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Monday, February 28, 2005

   How Sad..........
I dont think EJ ever valued our relationship....I want to hate but I can't......I love her as a friend....a very very good friend....Dammit!!! I dont like losing friends.....but sadly it is my fate.....I was destined for sadness......I wont kill myself because I deserve all this suffering.....EJ was not one of those close friends...she was more distant...just like me.....She was still a good friend......Why cant I let this go??? She hates me now and there is nothing I can do about it.....ARRRRGGGGGG What the fuck do I do????? The best thing for me to do is run away =\ that will give me plenty of suffering....I will get what I deserve......But then if I do run away I hurt dolly...I dont want that...but I cant go from here unpunished...I deserve sadness...I deserve suffering....I dont deserve Dolly.......I deserve death!! I am just confused....I dont know who I am anymore....Why does EJ view me as Selfish.....I was doing it all for everyone......I create problems....I make people hate me....I am just an uneeded presence in this world.....Dammit!!! what the fuck should I do? I am confused...I dont wanna lose one of my best friends.....I dont have many good friends.....I only had one but then I got 3 really good ones.....one became my girlfriend and one just now became my enemy and the last one she is rarely on...=\.....I am back to having one best friends...I do apprecciate Dolly and I love her very much.....but I cause her too many problems =\............I am still confused!!! can someone please help me.....please..............please...
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