Thursday, February 16, 2006

"I've been looking for an original sin, one with a twist and a bit of a spin, and since I've done all the old ones 'til they've all been done in, now I'm just looking, then I'm gone with the wind, endlessly searching for an original sin." So, today we finished watching the Usual Suspects in my films class... That movie is like, wow. Five trillion f-words, blood, death, and an AWESOME ending. What a fucking great movie. It's the first movie we've watched in there that I've thought, that was so fucking great. I can't remember what else we've watched in there. Let's see... The Godfather... Alien... Love Actually... Junebug... I think there were a couple others... But yeah. Usual Suspects. Good fuckin' movie. It had good music, too... hm. 'magine that. So, I'm gonna make up a list of CDs and DVDs my dad can get me for my birthday... The Usual Suspects will be on there, I think. So, onwards we trudge... "I've been waiting for you since you've been born, I watch you secretly but not for long, and since I know all your dreams I understand what you need, and when I call you, you must go where I lead... your dreams are so hungry, it's time now to feed." Today, I got a really weird-ass lecture from my biology teacher. He is OBSESSED with studying. So we got our progress reports today, and when he called me up to his desk, he's like... blah blah blah, then he goes, "Now, you don't study much, do you?" and I'm like, "...No, not really." And he says, "I figured. Not like you really need to, obviously, by your grades, but... what are your plans for after high school?" At this point, I'm thinking, 'uh, what the fuck, man... nothing science-related, if that's what you're getting at...' But I politely say, "I'm not really sure." "Well," he says, "are you gonna go to college, probably, or... y'know, college...?" and again, I have a mental wtf, and say, "Yeah, I'll probably go to college..." and I probably had a 'what the fuck are you getting at, man?' expression on my face. So he goes on and says, "You should probably start developing study habits, then, you know? 'Cause, in college it's a little bit different... Y'know... They say 'read four chapters tonight'..." And I just kinda nod, and he continues, "I mean, you're obviously good at reading and remembering and listening, but college is different... they don't just hand everything to you..." And I'm like, "Uh-huh." while thinking, 'uh... yeah... study habits... i have those already... it's called, if I need to study, i do. if I don't need to, why waste the time?' Meanwhile in the back of my mind the little person just wants to run away shrieking 'OMIGOD WHY IS HE TALKING TO ME? GAHHH! TEACHERS ARE SUPPOSED TO NOTICE ME, I DON'T EXIST! JSUT GIMME MY DAMN PROGRESS REPORT AND LET ME GO!' Finally he goes, "So you should start working on that... otherwise, you're good." and i'm like, "Okay!" all cheerful, like we'd just made a big resolution or whatever, and I take the paper and turn and squeak on back to my chair, sit down, and promptly nearly knock everything on the floor. Eclipse turns around and she's like, "What was he talking to you about?" and I go, "I dunno... studying or something..." Wtf. I have a 95% in that class, a 96% in math, a god-knows-what in all my other classes... Driver's Ed is a guaranteed B cuz I'm not swimming, but everything else is basically a guaranteed A because I'm ME! Hul-LO! ME does not STUDY. If I studied, I'd have HUNDREDS in all my classes. Obtrusively high grades = attention. Attention = bad. "So I bless you with my curse, and encourage your endeavor, you'll be better when you're worse, you must die to live forever, I will show you the dance of the night, we can never go wrong together I will take you to the end of the line, my eyes are like a shadow on you..." Uhn... Chocolate is god... Caramel... mmm... Mmm... So anyways, I was reading in World Cultures and math and nearly had a mental breakdown... For any fellow Anita Blake readers who have read Narcissus in Chains, Jean-Claude met Micah for the first time... That's all I'll say. You know that book takes place in like, three days? Well, I guess so far it's been around a week, but two or three days got skipped over... "And since I know all your dreams I understand what you need, and when I call you, you must go where I lead... Your dreams are so hungry, it's time now to feed." Anyways, I've got a book to write... I got pissed off last night and didn't write anything because I was made of fire inside for a couple hours... So, I'm gonna do that now, I suppose. ~SJ "Original Sin"

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