Monday, January 3, 2005

MyOtaku v.2
Yes, finally an update. As of late, I have been obsessed with playing Star Ocean 3, which was a gift for Christmas...thus you probably won't see me around much. Sadly, most of the RPGs that I joined on OB have died (some of them horrible deaths) and with such limited computer time thanks to SO3, I figured an update was a good idea.

This new layout (along with matching avatar and sig) is based upon a fanfiction I wrote about Rei Ayanami and Milliardo Peacecraft (the inverted image featured in the avatar/sig). While the characters are not original, the story is, and I'm quite proud of it. In case you haven't noticed, the layout also plays off of Metallica's song One, a song about the effects of war on an unnamed soldier. It fit so perfectly with my story that I decided to include it; plus, I just found a rendition of the song with the San Francisco Orchestra playing backup =D which is awesome. The grays seemed to be the most 'war-like' or 'emotionless' colors I could come up with, to further extend the theme of Broken Genesis Evangelion (my fanfic).

So...hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas and a happy New Year (or Chinese New Year, whatever the case may be, though I know it hasn't passed yet...). Oh! And I finished the End of the World for my LARP group, which went as smoothly as it could have...not much more to say on that subject, really, 'cept I'm giving props to myself for creating an excellent introduction music video using footage from all different anime.

H'anyways, off to save Aquaria from the Vendeeni...wish me luck.

Sevotharte, out.


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Tuesday, December 14, 2004

A Quiz (Eikou-chan made me do it *sob*)
^^ Heheheh =P

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Kaworu
2. Rainheart
3. Jared (real =P)

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. Sevotharte
2. Rainheart
3. Stryfe

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My writing (it's fun to write, but I still don't think my writing is any good)
2. My intelligence
3. My skill at RPing (mostly Live)

THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My mind wanders (and on occasion, gets lost)
2. I'm anti-social
3. I have a short attention span when it comes to schoolwork

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. Japanese
2. German
3. British

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. Truth
2. Moving again
3. The occasional odd dream

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. A book
2. A notebook & pencil
3. A laptop

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. Black/silver sweatshirt
2. Pale sandy-colored cords (pants)
3. Long black robe (s'comfortable, shut up!)

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS (or artists at the moment):
1. Tool
2. A Perfect Circle
3. Scars of Life

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1. Pool of Fears
2. Komm, Susser Tod
3. Pet

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. Graduate
2. Close my LARP spectacularly!
3. Reach the highest level in Final Fantasy XI that I can in the span of 12 months!

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP (love is a given):
1. Loyalty
2. Passion
3. Consideration

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE if you can guess the lie, you are amazing:
1. I write in my free time
2. I play FFXI too much
3. [lie]I'm a good writer[/lie]

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Body structure (don't give me that look! I'm only human)
2. Eye Color
3. Hair Color (this one was off the top of my head =P)

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. Let go
2. Sing
3. Study

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Reading
2. RPing
3. Bushido

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Talk to Eikou-chan
2. Finish the ending to my LARP storyline
3. Grow an attention span for studying

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. Writer
2. Computer Scientist
3. Genetic Engineer

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Japan
2. Denmark/Germany
3. Brazil

THREE KID'S NAMES:
1. Sophia (Female)
2. Lantis (Male)
3. Kaworu (Male)

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Get a decent job that I enjoy
2. Write and publish a book
3. Study the mysteries of the universe

THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW OR DIE PAINFULLY:
1. (Seeing as only certain people read this, I'm going to omit this section)
2. (Omitted)
3. (Omitted)
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Saturday, November 20, 2004

It's been awhile...
...Since I posted here. Maybe that's a good thing -- means I've been busy. Well, not really. I just happen to have reinstalled Baldur's Gate II on my computer and I've been playing that non-stop. It's amazing how entertaining a really old game can be after years of not playing it. But it's really addicting...Need...more...BG2....

Oh, did I tell you? I won the short story contest at my high school! Yep, I didn't think anyone was going to understand my story, but out of 250 seniors and countless others from various english classes, I won! Average score of 59/60! Pretty cool, eh? If you'd like to read it, drop me a line/PM and I will send the .doc file to you. It's called Stand Alone Complex, and it's roughly ten pages long. I would've written more, but there was a ten-page limit to the contest. It's about...well, it's hard to describe. I'm inclined to say it's about 'the condition of being alone,' but it's really much more than that...Well, if you want to read it, you can decide that for yourself.

Made myself a new avatar and sig image, seen on the 'Boards -- I'm quite proud of them, if I do say so myself, even though it took me like three hours to correct the size of the sig from height 105 to height 100.

Anyways...that's it for today.
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Tuesday, November 9, 2004

Embracing Reflections
I'm sitting in one of my tech classes again, and I just realized that it's been a couple of days since I last posted here. Anyways, today's the day when I find out how I did on my test, and I will include it in my next post. Also, school's out on Thursday because of Veteran's Day, and yet we have to go back to school on Friday for one day before the weekend. Dumb school.

And the reason I'm having trouble staying focused on writing my LRP scenario is because my people never freaking show up. Saturday two of my four people cancelled (I don't count myself in the total number, else I would have said "out of five"), so I moved the session to Sunday under their wishes. And, once again, two people cancelled. This weekend, it doesn't matter though. If they don't show, it's their loss. I just hate doing stories with too few characters.

In addition to that, I've been working on the ending scenario for the whole deal, since we have a constant storyline going on in-between all the other worlds we RP. Hence the odd title of this post: I'm currently listening to one of the main 'evil' character's songs. It symbolizes his sadness in not being able to lead a normal life and his feeling of betrayal by God (who he himself is destined to become)...

(Normally I wouldn't post stuff like this, since I know one of my LRP members reads this, but at this point it doesn't matter to me, for a number of reasons)

Cold seems crippling
Lame meander through corridors
Aroma's thick with age
Mark off the day
Reflections of my life are fading...

Pull me out of this body
Don't want it, don't want it,
Feeble, frail and rotting
Descending, I'm lost in
A structure that's collapsing
Don't want it cast into,
Maker take the body, don't want it
It wants me

Past has found its place
Salvation is no more
Will God accept my peace
Bleached will, pardon me
Reflections of my life are fading

Pull me out of this body
Don't want it, don't want it,
Feeble, frail and rotting
Descending, I'm lost in
A structure that's collapsing
Don't want it cast into,
Maker take the body, don't want it
It wants me

I just want to run
Fly kites, wrestle, jump and play
Swim through waves that crash to shore
Memories in me
Cocooned in misery...

I'm sick and tired
Of embracing reflections of past time
Receive me, or cast me away
God please take me away!
Resistance futile, suicidal ideas
I will crucify my own being
Satisfy selfish needs
Justify my own right to what's waiting for me

On the other side
The time has come
I'm coming
I'm coming home...

I just want to run
Fly kites, wrestle, jump and play
Swim through waves that crash to shore
Memories in me
Cocooned in misery
The darkness overcomes
Soul soars to the other plane
Existence past the door
I sail through Purgatory's bay...

I asked a god for poison
Cradle me sown to my dreams
Souls searching
Death blossoms where clouds lie over me
Held in God's hands
Death blooming

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Friday, November 5, 2004

See? I don't need to study
It's true, methinks. The test was miserably easy, for sixty multiple-choice and three multipart long answer questions. Everyone else went over the time limit for some reason (well, not everyone, but a majority of the class), so there were only a handful of us that left on time. Things like this just reinforce my belief that studying doesn't do anything for me, which is probably a bad ideal to have...oh well. I'll change when I get to college in that respect, I'll bet.

But enough with that. I'm done with my test! Party at MyOtaku!

*Breaks out the wine and crumpets*

...I have no idea where the 'wine and crumpets' came from...just seemed like a good combination...

...I'm gonna stop talking now.

Maybe I'll post how the RP went tomorrow. I just need to finish typing the story...must...resist...the...urge...to...play...Warcraft.....

Anyways, I'm gone. 'Till next time.


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Thursday, November 4, 2004

Am I Studying? Hah!
Yeah, you could've guessed that, I'm sure. In fact, I'm sitting here at my comp doing just the opposite -- typing up (or attempting, rather) everything that I've written on one of my RPs in preparation for this Saturday. I run a LARP (Live-Action Role-Play) in case I haven't stated that before, and have been doing thus for nine years...yeah, call me weird if you like, I don't care ;). Anyways, it's certainly more enjoyable than studying for Econ, no?

To tell you the truth, I actually know most of the stuff I think we'll be tested on. However, I am screwed if my teacher asks us about the marginal utility formulas, because I excluded every math formula from my brief study time during class for the past few days. I already took math; no more math! Yes, I understand that Economics is largely math-based...but still, we haven't progressed that far in the book yet. I wish he'd be more specific in what's going to be on the test...*sigh*

Eikou and Spiritbreeze both have new, killer avatars =(. Not that I don't like mine, it's just...a little ordinary. Maybe I'll change it later. I'm actually really clinging to Eikou's RP role that I took, the AI Keeper of Darkness -- a sig and avatar along those themes would be nice, but I can't find a picture to fit the description I gave my char. Curses! I'll see what else I can find -- it's been too long since last I designed some sig graphics.

Well, wish me luck. Tomorrow I'll post with how the test went.

'Night all.
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Tuesday, November 2, 2004

So I'm posting more than I think
Well, here's to having nothing better to do than rant online *raises wineglass again* =P

So it's a typical day, like every other day. Blah...not that I have a problem with routine, of course. It's just that I have a big Microeconomics test on Friday that I don't want to study for. The best part about that being...I probably won't study at all! I'm horrible when it comes to study habits. It's surprising that I've been able to make it as far as I have in the educational system without cracking open a book for more than thirty minutes at a time. It's so overrated anyways. The one time I did study, I actually scored lower than normal. Excuses, excuses...=P

Will post something more interesting later, I suppose....
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Monday, November 1, 2004

The Start of a New Age
So...here I am.

I'm not exactly sure what prompted me to start my own blog online. Probably since I've been lurking around reading everyone else's, I kinda figured it was only fair -- yet I'm not exactly sure how much I'm going to be posting here :P. Blah.

Well, anyways, here's to online journals, I suppose *Raises wineglass*.

...And an excerp from a favorite song, just for kicks...


I'll be the one to protect you from
Your enemies and all your demons

I'll be the one to protect you from
A will to survive and a voice of reason

I'll be the one to protect you from
Your enemies and your choices son
They're one in the same
I must isolate you
Isolate and save you from yourself

Swayin to the rhythm of the new world order and
Count the bodies like sheep to the rhythm of the war drums

The boogeymen are coming
The boogeymen are coming

Keep your head down, go to sleep, to the rhythm of a war drums

Stay with me
Safe and ignorant
Just stay with me
Hold you and protect you from the other ones
The evil ones
Don't love you son,
Go back to sleep




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