Tuesday, February 1, 2005

meh...

I hate waking up in the morning and not feeling well....>< I think it was the snow; dont get me wrong I love the snow, just not when Im too sick to enjoy it. But eh, lets see what else happened. I went out and got the new zelda game on the GBA today. Its actually really awsome! Alot like the SNES zelda game, only with windwaker and Ocarina of Time elements. Definitly worth picking up. Also got the urge to level my Ninja in Final fantasy XI today, partied for a few hours, but it takes so long to level anymore. Level 58 Ninja btw ^^ just need oh....18000 more exp to level...shouldnt be more than 8...hours...of...EXPing x_x That game is very awsome, though it is very time consuming.^^ Hmmm...I also thought alot about this girl Ive been seening recently. Kind of a long story, but its 1:30 am and I have only time^^ Back when I was in high school, I used to sit with this group of anime fans at lunch. I talked to this girl the most, we had alot in common, and I fell for her. But graduation came and I was never sure if she liked me back, so being the shy guy I am...I kinda drifted away...;_; almost a year pasted. My best friend started to date one of his old girlfriends, and one day they called me up and told me that they were setting me up on a blind date. I was skeptical at first, but I had a feeling that I already knew this girl I was being hooked up with. So the night came and sure enough, the girl I was on the blind date with was the girl from school that I had a crush on^^ We instantly clicked, it was like we had been dating for months; right from the start ^_^ Later it was found out that we both had crushes on each other, but were to shy to tell the other. A few days later we went on our first offical date as just the two of us, we went to a movie, walked around the mall and had some dinner. It was one of the best nights I had ever had! Her and I just had so much in common, and connected so well, I was starting to fall in love with this woman, I could tell she was feeling the same thing^^ But then something happened, something that came out of no where. One hour (or so) after I had dropped her off from our date, she calls me up. She sounded like she was crying before calling me. Of course I was worried, but before I could ask her what had happened, she told me that she couldnt see me anymore!! It hit me hard, I didnt know what to say. I weakly managed to ask why. Silence....then I could make out someone in the background saying something with Christina (thats her name) repeating it. She told me that she wasnt ready, that she would be happier if we werent dating. ?! @_@ It made no sense! Just an hour earlier we were having a great evening, Ive never seen her so happy; but now she was breaking it off! I could feel my heart shatter in my chest. It was late and she had school inthe morning, so she told me she would talk to me about it more tomarrow, speakless, and shattered I agreed...maybe she just needed sometime to think. The next day comes along and it gets pretty late, I start to wonder if she was gonna call. I decied to call her....Her cellphone rings, rings...then picks up and instantly hangs up. O_O!? I call her home number, and her mom picks up. "Is this Nick? Oh thats who I thought. Yeah she doenst want to talk to you." "So if you could dont call her anymore, ok?" She told me coldly. "Why doesnt she want to talk to me?" I ask quickly "She just doesnt want to." I knew something wasnt right. I asked if I could talk to christina for a few mins just so I could figure out what happened. But she just hung up on me! I tried calling back but they just picked up and hung up on me.... This was last tuesday when it happened. Since then I have yet to be able to talk to her. Im still no closer to finding out what happened, nor have I been able to get in contact with her in anyway. My friends try to call her, but she is very cryptic when she talks to them. We have one guess as to what happened. We think her mom told her that she couldnt talk to me anymore, and thus made her tell me all of that. Why her mom doesnt want me to date her is a mystery. All I know, is that for those two dates I was so happy, and I know she was too; but something happened and now Im alone, and I cant even talk to her.... ;_; I just dont know what to do....well, ive made my self alittle sad, so I think im gonna head to bed. Sleep well everyone, and talk to you all in the morning.

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