Saturday, October 14, 2006

   Medicating
When you wake up to white walls, and endless halls,
there's an emptiness that echoes through it all.
So sit back in your bed, with your mind medicated,
and your senses stuck on the sick scent of the dead.

You can call for the doctor, it's all you've got anymore.
He's the ticket to the life you had before...

If I could just make them see that I don't need this.

Doctor, doctor what am I here for?
Can't you see that I don't need this place?
I don't need these walls,
I'm no threat at all.
Doctor, doctor what am I here for?
Can't you see that I don't need this place?
I don't need these walls,
I'm no threat at all.

Is there a way we could maybe, through therapy,
find a way to rate and release me.
I just need to be outside, even if supervised,
back to my job, back to my life.
Yes I know what I've done and I regret it every day,
if I could make things right, you know i'd find a way.
But when I wake up to these white walls,
and the endless halls of the hospital,
I get lost in the emptiness that echoes though it all...

Doctor, doctor what am I here for?
Can't you see that I don't need this place?
I don't need these walls,
I'm no threat at all.
Doctor, doctor what am I here for?
Can't you see that I don't need this place?
I don't need these walls,
I'm no threat at all.

Doctor I cant thank you enough... (doctor I can't thank you enough)
Doctor you wont regret this...(doctor you won't regret this)
Doctor I cant thank you enough... (doctor I can't thank you enough)
Doctor you wont regret this...(doctor you won't regret this)

Doctor, doctor what am I here for?
Can't you see that I don't need this place?
I don't need these walls,
I'm no threat at all.
Doctor, doctor what am I here for?
Can't you see that I don't need this place?
I don't need these walls,
I'm no threat at all.

"Medicating"
-Boys Night Out

Haha, I figured this song was appropriate, what with the whole needing of Happy Pills and whatnot XD Yeah, this is pretty much the only band from Canada that I like, so...also check out "Waking" from them, a great song, great song...^-^

Well, before anyone asks (although I don't think many of you figured it out, I didn't at first, either) I am not embracing the idea of Alucard-sama and Integra...but I decided to do an Alucard-sama and Integra theme...because I found some pretty pictures...Yes, the BG is gorgeous, and Alucard-sama looks so hot and pretty....*ignores numerous stares from the people around her* What...? There's nothing wrong with being pretty, is there, JD-sama? XD And the avvie is just too cute, you've gotta see the full-size to really appreciate it, but he looks so cute and peaceful and...uwwaahhh....X3

Well, I woke up at about 9 AM today...O_O I'm telling you, stupid early-morning school schedule has my sleeping pattern all messed up...T-T

I was sleeping in the spare room, because I like to do that sometimes, because I can listen to a different radio station in that room (I'm too lazy to change the radio station on the radio in my room XD) and because the window's right next to the bed, so I can look out of it in the morning...and there were a ton of birds in my tree this morning X3 3 Blue Jays, a few crows, and then a ton of little birds that I don't know what they were....but they were cute X3

So, anyway...

I had another dream last night...but...all of it...was with Alucard-sama...and Integra...together...in a romantic way...I was kind just like the police girl...T 3T I was just there...wanting him...but nope...couldn't have him...T-T DAMN YOU, INTEGRA!!! ....T-T

And then I had a nightmare where my KT-chan committed suicide...let me tell you, that was THE WORST DREAM I've ever had, EVER!! *glomps KT-chan*

Well, on a more positive note, it's anime night tonight!! HURRAY!! X3 Trinity Blood, Naruto, Bleach, Pokemon...X3 Also with Robot Chicken and Futurama XD

Which means I'm also sleeping in the basement, even better!! Hip-hip....
HOORAY!


Yep, yep, I had sugar this morning...^.^'

All right, nothing else to say, really...^.^

So I guess that means it's time, once again, for...

COMMENTS

JUST A NOTE: When I said "leaving" I meant leaving theO....

SKF-sama - Yes, that Atreyu song is the BEST X3 Well, no, she still has them, but most of the symptoms are gone because of the medication and therapy, so...>.>' It's only 5 FULL weeks left, we have mostly weeks with half-days...Yeah...you bring up a good point, hammers shouldn't be allowed in school...o-O Thank you so much, I'm glad you like the BG, it's actually Hellsing...I know, I didn't get it at first, either XD

KT-chan - Yay, you're online with me right now X3 I'm really sorry about the boys thing...but you know you'll never be able to completely give up on boys, we both know that *grin*

JD-sama - Thanks for that, it means a lot ^-^ O_O' *somewhat bothered by thoughts of what else the Hitachi Magic Wand is used for*

Imooto-chan - I am stopping, see? It said so right there on the post ^-^ I can't stand not talking to you, so even more motivation for me to stop ^-^

J-chan - YAY FOR LONG COMMENTS!! X3 Nah, I don't think I'm going to Frightland with them, the invitation has not been extended to me directly...Alexa told me I was invited to go trick-or-treating with them...but she also told me that they want to take her to Frightland, and they're going to make her go on everything, even the barn and the attic, which I...REFUSE...to do...I don't think I could even handle the hayride...*shudder*

KingN-san - First off, welcome to my site ^-^ And yeah, I hate it when you forget dreams...T-T

QUESTIONS

1 - Shoveling snow or raking leaves?

2 - Blue or Red =? (Just colors, no subliminal messages...XD)

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1 - Shoveling snow, because it's usually not that muddy...and you can always make snowballs X3 And that usually means you're out of school if you're shoveling snow ^-^

2 - Umm...I'd have to go with red, since it's more Hellsing and Alucard-sama and vampire-ish...X3

Take care, everyone! *hug*
Ja!
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