Monday, September 10, 2007

   Sorry I haven't posted!
I have been very busy and I haven't had the time to post. i have a 7th period now, so I might be on in the afternoon around 2:30pm my time.(FL, USA)
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Wednesday, August 22, 2007

   Im Sorry!!!! For Everything!
As sum already know.... Im leaving soon.... Im putting myself back into coma.... Don't worry.... The doctors will look after my body and keep it alive.... as long as they can.... If I die.... Well, then I die a nice and peaceful death.... If not then I will just wake up rested and clear of mind.... Im sorry to everyone for causing u so much grief and pain.... Im sorry for being a burden to u all.... Im sorry for being the one to hold u back.... Im sorry for weighing u down.... Im sorry for living.... Im a crappy girlfriend and human being.... I suck and I deserve to die.... so Im going to sleep if I wake up then I do and if not then goodbye to u all.... I hope u all enjoy ur lives while u can and I guess I shall watch u all from Hell since Im cheating death probly.... Oh well.... Chris, I really do love u with all my heart and soul, but u deserve better than me.... Im sorry for holding u back from finding sum one perfect for u since I am not.... I have caused u enough pain and suffering, so it is time to end it for u.... Goodbye and I hope u have a better girl then I was..... My lil sex monkey. Goodbye.

~*~ Anais, the sorrowful loser~*~
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Wednesday, August 8, 2007

   Me and my bf's song. "Umbrella" By Rhianna featuring Jayz
Jay-Z:
Ahuh Ahuh (Yea Rihanna)
Ahuh Ahuh (Good girl gone bad)
Ahuh Ahuh (Take three... Action)
Ahuh Ahuh

No clouds in my storms
Let it rain
I hydroplane into fame (Eh eh)
Come'n down with the Dow Jones
When the clouds come we gone
We Rocafella (Eh eh)
She fly higher than weather
And she rocks it better
You know me
An anticipation for precipitation
stacks chips for the rainy day (Eh eh)
Jay, rain man is back with lil Ms. Sunshine
Rihanna where you at?


[VERSE 1]
You had my heart
and we'll never be world apart
Maybe in magazines
but you'll still be my star
Baby cause in the Dark
You can see shiny Cars
And that's when you need me there
With you I'll always share
Because

[CHORUS]
When the sun shines
We’ll shine together
Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll always be your friend
Took an oath
I'mma stick it out 'till the end
Now that it's raining more than ever
Know that we still have each other
You can stand under my Umbrella
You can stand under my Umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(ella ella eh eh eh eh eh eh)

[VERSE 2]
These fancy things,
will never come in between
You're part of my entity
Here for Infinity
When the war has took it's part
When the world has dealt it's cards
If the hand is hard

Together we'll mend your heart
Because ...

[CHORUS]
When the sun shines
We'll shine together
Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll always be your friend
Took an oath
I'mma stick it out 'till the end
Now that it's raining more than ever
Know that we still have each other
You can stand under my Umbrella
You can stand under my Umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(ella ella eh eh eh eh eh eh)

[BRIDGE]
You can run into my Arms
It's okay don't be alarmed
(Come into Me)
(There's no distance in between our love)
So Gonna let the rain pour
I'll be all you need and more
Because ...

[CHORUS]
When the sun shines
We'll shine Together
Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll always be your friend
Took an oath
I'mma stick it out 'till the end
Now that it's raining more than ever
Know that we still have each other
You can stand under my Umbrella
You can stand under my Umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(ella ella eh eh eh eh eh eh)

It's raining (raining)
Ooo baby it's raining
baby come into me
Come into me
It's raining (raining)
Ooo baby it's raining
You can always come into me
Come into me

~*~ Anais ~*~
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Tuesday, August 7, 2007

   Sadness and Despair!
Im such an ignorant fool.... I hurt the ones I love and the one I love most.... I should have never said anything.... Things are better when left unsaid.... Ur safer when things are left unsaid.... I hate myself for hurting the one I love so much..... I caused nothing, but sadness and depression.... I am a horrible person and do not deserve to live.... I can not stand being such a burden.... I hold everyone down.... I keep them from being happy.... I can not stand myself..... Im so useless and worthless..... I do not deserve to be happy..... I do not deserve the one I love so much..... Im so pathetic and worthless..... I should just die.....
~*~ Anais ~*~

Last night I cried
Tears that burned
Fallen again
Another lesson learned

How many tears
Can be in one eye
You can never imagine
The ones that I cry

A tear for every word
That is left unsaid
They fall from my face
As I sit on my bed

The tear is left unheard
But as it falls it screams
I don't want to return
To my horrible dreams

People don't care
What my tears have to say
But here in my room
I will always stay

One last tear falls
And brings numbness to me
I can not hear
I can't even see

Memories are gone
Because it was never real
How can you remember
If there was nothing there to feel

So here I am
Crying the same tears
Not living my life
Because of my fears

Fine. Have your silly battles.
What can I do but run?
This is not about me.
I am the one you chose to shun.

You are not my mother.
You are a disguise.
Wrapped in tissue paper, walk.
You are a gift; stormy skies.

Fake, like the lights of LA.
But, no, those were real.
They were beauty.
I did not make you steal.

You took my lights from me.
They shone; Christmas.
The dew on the roses...
God, Mom, I was home!

But here it's green.
I have found love; real.
This one will last.
A mother's love isn't steel.

Leave behind my life; again?
Let go? TOO MANY TIMES.
I will not go with you.
I am sick of mimes.

Take my brother from me.
I will come.
Revenge? Call it that.
I will come.

A baby cries somewhere
Is it mine?
No. No it cant be
Mine was taken from me
At a time when I was not myself
Blood.
That was the colour of the day
Rain turning my heart a darker shade of black
Why was I so absent?
We could not have stopped them.
It was the right thing to do.
Stop talking.
I should have fought!
-Silence-
We are better off for it now
No. No, my baby is better with me
Growing safely in my womb
And one day in my arms
Instead of a cot - she got a grave
How could we have loved it so?
A mother has a love of no limit
I love her still
I was there too, remember?
You were the voice in my head
that wastes away a bit each day
I am angry
I am empty
I am... just...

so very sorry.


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Monday, August 6, 2007

   Me as a dolly! School style!



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Sunday, August 5, 2007

   Me as dolly! Sexy hooky style!


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   Me as dolly! Tomboy style!


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   Me as a dolly! Ballet style!


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   Me as dolly! Formal style!


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   Me as dolly! Evening romance night style!


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