Friday, March 24, 2006

I'm gonna write a really long post, or at least attempt to. Let's start on a topic as innocent as a baby. At lunch today (honestly, this is innocent!), well, I do that "Your mom" thing a lot just to annoy people, so my friend goes, "Guess what? Your mom." And I go, "Guess what." And she's like, "Your mom?" and I said, "No. GACKT!" So later, there was this girl (heather) who wanted to read something in someone's notebook, and she's sitting there going "PleasePleasePleasePleasePlease?" and my best friend is like, "You know, that's really, really annoying." Then a little bit later she's like, "Omigod, let's do an impression of heather!" and me, her, and two other people just start going "PleasePleasePleasePleasePlease?!" in this high-pitched annoying voice, then after a few more random impressions, my best friend's like, "OMIGOD, I can do an impression of Shadow! 'GACKT!'" I cracked up laughing... Cuz it was so perfect... I really am such a fangirl. *shakes head* It's okay. Gackt is worthy. Then, I grabbed my best friend and whispered, "I can do an impression of [guy friend.] 'Oh my god, [guy] is SOOOOOO hot!!!'" Guy Friend got pissed at me for that... But hey. He called me a 'lesbian cocksucker' yesterday... That doesn't even make sense, dammit. Okay, the innocence went poof. What else happened today... Oh. I was rambling about Gackt, and I got this girl interested in him (I was saying random strange tidbits about him, like that he claims he's a 400-year-old vampire, and that apparently when he was young he almost drowned, claims to have gotten paranormal abilities from the experience, and was thus committed to isolation in a mental institution...). So, later in the day, the girl's like, "Do you have any of his music with you? I'm curious." So she listened to about a minute of Vanilla, then the bell rang... She asked me what it was about, so I told her... She said she felt like she should be doing some kind of dance, like the flamingo or something like that, to it... I don't know what the flamingo dance is, but all I think of when I listen to vanilla is the live concert I watched where Gackt and his band members were all over each other... It was soooo great. Japanese guys sure know how to put on a show. *shakes head* Which reminds me. Last night I was watching this thing on Youtube called "JRockers are perverts (and you like it)" and GOD are J-rockers perverts... Gackt, Pierrot, and god knows who else were on there... This one guy was like, humping the mic stand... These other people, I dunno if they were both guys or what, but they kissed... It was nuts. They're so crazy. But it's good crazy. What else happened to me today... Oh. Heh heh. In conversation today, in Japanese, my friend was so out of it... she kept messing up... It was great. She referred to herself in third person and I had to correct her... Twice, she did something that I couldn't help laughing out loud at, and usually I just try to sit quietly through conversation and coach my two classmates, who seem to have more problems than I do... But I was laughing... It was so great. Though, on the topic of Japanese class, apparently I'm not as stupid as I act, am, seem, look, and appear. Cuz we have this message board thing for all the J2 classes with the Distance learning program, and we were supposed to make posts to help each other prepare for the test that was today, so I posted yesterday and just put some simple things on there and I was like, thinking, "Well, this probably won't be helpful but at least I can say I participated..." But I check back a little later and several people were like, "OH MIGOD, THIS WAS SOOOOOOOO HELPFUL! IT'S SO MUCH EASIER THE WAY YOU EXPLAINED IT! I'M GONNA USE THAT ON MY TEST TOMORROW!" And I was like, holy shit. I'm not so stupid after all. It's SOOOOOO amazing! Moving right along, what else do I have to say... Oh. I might join stage crew for my school... Yeeha. I know of one person in it, but that's not the point. Apparently... I forget what I was gonna say. Um. Oh yeah, apparently our school hosts dance recitals during the summer, and the stage crew has to go and do the lighting for those and stuff, and they get paid $5 an hour and sometimes can be there for 12 hours... So that sounds joyful. But, hey, I like technology, and I need a job. For some reason, recently, I've been inspired to do shit. I started teaching myself guitar, I started doing sit-ups and push-ups and shit, and I want to get a job, I want to write a novel, I suddenly felt like randomly talking to people I don't really know isn't such a bad thing... Like, today I had to talk to two teachers about the stage crew thing. Normally I'd be like, "Well, I'd like to do that, but forget it, I don't want to talk to him, he's scary." Which is sad, because one of them is my world cultures teacher and he's awesome, but I've only spoken like, ten words to him in my life... But today I got up and talked to him and he told me that it was good I was interested and if I really wanted to do it, to go talk to this other teacher... This other teacher I've never spoken a word to and never even been in his room... But I went and talked to him anyways of my own accord and didn't like, sweat profusely out my eyeballs or any such weird alien shit... So, I think I've been abducted by aliens every night for the past couple weeks, and they've played around with my brain... Braaaaaain. This is a pretty freaking long post, isn't it? What else can I talk about? My aspirations for the future? My hopes and dreams and desires? Well, let's really avoid talking about my desires... My hopes and dreams? Well, those are too philosophical terms for me. I like the terms "THING ME WANT DO IN FUTURE." That screams "MEEEEE!!!!!!!" much more than "~hopes~" and "~dreams~" don't you think? I do. What else, what else... I'm trying to avoid talking about Gackt and such because then I would start and never stop. You know when I was talking about Gackt this morning, my Guy Friend kept being all derisive and put-downish... I bet he's jealous that I love Gackt and can say "I LOVE GACKT!!!!" But I won't even say that I like being friends with him. He's always like, "I love you. I'm so glad we're friends." and I'm like, "Uh, stop saying that." Today he was like, "I'm so glad we're friends." And I'm like, "Uh, stop it." and he's like, "No, really! I'm glad we're friends. I like being friends with you. Aren't you glad we're friends?" and I'm like, "Um, are you just trying to get me to say it?" and he's like, "Yes." So, to be a bitch (well, just to stick to being me), I said, "Well, you're not gonna succeed." He called me a bitch, so I guess I succeeded in MY goal... heh heh. I'm such a bitch. Then my other friend is always like, "I love you, and you love me, you don't need to say it, I know..." And I want to kill her. Today I said, "I don't love anyone." and she looked at me for a second, then she's like, "You're lying." And I said, "No, I don't love anyone." But she doesn't believe me, dammit. And yet another of my friends hugged me in the hallway... He's stronger than me, so I couldn't very well get away... Then he proceeded to tell me my breath stank and he gave me a piece of gum... I dunno how he smelled my breath when I didn't even breathe... I stopped breathing when he hugged me. I was like, "OMIGOD I'M BEING TOUCHED." That's something else my Guy Friend does that pisses me off... He touches me. He used to hug and molest me, and THANK THE GODS he has stopped doing that, but he still pokes me and stuff... And every single time, I say "DON'T TOUCH ME." and he hasn't stopped yet. God damn him. Okay I will! What else... I got my legs stroked at lunch by a guy and a girl... I scared a guy away by telling him to go get something for me cuz he loved me... Apparently he doesn't love me. Understandable. I've only really talked to him for a couple months. He probably thinks I want him to love me. I don't. Anyways, I'm gonna stop now and go do something more productive, like work on my book... ~SJ hon o tabete mo ii desu ka? neko wa hon hodo suki ja nai desu.

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