Friday, May 19, 2006

So, my life is progressing at a fair pace. I have six academic school days left, then two more that are just BS after-the-final days, then the final 2-hour day... So, yes, my life is joyful and such. Happy happy joy joy, happy happy joy joy. Anyways, so, I still want to kill my friend Jonathan, as well as most of the people I associate with on a daily basis, but that's okay, because I only have to put up with them for nine more days, then I may or may not see them again alllll summmerrrrrr.... If I get a job, it's more likely I'll see them, but at least then I won't be forced to talk to them.... Unless I'm like, "Your total is... blah... here's your change... have a nice day..." That doesn't really count though. Anyways, so, that's all for now... I'm gonna go write. I should be drawing, but I'm gonna write instead. Because I like to write better. It's easier on me. ~SJ

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Sunday, May 14, 2006

I picked up a job application today. DANCE FOR ME!!! Hopefully I'll be able to get a job and then I shall have money to buy more pretty things from Hot Topic and Spencers and the like. Watch the Pierrot video above. The song is "Nounai Moruhine" (Cerebral Morphine). It's a good song. I have it on a CD. ~SJ I have fourteen days of school left. One is two hours. Two are BS days. Two are finals. YAHOO!

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Thursday, May 11, 2006

Just updating to let you know I'm alive. Breath still fills my lungs on a regular basis, etc etc etc, party o shimashou. My life at the other place is going fairly uneventfully... I'm gonna have to jump on someone and rape them to get them to notice me. Oh well. That's about how it had started going here, too. I only have 15 days of school left as of today. Let's all have a big party for me. ~SJ How are you all? Dandyfine? Excellent.

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Friday, May 5, 2006

Na no da... Yeah, if you've been wondering, I left you all and moved to a different site for the most of my rambling, because I was sick of people bitching at me. So, you chased me off. Congratulate yourselves. I won't tell you where I've wandered off to, because for all I know, you've got accounts there, too. But I'm not under the same screenname... Maybe I already told you guys where I signed up and all my mystery is in vain, but if not, I'm not gonna say. Because certain people on here piss me off to no end. Others are okay. But I think I just need to give you all a break from me and I need to get away from you. You're annoying. No offense or anything. ~SJ

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Sunday, April 30, 2006

Heyyyyyyy. I know like, nobody reads this anymore, or at least no one comments, but anyways, is anyone out there a Psycho le Cemu fan? I downloaded a song that doesn't seem to have a title. It's frustrating. It's 3 minutes and 16 seconds long, has a lot of "HEY!" shouts in the background, there's some rap about 2:15 in... The first line sounds something like "moitai no hi wo aki na kara take the sun" or something. Doumo arigatou gozaimasu.

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Friday, April 28, 2006

  

I'm such a horrible bitch. My sister is really predictable sometimes, and I wasn't in the best of moods, so I semi-intentionally provoked her, and she ended up in a yelling match with my mother and stormed off all mad... I had to keep from laughing hysterically. Anyways, so, I have to read The Great Gatsby this weekend, because I have a test on it on Wednesday... If I didn't have a test, I wouldn't read it. I skimmed it for answers to the questions in my packet, but I only read the first three chapters. They were boring as all hell and made me kind of want to choke. Chapter one: I don't remember. Chapter two: I think maybe this is the chapter where this guy punched his mistress in the face. Chapter three: I think maybe there was some party...? It was all so boring I can't remember. I kind of like the writing style, but the story so far has sucked ass. Like, a lot. But I'll try to read it this weekend. If I don't die of boredom, I'll let you know. I've been listening to a CD with Gackt's Vanilla on it and haven't listened to that song yet. Normally it's the first song I skip to on the CD... Anyways, so, I'm still planning to do my senior paper thingy on samurai, and I want to do a video for my visual, which would require me to have the proper equipment, which would require me to leech off the TV Workshop teacher, which is okay because I'm going to be in that class next year. But anyways, so, I'm thinking, The Last Samurai, Rurouni Kenshin, Samurai Champloo, and any other samurai movies or anime I can get ahold of by mugging random strangers on the street, all collaged together to the voice of Gackt or Kirito. Sound good? Good. Cuz that's what I'm doing. Point made, dinner's on the table, gotta go eat CHIKEN! ~SJ No, that is not a typo, that's how it's spelled in Japanese. Lol.

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Wednesday, April 26, 2006

I had another Pierrot dream last night, only this time they weren't really there... It was a lot stranger than the one I had with them in my living room. I mean, in a way. See, I was in Hot Topic, but it wasn't hot topic (everything was white!!! Jesus!)... And I glanced to the side and I saw a black t-shirt with a collage of pics of Pierrot on it. In one of the pictures, Kirito had his back turned to whoever took the picture, and somebody was in the right edge of the picture. You could just see the back of his head. And as I looked, whoever it was turned his head to look at me, and it was Jun, and he smiled... I think at that point it was still Hot Topic-ish and everything was black... So then suddenly I was looking through piles of t-shirts that were in a totally different place than the Pierrot one I'd seen, searching for the shirt, and I couldn't find it and couldn't find it and it was no where... I found a lot of Invader Zim shirts, and System of a Down, and ones that said "Fuck". Yeah. But I think the moving picture thing is cuz I'd been watching Harry Potter yesterday. Then the next thing I remember, I'm looking through toys and it's more like a big store near my house, and everything's white, but I'm still looking for the Pierrot shirt, and I see it in the display thingy again, only now it's tan, and I think all the pictures might have been moving. Yeah... But I was still searching for the shirt... then my alarm rang and woke me up. I think I would have looked at every single freaking thing in the store... What I don't get is, why didn't I look in the piles under the display thing where the shirt actually would have been?! Maybe that dream was symbolic. Curious, no? Anyways, another random thing of the moment. I listened to Vanilla at least three times on the way home from school today, and I was trying to figure out, if Gackt's voice were tangible, what would it feel like? Any ideas, Gackt fans? With that thought, I depart for the moment. ~SJ Wan wan wan wan wan. *does the "Wan Wan Dance" (which she made up the other day)*

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Tuesday, April 25, 2006

*content sigh* I broke down yesterday and listened to Pierrot and Gackt. And it made me happy. And I dreamed about Pierrot last night. It was a strange dream, in the effect that the members of Pierrot were living in my house, but it was normal in effect that I was trying to be the peacekeeper and smooth things over between them (mostly Kirito and Aiji)... It was odd. In another dream I remember from last night, there was something about me being in a rich gold shiny hotel room, and there was this rich guy who'd rented out the room, and him and this kid from my math class were sitting at this poker table covered in alcoholic beverages. And in the corner of the room was this closet/crate thing with like two holes through it, and inside there was, well, what was supposed to be a werewolf, but reminded me more of a pigwolfman. I remember the rich guy was very calmly sipping his drink with his back to the crate/closet, and the kid from my math class was totally ignoring it too, and it tried to talk to me, it said my name, and I was scared, and acted like I was asleep in my chair with my face on my knees, and it gave up after a couple tries and kept pacing its crate thing... Then there was this petite little asian chick who kind of looked like Maki from HIGH and MIGHTY COLOR but not so much, but that's probably where the little asian girl came from in my dream... Anyways, she yelled at the rich guy (he didn't have a name and all he did was sip his drink and watch TV through sunglasses and talk to the kid from my math class), and he just kind of brushed her off... They were actually talking about, at least at one point, a german shepherd that they'd saved for the school play, which was Charlie Brown. Yeah. And the kid from my math class had a tiny rawhide dog bone charm on a chain around his neck. I commented on how cute it was. Funny thing is, I don't EVER talk to that kid in math class... So, it's strange. Anyways, so, needless to say, the Pierrot part of the dream actually made more sense than the fancy hotel werewolf math-class-kid part... The only strange part of the Pierrot dream was that they lived in my house, and I didn't. They spoke english to me. And I was trying to get them to get along (they were all a bit on edge mostly, I think, because of Aiji)... so I was trying to get them to talk to each other, and naturally when people are edgy about one subject, you don't talk about it. So instead of talking about Pierrot, I made a very miserable attempt at distracting Kirito by asking him who vaccuumed the floors. Cuz I'd been staring down (nervousness) and noticed the floors were clean (that's another strange thing about the dream. Lol. Not that I live in a pigsty, but with two dogs, it's hard to keep carpetted floors nice-looking)... Anyways, so he said that he vaccuumed the floors, and I was like, "Oh. That's not right. You could always have your brother do it." Not that it's any more right for Kohta to vaccuum the floors than it is for Kirito to, but you know. *shrug* And I remember Kohta was walking into the room from the dining room and he just kind of looked up with that "What, me?" look that people get when they don't know what you're talking about, but you've referred to them. Anyways, the vaccuum conversation basically flopped, so I tried to talk to Aiji and he just rolled over on the couch so his back was to me and said he didn't want to talk about it. I don't remember what I'd said to him, but that reaction kind of upset me. Anyways, then my alarm when off and I woke up. Yeah. So it wasn't some crazy dream that most fangirls probably would have that involved some sexual interactions with their favorite Pierrot members. Mine involved trying to fix things between them. Strange, I know. They were all there, I know I didn't mention Jun or Takeo, but they, and Kohta, were just kind of staning there... I think they'd given up fixing things, or didn't feel they could do much, or it wasn't their place or something... But me, the little peacekeeper, was trying to fix things... without even once mentioning Pierrot to them... Anyways, so, it was really strange... I wish my alarm hadn't woke me up so I could have seen how that all turned out... They probably would have eventually blown up on me or told me to shut up. ~SJ I know I would have told me to shut up at about the point where I asked who vaccuumed my floors.

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Monday, April 24, 2006

I'm suffering withdrawal. This is the third day in a row I haven't listened to a single NOTE of any of Gackt or Pierrot's music. It hurts so bad. Like, I'm surprised I haven't gone into spastic seizures yet. Why, you ask, have I gone two and a half days without listening to Pierrot? I DON'T KNOW! Good lord. My best friend accuses me of being addicted, so I'm trying to see how long I can go without listening to them. I was thinking that I'd try not to look at pictures of them, either, but then I opened my folder and there was Kirito, as background. I opened MSN and my avatar was Gackt. My AV on here is Pierrot. My BOOKMARK is Gackt (I made it a long time ago, before I was even obsessed with him. I just liked the picture). But... Good god. It makes me suffer so horribly. I mean, I had Pierrot in my head for a little bit this morning, but it's REEEEALLY not the same. So... This is painful. Like, not physical pain... There are no physical symptoms except me fretting and pacing and nearly pulling out my hair... But my mind is going, 90% of the time, "GAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! FUCKTARD! LISTEN TO PIERROT! OR GACKT! OR BOTH! BOTH IS BEST! LISTEN TO THEM!" ~SJ I don't see how junkies ever quit their drugs. *crying* I'm a Gackt junky...

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Saturday, April 22, 2006

I woke up at 8:28 this morning, was gone by 8:50, and didn't get home until around 2:30. Guh... I got one book, a magazine, and two CDs at Barnes & Noble... I ate at Wendy's... and that was about the extent of it. Damn I'm tired now though. But the CDs I got, one is the Yoshida Brothers, they play shamisen, and this music is so freaking cool. If you don't know, a shamisen is a traditional Japanese string instrument. It's so great. I also got a CD called "Koto Music of Japan". The koto is another traditional Japanese string instrument. But anyways. Damn I'm tired. I'm not the kind of person who can go out and go to stores and be in a car going from place to place all day. It makes me sick. I've discovered that recently. I'm okay if you just dump me at the mall for the day, but going from place to place is just a big-ass no-no. Not that I went many places (three), but the driving in between was stressful... Then we sat in the car for at least an hour waiting for my grandfather to finish his choir rehearsal thingy and that was probably what did it for me. Sitting in the car for hours with nothing but some chicken strips and a frostie to amuse me just doesn't do me well. So, I'm tired. But the good, and amusing, news is, my best friend got MSN so we can IM each other. How funny is that? I'm the only person she'll talk to on there, most likely, so she got it just to talk to me when all she needs to do is pick up the phone. But really it's all more convenient for me because that way, I can talk to her while I'm surfing the net since I STILL HAVE DIAL UP and can't be on the phone and internet at the same time. I got this book called "Moon Called" by Patricia Briggs... It's a vampire/werewolf kinda thing... Funny thing is, I like fantasy novels, but I looked at a bunch of them and none of the caught my interest. But this one caught my interest with just the title and the picture on the front. (No, not because it's a girl in severely low-cut jeans and a tied-up shirt that shows cleavage, but because the art itself is great. Her face and facial expression and her eye. Believe me, I don't go for girls, but I have an eye for art. Okay? OKAY?) odori shite imasu. (I am dancing!) Well, I'm really bored, so I'm gonna go play neopets games or something equivalently childish. ~SJ ODORIHAJIME!

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