)
You mother fuckers watch how I attack (yeah)
If that's your girl better watch your back (yeah)
Cause she'll burn it up for me and that's a fact (yeah)

Take em' to the chorus

[Chorus]

Your ready (yes) [x2]
Yes

~~ lyrics ~~

So like, i'm tired because, it's 4:30 in the morning and i can't get to sleep..and i'm confused, because i'm listening to a song that i hate...I hate this song...damn you justin timberlake and your good beats...i hate you...

So yeah, school starts on monday..joy..Not looking forward to that at all..Cause i won't be able to get online as much as i usually do..

I'm talking to DJ Toboe..whom i haven't talked to in months..since ushicon actually..i miss him lots..It's weird staying up this late after so long of going to sleep around 1..it's like being drunk..ya know?..

So anyways, that's all i have to report right now..other then the fact that i am..working on fanfiction even as we speak..or rather as i speak and you listen..i mean read...whatever..

Sethos: I think i'm gonna get her away from the computer before she starts sharing her life story again...

*hugs and <3's all around*

L8ter Daze,
Sethos.
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Monday, August 7, 2006

Life sucks..
Have you ever given up one of the things you enjoyed most, because you knew it would hold you back?..have you ever enjoyed something so much, and then have to leave it behind just so you could have a sucessful life....

I just got off the phone, from dropping color gaurd...It was one of my favorite classes, and one of the things i looked forward to every day..but in order to get the credits i need to graduate..and move on with sucess..i had to remove it from my schedual...so that i could have more time devoted to grades..

I don't think i've cried this hard in a long time..I didn't want to..but i know i had to do it..because i want to go to college..and have a good life..And to do that i can't afford that distraction right now..

It took me days to think about this..and now i finally did it...so..there just went a bit more joy from school..

till next time..
sethos.
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Thursday, August 3, 2006

   CHillin
So yeah, i'm chillin at cycon'shouse and such...i haven't been in ages!!!!!

So anyways, starting tommorow i willnot be online until sunday evening..cause i'llbe going to mah dear bunny-chan's house, to party!!!

So nothin much goin on....hung out at alex's house for awhilewith mary, dezzy, and alex's sister..she's cool she wants me to go to corpus with her before school starts agian..

Anywhooo i suppose that's it till later..i might be online later this evening..but i might now cause i got V for VEndetta otday!!!

L8ter DAze,
SEthos.
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Monday, July 31, 2006

Time: 10:38 pm
Song: Return to Innocence
Artist: Enigma

~~ lyrics ~~

That's not the beginning of the end
That's the return to yourself
The return to innocence
Love - Devotion
Feeling - Emotion
Love - Devotion
Feeling - Emotion
Don't be afraid to be weak
Don't be too proud to be strong
Just look into your heart my friend
That will be the return to yourself
The return to innocence
If you want, then start to laugh
If you must, then start to cry
Be yourself don't hide
Just believe in destiny
Don't care what people say
Just follow your own way
Don't give up and use the chance
To return to innocence
That's not the beginning of the end
That's the return to yourself
The return to innocence
Don't care what people say
Follow just your own way Follow just your own way
Don't give up, don't give up
To return, to return to innocence.
If you want then laugh
If you must then cry
Be yourself don't hide
Just believe in destiny.

~~ lyrics ~~

Have you ever spent a hole day thinking and end up not being able to fall asleep? A day when your thoughts run on and on and don't let you rest...

Thoughts that you didn't even know were there, and suddenly they shoot into your head like a bullet..

The sudden knowledge that everything i've ever known and loved..is about to change.. School is almost over..soon we'll all be going off to college, and careers and families...we'll all be different..And as much as i don't want it to happen, i see the changes happening every day..

I'll be up all night if you feel like calling.. And if i don't answer i suppose i have my music on..

Till next time..
Sethos
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