Tuesday, September 19, 2006

wut ^ hommie jee?

I haven't posted here in a while, have I? Oh well. Anyways, I've been looking at colleges recently. DAMN that isn't fun. Luckily, I have friends who are willing to and capable of helping. Once again I say I need a job... I want two things: Pierrot's Tour Paradoxical Genesis DVD, and any one of Gackt's concert DVDs. But I'm gonna wait until my sister asks what I want for Christmas. Of course, looking at how she is right now, she may never ask... Because she's being deranged and selfish. But I've decided I basically disown her. I'll just use her for my heinous perposes... which I just spelled wrong. Screw it. Anyways, uh... I forget what I was saying. I bet it wasn't important. I have to do my homework now. ~sj

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Saturday, September 16, 2006

cleaning

I'm cleaning my room for the first time in three years. Isn't that disgusting? Basically I'm just going through stuff and throwing away old papers and shit I don't need or want, making room for the shit I do want to be places other than under my bed. I spent over six hours today cleaning. I'm exhausted. And I feel like I barely got anything done. After everything's reorganized and stuff, we're gonna rearrange my bedroom. For the first time in three years! (Actually, nearly three and a half, since I moved here in March 2003 and it's now September 2006) YAY! I spent six hours cleaning and listening to Pierrot. I've have a major Pierrot fix today. AND I introduced my older sister to fanservice! She didn't know what it was. Now she does. I don't think she was impressed. She now wonders if everybody in Japan is gay. ~sj Incidentally, I changed my color layout for the first time in months... It's now my school colors. Ew!

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Monday, September 11, 2006

tired

God, I'm tired. Exhausted, actually. I slept 8 hours last night (I went to bed by 10:30 and was asleep before 11)... But for some reason, I just feel totally exhausted. Yergh... I had a french quiz today... The only thing I didn't know was part of the oral part where these people were introducing theirselves and I couldn't tell what the hell these two guys were saying their names were... It was like "as;n wherf;sad" and "basdkfhs nlw". But otherwise I think I did okay, except maybe a spelling error or two. What else... uhhh... Creative writing is gonna be great this year. ^_^ I'm so excited. We're gonna try to start a club, and we're gonna do fundraising so we can go to a play at the end of the year, and there's some kind of publication sort of thing we're gonna try to put out this year... ^_^ Yay! And Japanese is incredibly easy... which makes me happy... Everything else about school sucks. ~sj

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Sunday, September 10, 2006

I LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEE...

sleep. As soon as I write this, I'm going to bed. Guess what! I fell asleep while doing my creative writing last night and it turned out weird... I was supposed to be writing a synopsis of the novel I'm gonna write... YEaaaaaaaah... I wrote it, but DAMN it needs work. 1) It's too detailed 2) It has dialogue. Summaries aren't supposed to have dialogue. But I fell asleep and wrote dialogue. So... Yeah. It needs work. 3) It's missing important details. So that's what I'll be doing for the next couple days. I spent today working on my CD collection... I found every CD I own, and sat on the floor with piles of them around me and wrote down every CD title. One page in my notebook holds 27 titles on each side, and I filled three pages front and back and one page just front... So that's 189 CDs. Damn. Half of them are burned, and others are ones I've never listened to all the way through... I'm considering selling them. Of course, I couldnt' sell them for much, because they're not in their original plastic and everything, but they're not damaged or anything... Maybe I should take them in to one of those used games/CDs/movie stores... GameStop or whatever. Don't they buy used stuff from people, or trade it or something? All I know is, I don't need the CDs if I'm never gonna listen to them... What I do need, though, is sleep. Right now. At 10:01. Good night. ~sj

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Saturday, September 9, 2006

yesterday

Yesterday, my phones were out from 10:30 AM until sometime this morning... So no post yesterday. I'm going to rant a little bit now. I had an hour and a half of creative writing yesterday, and early in the period I asked the teacher if we were allowed to have CD players and stuff, and she said that the office said that we were allowed only if she could prove that music would help our creativity, and if she could monitor what we were listening to. And we would all have to sign a waiver so that the office and my teacher wouldn't have to take any responsibility for our stuff if it got lost. How stupid is that?! I mean, the waiver I can understand, but how the hell are we supposed to prove that music stimulates our creativity? (I suggested I just sit there for an hour and a half and write nothing... My teacher didn't like that idea, but I ended up doing it anyways without intending to). It's so stupid. And how is the teacher supposed to monitor what we listen to? As one kid said, he has an ipod, and she would have to listen to every song on it to make sure none of it's bad, but then the next day he could come in with 80 different songs. What does it matter what we listen to, anyways? I mean, even if people listen to rap what with every other word needing bleeped, stopping them from listening to it at school wouldn't stop them from listening to it at home. It's just ridiculous. And I listen to music that's not even in English. How is she gonna monitor that that isn't "dangerous" or foul or whatever? I mean, she could look up the lyrics online or something... But you've got to be kidding me. So what she's gonna do, she's gonna look up some case studies and stuff on the internet and find proof of cases where creativity is stimulated by music... All I can find is stuff about Mozart. I am NOT going to listen to Mozart. I mean, classical music is fine, but I need rock. I need Kirito. He makes my brain happy, and a happy brain is far more cooperative than a tired grumpy one. But really. That's so dumb. Yeah, so partially due to that, the extent of an hour and a half of class was this: "Male, 20's, brown hair, green eyes, tan skin, tall, muscular." That was all I wrote in an hour and a half, and I'm not even kidding. So now, I'm gonna go work up some more characters. This novel I'm writing for that class needs a lot of work. At the rate it's going, it's gonna be extremely boring and/or short... So I need more characters, I need more plot, and I need... more sleep and less stress. I got six hours of sleep last night because I went to sleep at 3, but then something my mother did woke me up at like 9... She yelled or something because the power blinked out and deleted whatever she was doing on the computer. So I woke up. That's less sleep than I get on school days. On school days I sleep from 12 until 7. 7 hours. Last night I slept from 3 'til 9. Six hours. You're supposed to get MORE SLEEP ON WEEKENDS, NOT LESS!!! Grr. ~sj

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Thursday, September 7, 2006

I wonder why.

I wonder why Kirito's voice alone can just about make me explode. Like, honestly. I was listening to Dir en Grey, then I switched CDs to Pierrot and heard Kirito and totally relaxed and was inexplicably and orgasmically happy. I wonder why. Honestly. It's weird. I wonder if Gackt's voice could cause such relief after listening to Kyo's shrieking for a while... I mean, I like Kyo, he has a nice voice too, but he's not Kirito... He yells a lot more than Kirito. Kirito growls... Kyo yells. Anyways, so, in school today... Uh... it sucked. Tomorrow will be fun, though, because I'll basically be doing nothing all day. Today and tomorrow, the schedule is/was messed up (we only had half our classes and they were each an hour and a half long due to stupid testing). Today, I had Chemistry, Japanese, Phys Ed, and French. That schedule SUCKED. Tomorrow, though, I'll have Math, History, English, and Creative writing. We'll be testing in math and english, and in history we'll probalby do something stupid, and in creative writing... Ahhh... Creative writing for an hour and a half... That's almost as pleasing as Kirito's voice... Hell, maybe I can take my CD player and headphones, and have creative writing AND Kirito's voice... That'd be great. I can start my novel and all that... Anyways... just a small update on my life is all this was... Figured you'd want to know i didn't die since, uh, what... yesterday? ~sj

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Wednesday, September 6, 2006

french

So, the deal with french is... though it sucks, I'm probably gonna be the best in the class. We were learning today how to say "Are you French?" and "Yes, I'm french. I'm from Paris." or whatever... we were just reading out of the book. And before we did that, the teacher had said it right and had us repeat. So, two seconds later, after the teacher had just said "Je suis..." and "je suis de..." properly, we were reading out of the book, and everyone was saying it terribly wrong. "je suis" means "I am" and is pronounced "jeh swee." Well, we had people saying "Je... Sooiss...?" FRENCH IS NOT SAID HOW IT'S WRITTEN!!! It was so horrible to listen to. I mean, I'm no French guru or anything, but at least I remembered how things were supposed to be pronounced AFTER THE TEACHER SAID THEM TWENTY TIMES ALREADY!!! Good lord. It was horrible. So, though the class is neither fun nor exciting, I have a feeling it won't really be a problem for me. ~sj

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Tuesday, September 5, 2006

brain hurtage

My brain hurts. It has hurt all day. Taking French sucks. I don't need to learn any more languages. What the hell is wrong with me?! I need to be writing, but instead I'm writing this and waiting for the rest of my Japanese class to load so I can watch the end of it online. Whose Line is it Anyway wasn't on last night... Well, it was on at 11 and 11:30 but I was going to bed then... Damn I was tired. I fell asleep instantly. Kaboom, snore, snore. I still want to know why I like Dir en Grey. Their music is good but everything else about them bothers me. I mean, the MUSIC music, not the music as a whole, but the music minus the lyrics. I think as long as you don't understand the lyrics, Dir en Grey is fucking great! But once you know they're singing obscene things and things about decomposing one-legged girls and stuff... Some of their charm kind of goes away. And Kyo beating himself with a microphone and making himself bleed isn't cool either. What else... I dunno. I'm trying to watch my japanese class and people are talking. I really need to work on my book, cuz I have to start my thing in creative writing this week, and... yeah. Blowwwwwwwwwwwww! So I need to finish with my characters so I can start with my other character... I can get back to fantasy! *sigh* Reality sucks. It's so tough to write. Research bites. ~sj

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Monday, September 4, 2006

I feel blah. Okay, so how cool is it that Dir en Grey's "Withering to death." album was released in America, and with a bonus DVD with creepy bloody gruesome stuff on it? Yeah. I watched clips of all the stuff on the DVD... They're like music videos or something for the songs "Merciless Cult", "THE FINAL", "Machiavellism" and "SAKU", plus clips from "TOUR04 THE CODE OF VULGAR[ism]". I watch the video for Merciless Cult... Yeah. Kyo making himself bleed is just gross, and creepy, and I don't like it. I like Diru's music, Kyo's voice, the pretty band members... but the lyrics need work, and Kyo hurting himself profusely is just a bit much and he needs to back off himself some. Something I read once called Dir en Grey the "sister band" of Pierrot. Yeah right. They're totally different. But the point is, I like Diru's music, and now I have one of their CDs. Yay! I like "Jesus Christ R'n R." Now, off to finish homework as quick as possible and go to bed early. I'm depressed (anyone hear about Steve Irwin? Yeah. That's why I'm depressed). ~sj

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Saturday, September 2, 2006

music, plans, weekend

Current music: E Nomine - Wolfen (Das Tier in Mir). It's German. GERMAN MUSIC KICKS ASS!!! Anyways, so, remember the nice neat plans for this weekend that I posted in my last post a few hours ago? They got blowed out of the water. I'm going to my dad's house tomorrow and coming back Monday. I probably won't do any writing whatsoever, and I'm scared that I've lost contact with my lovers. I may or may not do any of my homework, and if I don't, I'll be doing all of it in one night, which will result in people dying. ~~~ On more happy subjects, I was just randomly trying to think of what I'm going to do with my senior year in high school. The only required classes in my senior year are English, Economics (one semester) and Phys ed (one semester). So, out of 8 class periods, that fills two. So I have six empty spaces to fill. Now, what to fill that with? This following all depends on how well I do with taking Japanese 3 and french 1 this year. My school offers Japanese, French, Spanish, Italian, German, and Russian. I'll be finishing Japanese this year. Depending on how well I do with taking two languages, I'm considering next year taking French 2, Spanish 1, Italian 1, German 1, and Russian 1. I WOULD SO TOTALLY BOMB ALL MY CLASSES!!! It'd be the best thing ever! I mean, I already was combining Japaense and French in my head... (my name in French class is Renee). "Je m'appelle Renee desu... Oops!" That's a combo of "Je m'appelle Renee" and "namae wa Renee desu"... Both of which mean "My name is Renee." So, yeah. If I don't take the first year of every possible language in my school (I actually don't want to take Russian or Spanish or Italian... German, maybe. German's kinda cool. But it's a distance learning class, just like Japanese. Ugh) Anyways, so, the point is... I don't remember the point. What the hell was the point? Oh yeah. I have no idea what the hell to do with six empty class periods next year. Get a job and a work release and escape school to go to work and make money? I need a job. ~sj

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