Thursday, July 13, 2006

My life is so boring.

I wake up too early, and have too many hours in which I need to find something to do before my mother goes to bed and I can write. I woke up around noon every day lately, but considering I go to bed at 5 or 6 AM, that's shitty. I don't have air conditioning and it's hot and humid. There's rarely anyone on MSN that I want to talk to, or if they are, they're on around 11 PM, and my mother goes to bed at 11:30, and I get into the writing mood at like midnightish... Honestly. I wish I could just sleep from about 6 AM until 3 or 4 PM, eat dinner around 6 PM, watch TV for a little bit, check the emails that I never have, play some games on Neopets, and then write for two to five hours. But no. I go to bed between 5 and 6 AM. I get woke up at 12:30. I have 11 hours in which I have to find something to do before I can do anything I want to do. Because I can't write with people around. Especially not considering I'm writing a gay romance story. But I've not been getting enough sleep lately, and I'm getting tired and it's only 11:21, and I am so pissed. And when school starts, what the fuck am I gonna do then? I need a job so I can get a laptop so I can write in my bedroom. Then I would never need to leave my room, except to eat, but eating is overrated. I eat one meal and one or maybe two snacks in a day. I'm so unhealthy. I don't exercise. I don't eat. I don't go out and get sunshine on my white skin. My regular schedule has me going to sleep when the sun's rising and birds are singing. I rarely leave my house. Nothing exciting happens. I'm enthralled to be able to have a conversation on MSN with someone I've never met. I have a shitty relationship with my family. I don't talk to them about ANYTHING. *heavy sigh* And that's my shit in a nutshell. Have fun with your lives, which are surely more exciting. I got excited today because I found a recipe for CINNAMON ROLLS. YES. I HATE COOKING! I'M TOO LAZY TO COOK. BUT I WANT TO MAKE CINNAMON ROLLS, BECAUSE IT WOULD BE SOMETHING TO DO, AND THEY TASTE GOOD. I'm going down to my dad's house tomorrow, so hopefully he'll have something exciting to do, but I bet all we'll do is go see POTC2 again and maybe spend like, two seconds at the mall, and maybe go out to dinner. Granted, more exciting than what I've been doing. Hell. I'm so desperate for entertainment that I want to spend about $50 on a couple CDs just so I'll have some new music to listen to. It would keep me entertained for a bit. But I only have $75 and I'm trying to save it. GAAAAHHHHHHHH!!! MY LIFE IS SO BORING. I WANT TO KILL SOMETHING! HAVING A JOB WOULD BE MORE EXCITING THAN THIS! ****MIZERABLE!!!**** ~SJ That's all.

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