Saturday, September 23, 2006

   Into the Ocean
I'm just a normal boy
That sank when I fell overboard
My ship would leave the country
But i'd rather swim ashore

Without a life that's sadly stuck again
Wish I was much more masculine
Maybe then I could learn to swim
Like "Fourteen miles away"

You're floating up and down
I spin, colliding into sound
Like whales beneath me diving down
I'm sinking to the bottom of my
Everything that freaks me out
The lighthouse beam has just ran out
I'm cold as cold as cold can be
Be

I want to swim away but don' know how
Sometimes it feels like I'm falling in the ocean
Let the waves up take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion
Let the rain of what I feel right now.. come down
Let the rain come down

Where is the coastguard
I keep looking each direction
For a spotlight, give me something
I need something for protection
Maybe flotsam junk will do just fine
The jetsam sunk, I'm left behind
I'm treading for my life believe me
(how can I keep up this breathing)

Not knowing how to think
I scream alound begin to sink
My legs and arms are broken down
With envy for the solid ground
I'm reaching for the life within me
How can one man stop his ending
I thought of just your face
Relaxed and floated into space

I want to swim away but don' know how
Sometimes it feels like I'm falling in the ocean
Let the waves up take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion
Let the rain of what I feel right now.. come down
Let the rain come down

Now walking to the sun
I calculate what I had done
Like jumping from the bow
Just to prove I knew how
It's midnight's late reminder of
The loss of her, the one I love
My will to quickly end it all
So thought no end my need to fall

Into the ocean, end it all
Into the ocean, end it all
Into the ocean, end it all
Into the ocean, end it all

Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)

I want to swim away but don't know how
Sometimes it feels just like I'm falling in the ocean
Let the waves up take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion (yeah)
Let the rain of what I feel right now...come down
Let the rain come down
Let the rain come down

Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
(In to space)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
(I thought of just your face)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
(I thought of just your face)
-"Into the Ocean"
Blue October

I love this song, and I also love "Hate Me" by them...I would have put that, but Juz Cuz put that in her post yesterday, so...hahah...
Sort of depressing, but since when do I care? XD
And apparently, JHCEO-kun doesn't even read these, so I can put music as scary as I want on here!!!! And I intend to make full use of that ability now...Hmph...I will terrify you all with cryptic songs that I love *glomps music*

Well, first of all, I just wanted to dedicate this entire post to the one I have claimed as my younger sister, datanimechic...She's been here for me this entire week, doing her best to cheer me up and make me feel better...and now I'm afraid that I've rubbed off on her, because she's upset now, and I'm going to do everything in my power to help her like she's helped me.
If you're already a friend of hers, please pay her a visit, because she really needs some support.

I don't think there's really much for me to say today...The depression is still there, but it's a bit milder...And I fear that some people read that other post when I told them not to, and now they're avoiding me...*sigh* Shoulda deleted that...Ugh

Well, it's anime night tonight, but before that, I have to do my HW and the dishes...but I usually like doing the dishes while watching anime, anyway, so I'm okay with that ^-^

Haha, and I think only J will find this funny, because she knows the people I'm talking about, but still...

This random person IMed me last night, and I didn't know who it was...now, I've had this happen before, and I dealt with it the way I always deal with people I don't know...I just keep talking cheerfully and pretending I know them, until they're like "You don't even know who I am, do you?" That's when I can grin and say "No idea." Well, the person goes to Kelly and Clove's (innuLOVER) school, and he was telling me that they were telling him he had to talk to me, because he was the male equivalent of me...I am somewhat bothered by the fact that my e-mail and IM were exchanged freely, but...*shrugs* Haha, see, they go to a Catholic school, so I knew I had to watch what I said with this kid, because he seemed to be a really religious person, too...so I decided to bring up Hellsing, finally (XD) he kept avoiding the subject, so I was guessing that meant he either didn't know what it was or was trying to avoid a "sinful" subject XDD But he finally just stopped talking and I put up a scary away message (With the dark songs on it) and he signed off XD

Yeah, uber-religious kids are not my favorite kind to hang out with...and please don't misunderstand, I am religious, I just have different ideas than most people - I think that as long as you still hold the basic faith and you aren't worshipping Satan or something, it doesn't matter what you watch, what you listen to, what you like, etc...Yep, that's my thought, and I thoroughly believe it and intend to stick to it ^-^

I'm not going to do comments or questions today, because I need to be there for Chyrea...I'm sorry, but she really needs my help, and I'll be damned if I don't do everything in my power to help her

Take care
Ja

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