Wednesday, February 22, 2006

*sigh* My english teacher wasn't here today, so I couldn't ask about doing my paper on schizophrenia. Daaaamn. We learned about Hinduism and Buddhism in world cultures today... They're interesting. I love this song. Inuyasha last night... had Sesshoumaru... I love Sesshoumaru... he's so soft and warm and huggable. "Where were you, my lord?" "No where." "Huh? Well you had to be somewhere! Don't be so vague!" *shortly later* *singsongy* "Lord Ses-shou-maru--" *CRACK!* Fluffy treats Jaken with so much love. I don't blame him. If there was a 2-foot-tall toad running around my ankles all the time, I'd kick it around a bit too. And throw rocks at it. And step on it. Anyways, so, I was writing in first person in creative writing today... and it's really a lot easier to write from that point of view, but when I write like that, I put so much bias and attitude and I hate that it's limited to what one person knows, though it is kinda fun that way... I kinda feel like I'm depriving people of things I know and they don't... My best friend is plotting something for my birthday. I'm scared. She got my other friends in on it and nobody's allowed to tell me and I honestly don't want to know (I hate surprises, but for once in my life maybe I want to be surprised? Probably not. I'll regret not grilling them about it for twenty or so days...). School is sooooo boring. But, I only have two days this week, then all of next week, then the week after that is a three-day week followed by a four-day weekend! YES! Paati o shiMAAAAAAshou! We're watching a movie called Equilibrium in FLIC, and I'm gonna miss the end of it, or at least 45 minutes rather close to the end, because we have scheduling during third period tomorrow. Damn bastards. Why couldn't it be during second? Then I'd have no Driver's Ed. I hate that class. Sooo boring. But whatever. Who loves my avatar by the way? Kirito from Pierrot, with a gun in his mouth. How awesome. ~SJ UHN.

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Tuesday, February 21, 2006

I have to do a research paper for english on "something I'm interested in", as long as it's "current" and "american." ... How do you research "nothing"? I see it now... Me, presenting my paper... "I did my paper on nothing. See, the origins of nothing are... well, not really known. I think nothing was always there. But yeah... Five pages about 'nothing' resulted in exactly the subject of those pages: nothing. See? Pages are blank. Nothing is on them. I fail! Bye-bye now..." That would go over well. See, until she said "american and current" I was thinking, "hey. Samurai." But nope. Not american, OR current. Evil woman. So then I told my sister my plight, and she's like, "Do it on schizophrenia! Then, when you present it, you can go up there and start having an argument with yourself!" I think that's a good idea. I mean, come on. Who isn't interested in a mental illness? I would do my paper on gay rights, except one, I don't care enough to research them, and two, everybody in that school already thinks I'm a lesbian. Let's not further their suspicions, shall we? So, yeah. I hate that I can't do my paper on something I actually give a shit about... I mean, look at America. What is interesting about America? Not even their history is interesting. I mean, Russia had dictators and Ivan the terrible and stuff, Japan had samurai, India has Hinduism... Germany had Hitler and some other crap that I don't know about... Britain has Monty Python... as for leaders and rulers, I don't know anything about that... Africa and Australia have cool animals, and tribal people... What does America have? George W. Bush. Rednecks. I mean, Canada has MOUNTIES! What's more cool yet highly amusing than a police force on horseback? What do we have? America's like, two hundred years old. Our history is like this: (.) Compared to somewhere like Italy, whose history is like this: (!@#$%^&*-%+$=!$@#^#@&^-*^#^$=@^$#%!@$^@$&+$#@%&$^@*&#$&^) Very full and interesting. America is boring. I resent doing a paper on America. I want to move to Japan or something. WOOT SCHIZOPHRENIA. No offense intended if you actually know a schizophrenic and are offended by that. Perhaps a more full exclamation should be: WOOT FOR DOING YOUR PAPER ON SCHIZOPHRENIA! ~SJ

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Monday, February 20, 2006

   *sigh*

My 16th birthday is in 22 days. How sad is this: I'm not gonna have a party because I don't like anyone enough to invite them. My best friend is the only person I like being around. My other friends piss me off more often than not, and I don't like being around them outside school, and especially not in MY house. One friend is a guy and he's all... yucky... and he annoys the hell out of me all the time. All he has to do is look at me and it pisses me off. I never see him outside school and I don't regret it. My other friend is just as bad, but for different reasons... I have other friends, yeah, but they're not good enough friends for me to want to hang out with them much... So how horrible is it that two people I've been friends with since 6th grade piss me off more than people I've hated just as long? At least I don't have to put up with people I hate for even five minutes. People I hate leave me alone. Anyways, I just ranted to my mother about this and she said "maybe the problem isn't them, it's you." WTF?! If you had somebody complain to you every time you turn your head, but then when you have a problem they don't listen, wouldn't that piss you off? PISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. Gr. ~SJ

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Saturday, February 18, 2006

So, I watched the first three episodes of Hellsing today at my friend's house... Alucard's voice is done by Crispin Freeman. Tsume's voice actor, as well as somebody on Last Exile I think, and somebody on some anime I actually watch... Um... Cougar on s-cry-ed, according to one site here... Apparently he also does Rosiel's voice on Angel Sanctuary... Never seen it, but I read the first manga... it disturbed me, what with the damn incest... But anyways, yeah. Hellsing. Coolness. The opening is sweet. The "on the next episode" is the most disturbing thing ever... Alucard is awesome... Guess what. I actually opened the document in which my story is kept... and I'm trying to work on it. Oh. My. God. Imagine! I slept for 11 hours last night. Actually, more. From about 11:00 until about 10:30. So 11 1/2. And I probably will tonight, too... YAY. Sleep is loverly. I'm listening to some weird music I found in my sister's folder... Dead Can Dance. It's like... dark reggae or something weird, at least this song is. It's interesting. I have Monday off, so party! Two more days to sleep in! ~SJ Oh, by the way... anata no neko o tabete mo ii desu ka? May I eat your cat?

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Thursday, February 16, 2006

"I've been looking for an original sin, one with a twist and a bit of a spin, and since I've done all the old ones 'til they've all been done in, now I'm just looking, then I'm gone with the wind, endlessly searching for an original sin." So, today we finished watching the Usual Suspects in my films class... That movie is like, wow. Five trillion f-words, blood, death, and an AWESOME ending. What a fucking great movie. It's the first movie we've watched in there that I've thought, that was so fucking great. I can't remember what else we've watched in there. Let's see... The Godfather... Alien... Love Actually... Junebug... I think there were a couple others... But yeah. Usual Suspects. Good fuckin' movie. It had good music, too... hm. 'magine that. So, I'm gonna make up a list of CDs and DVDs my dad can get me for my birthday... The Usual Suspects will be on there, I think. So, onwards we trudge... "I've been waiting for you since you've been born, I watch you secretly but not for long, and since I know all your dreams I understand what you need, and when I call you, you must go where I lead... your dreams are so hungry, it's time now to feed." Today, I got a really weird-ass lecture from my biology teacher. He is OBSESSED with studying. So we got our progress reports today, and when he called me up to his desk, he's like... blah blah blah, then he goes, "Now, you don't study much, do you?" and I'm like, "...No, not really." And he says, "I figured. Not like you really need to, obviously, by your grades, but... what are your plans for after high school?" At this point, I'm thinking, 'uh, what the fuck, man... nothing science-related, if that's what you're getting at...' But I politely say, "I'm not really sure." "Well," he says, "are you gonna go to college, probably, or... y'know, college...?" and again, I have a mental wtf, and say, "Yeah, I'll probably go to college..." and I probably had a 'what the fuck are you getting at, man?' expression on my face. So he goes on and says, "You should probably start developing study habits, then, you know? 'Cause, in college it's a little bit different... Y'know... They say 'read four chapters tonight'..." And I just kinda nod, and he continues, "I mean, you're obviously good at reading and remembering and listening, but college is different... they don't just hand everything to you..." And I'm like, "Uh-huh." while thinking, 'uh... yeah... study habits... i have those already... it's called, if I need to study, i do. if I don't need to, why waste the time?' Meanwhile in the back of my mind the little person just wants to run away shrieking 'OMIGOD WHY IS HE TALKING TO ME? GAHHH! TEACHERS ARE SUPPOSED TO NOTICE ME, I DON'T EXIST! JSUT GIMME MY DAMN PROGRESS REPORT AND LET ME GO!' Finally he goes, "So you should start working on that... otherwise, you're good." and i'm like, "Okay!" all cheerful, like we'd just made a big resolution or whatever, and I take the paper and turn and squeak on back to my chair, sit down, and promptly nearly knock everything on the floor. Eclipse turns around and she's like, "What was he talking to you about?" and I go, "I dunno... studying or something..." Wtf. I have a 95% in that class, a 96% in math, a god-knows-what in all my other classes... Driver's Ed is a guaranteed B cuz I'm not swimming, but everything else is basically a guaranteed A because I'm ME! Hul-LO! ME does not STUDY. If I studied, I'd have HUNDREDS in all my classes. Obtrusively high grades = attention. Attention = bad. "So I bless you with my curse, and encourage your endeavor, you'll be better when you're worse, you must die to live forever, I will show you the dance of the night, we can never go wrong together I will take you to the end of the line, my eyes are like a shadow on you..." Uhn... Chocolate is god... Caramel... mmm... Mmm... So anyways, I was reading in World Cultures and math and nearly had a mental breakdown... For any fellow Anita Blake readers who have read Narcissus in Chains, Jean-Claude met Micah for the first time... That's all I'll say. You know that book takes place in like, three days? Well, I guess so far it's been around a week, but two or three days got skipped over... "And since I know all your dreams I understand what you need, and when I call you, you must go where I lead... Your dreams are so hungry, it's time now to feed." Anyways, I've got a book to write... I got pissed off last night and didn't write anything because I was made of fire inside for a couple hours... So, I'm gonna do that now, I suppose. ~SJ "Original Sin"

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Wednesday, February 15, 2006

Odd: I've decided that I have a really good sense of smell. I don't know if it's normal or not, but at Christmas and now at V-Day, I got some candies (from family... nobody else would give me candy for v-day unless I put a gun to their head)... And they were oh-so-kind as to NOT tell me what each of the candies was... So I just have this box of candy, and I mean, some of those things are the kind of thing you bite into and then want to throw up. So, I sat there, and sniffed every single last one of them and tried to identify them, and I could tell, past the scent of chocolate, what they were. Just now I sat here and picked up every candy in this heart-shaped box my grandma gave me, sniffed them, and identified all the ones that I'd had before. I don't know their names, but I can say, "That's coconut, that's caramel, that's that weird molasses chew thing that is like DEATH CANDY for your teeth..." It's kinda weird. But all oddities aside, Does anyone know of a place I can download a bunch of Pierrot stuff? I have Yuuyami Suicide, Barairo no Sekai, and Mad Sky... I want more. Anyone got any ideas? Incidentally, I sort-of started a story last night that might develop into a novel... My babies... *sighs contentedly* But anyways, yeah, so, I know you all hate me cuz I've been updating less often than usual, but that's not gonna get any better now... Now. Pierrot. Tell me. I want music. You got any in your computer? You can email them to me. I have an email address on this page someplace... And also, does anyone know what kind of software it takes to put together a video thingy on your computer, and how much it would cost? I want to make my own little video thingies... and also, I'm thinking, if I have cool stuff like that, I can make a short little video clip or something for my senior project... which I haven't even started and haven't heard mention of and don't have to write until next year sometime... Point remains, I want to make my own little video thingies and I want to know what kind of software I need... So, the things I'm asking today are: 1) Can YOU identify candies by sense of smell? Is that normal, or am I special? 2) Do you know where I can find any Pierrot music? 3) Computery movie-makey softwarey stuff... What kind of things exist out there, where can I find them, and how much do they cost? Doumo Arigatou. ~SJ ...tabetemoiidesuka?...

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Tuesday, February 14, 2006

I got cookies and candy from teachers today... YAY! I witnessed PDAs, but apparently the fat grubs were absent. Both of them. On the same day. On Valentine's Day. I wonder if they saw each other. I wore pleather pants today and got quite a few "OMIGOD!"s... Apparently, one kid said, "What the fuck?" when he saw me... It was either the pants, or my boots squeaking on the floor, or my pants squeaking somewhat when my thighs brushed together, or the combination of the three... Some people didn't even notice I was wearing them, which is understandable since I was sitting down with my legs under desks most of the day... But they clung to me like all hell, and my best friend said they kind of made me look like a skank, and yet she would buy a pair of them, so yay for that. I discovered today that if I changed it to Deathentine's Day that instead of V-Day it'd be D-Day... Yay fer that one. I got $20 for existing on Valentine's Day. My grandma sent me a card and money. How freaking awesome is that? I've accumulated sixty bucks in like, a three or so days, just because I exist, basically. I exist, therefore I get good grades and get $20 for my report card. I exist, therefore I do stupid things like write papers left-handed and turn them in, which gets me $20. I exist and today is Valentine's Day, so I get money. YAY! Now if only I could get through the rest of life like that... *sighs* Well, as it is, I have children to raise, from the exposition (birth) to the resolution (maturity)... Then, after that, they try to get jobs, and if they're successful, they go out into the real world... *wipes away tears* People will use and abuse them, or treat them reverently and love them almost like I do... But if they can't get jobs... THEY GET TO STAY HOME WITH ME AND I WILL STILL LOVE THEM EVEN THOUGH THEY FAILED! Useless kids. ~SJ But if they get jobs, then I get most of their wages. YAY!

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Monday, February 13, 2006

   Eek.

Tomorrow is the evil death day. *shudder* PDA ex-PLO-sion!!! Oh my god! There's this couple at my school, and they're fat grubs, and I saw them kissing and the guy grabbed the girl's ass and it was all flab and I almost threw up. I better not see them tomorrow. I'll die. I got twenty bucks for writing a page-and-a-half paper left-handed and turning it in. Took me an hour to write the fuckin' thing... I'm gonna buy a mesh/fishnet shirt... That's what the money is for... My friend said she'd buy one for me if I turned in that paper like that... Instead she gave me money so I can buy it... Yay. My birthday is a month from tomorrow. How appropriate. I'll be sixteen a month after Deathentine's Day. Haha! Deathentine's Day! That's so corny yet amusing! I just made that up. Omigod, so, I want to write. Now. Write. Like, a story. A book. A novel. An encyclopedia. A RELIGIOUS TEXT! YEEHA! If I made an organized religion, I would declare Valentine's Day a religious crime, and name February 14th Deathentine's Day. Who wants to join my religion!!? ~SJ If I never update again, you know it's because I died from the overload of happiness and love and drama in the school hallways tomorrow. And maybe from seeing fat grub love.

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Saturday, February 11, 2006

YAY FOR BEING RUINED! Guess what? I'm tired, and I'm wearing pleather pants, and they cling to me. I'm hyper, but I'm too tired to do anything. I want to sleep. I slept for 10 hours last night. I woke up at like, 1:47 AM and thought, "I'm awake. I was asleep? I bet my stereo's gonna turn off soon. Damn." It turned off and I don't remember anything until waking up with my clock saying 9:58... It's snowing. I like to sleep. I watched Drake & Josh for an hour. I love that show. I have a math quiz on Monday or I'd be mysteriously "sick". FUCKING HELL. Speaking of math, I haven't done ANY of my homework, and I have a lot. Three worksheets. Fucking hell. I also have to write the diary entry of an illiterate girl for english... so I'm writing it left handed because I hate my teacher and its' a stupid assignment and I think it's hilarious to write it left handed, and I don't give a shit if I get a bad grade on it, because my friend said she'd buy me something if I turned it in like that. I'm so sick of school right now... I need days off. Next weekend is a three-day weekend, but that's not soon enough, dammit! I think I also get out March 9 & 10 for teacher days... But I wish I got off the 13th & 14th... That way, no school on my birthday! But I'm not that fuggin' lucky. I have a 4-day weekend then I have to come back to school only to have people around me be like, "Yay, you're sixteen!" and I'll be like, "Yay, I hate you! Because you're a whore!" Did I mention I'm sleepy? Valentine's Day is Tuesday. *chokes and dies* I should wear my black pants and a pure black shirt and see how much everyone loves me then... *shakes fist* Damn that "love" shit! It's so annoying! ~SJ Valentine's Day is a Hallmark Holiday! Pah! Love. Pah!

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Friday, February 10, 2006

Y'know that college I said something about earlier? Well, it's a private university thingy... It said the total enrollment is 812 or something similar. Doesn't matter. I haven't got any more college shit for a while. I better not have to go out of my way to get information for stupid colleges... You all know I don't go out of my way for *anything*. I keep getting distracted. I need to rent some movies... Only problem is, I never watch movies. So there's not really any point in renting them. Which is why I haven't yet. ~SJ Melt in the sun, melt in the sun, who wants to come with me and melt in the sun?!

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