Tuesday, March 28, 2006

Well, my day today was fairly miserable, but it could have been worse... So, I managed to watch a few minutes of that horrible self-video before I decided it must be recorded over and never seen by another human being. Though it was kinda funny. But the shirt I was wearing was about 2 sizes too big, so I looked like truncated cone with a head and arm... Rather than a female human. Not to say I'm concerned about my appearance, but maybe I should start dressing more like a girl. But, if I start dressing more like a girl, I'll have to wear all black. I mean, right now, I wear colors, to an extent (sometimes I go several days in a row with no black!). If I start wearing girl's clothes, it'll be black jeans (no blue allowed), and black shirts, with the occasional exception. It's just logical. Either it's baggy clothes and dark colors, or female clothes and no colors. It's just the way the world works for me. I just realized that this summer, my sister won't go school shopping with me. She's graduating. Damn. That leaves me alone with my dad and stepmom. The horror. I'll have to bring along my best friend. You know, I want to lose weight, and I mentioned that I've gained three pounds in two weeks because I started eating like a normal person, and my friend is like, "Really? I've lost ten pounds since I started track." That's been since March 6th. Damn! Ten pounds in a month! That means she's like 115. I hate that. It's been too cold to go outside much, considering that anything below 40 is too cold for me, but maybe since it's warming up I'll try to start exercising more. Of course, I'm not allowed to have a bike (I might wreck and break my face open). And nobody will take me to the high school track on a daily basis and I hate walking uphill... so that basically screws me, since I live at the top of a hill. Onwards. My mother remembered to rent Memoirs of a Geisha without me reminding her! YAY! I have to watch it before she watches it (my rule) because in the book, there is sex (nothing graphic) and I want to see how the movie handles that... But otherwise, I'm sure it'll be great. On Thursday at my school, there's a 'carnival'... We'll be operating on a 'two hour early dismissal' schedule so we can watch part of the stupid school play (Charlie Brown. oh please), then go wander around the cafeteria, commons area, gym, and outside... Sounds exciting, no? I'm gonna probably stick in my headphones, find a corner, and hide. Either that and wander around and pester my teachers (the ones that aren't hiding in their rooms, like I'm fairly sure my world cultures teacher will be, but that's OK cuz I don't talk to him anyways). I'm kind of looking forward to and simultaneously dreading next year... Like, I'm taking TV Workshop and the teacher is cool, and I'll get to film things and such. Yay for that. I'm taking Chemistry and American History, and there's the option of a cool younger teacher or a creepy older teacher for both of those classes. That's the source of some of the dread. I better not get the creepy older teachers. I'm taking library skills, which ought to be a fun corner of hell... and, I'm taking creative writing 2, which ought to be just as lovely (cough cough) as this year has been. We're RESEARCHING a freakin' genre... And since I put down 'fantasy' on my paper as what I like to read, she says I have to research fantasy... Are vampires fantasy? I tried to think of what the Anita Blake novels were, so I put down Fantasy, Scifi, Crime, Comedy, and Action... I know they're not comedy, that's something different. So I'm stuck researching Fantasy. How the HELL do you research a genre? Like, I don't know what we're supposed to do with it, either. Like, write something? She said something about a poster. We have to make a poster or visual of some sort. Cut. My. Throat. I can't wait until I get Moon Child (vampire movie co-starring Gackt Camui!) and Dictator's Circus (Pierrot CD. Yay Kirito!)... I hope I get them on Friday because that will basically say SPOOJ! all over the end of a week. I so freaking love Pierrot. And I'm really curious about Moonchild. I want to see Gackt act. Heh heh. That kinda rhymed. Anyways, I'm curious. Cuz, I mean, from the things I've watched of him, he seems to be a very... straight-faced guy. On one thing I watched, he laughed and did a monkey impression of some sort cuz these two guys were poking at his face and saying stuff I couldn't understand... It was soo funny... But anyways, yeah. Gackt. He also wrote/co-wrote the whole damn movie, and sang a song or two for it, so holy cow for that. What a talented guy. This boy in my creative writing class picked up my Gackt bookmark I made ages ago (before I was even obsessed with him, I just liked the picture), and he's like, "Man, this guy is a fag. Like, if I saw him on the street, I would beat the shit out of him." He didn't even know who he was, he was just going by looks. Then I was like, "Actually, no you wouldn't, cuz he does Karate and stuff..." But the kid wasn't listening, then he attempted to throw it out the window and I was like, "No! No, no, no. Please?" Then I remembered one time he'd taken something of mine and I was like, "You wanna give that back?" and he said no, and I said, "Are you gonna give that back?" and he's like, "Yeah. See, you gotta ask the right questions." So, back to the throwing Gackt bookmark out window thing, I was just like, "You're gonna give that back." and he goes, "I know." and gives it back. A little bit later he took my pencil and tried to break it over his knee... It didn't work so well and he ended up in a crippled heap on the floor. Then he stomped on it until he broke it. I left it laying there and this other kid came over and picked up a piece and flung it at someone... Anyways, I'm hungry and this is boring so I'm gonna go now. ~SJ

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