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Wednesday, March 30, 2005

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ugh.....I only slept 3 hours last night....I was busy doing an essay.....Well I am not tired...but I am really depressed...I have no idea why.....I keep having bad memories...I never remember any good memories...I can only remember the bad ones....*sigh*...I promised my mom i would not cut myself....so i won't.....It is gonna be heard but....*sigh*..............I don't like this one bit......I am wide awake...I only slept 3 hours....hmmm....In history class we were talking about how the terks commited mass genocide against the armenians...I laughed...I kept smiling....I find holocaust funny....I only smile like that when lestat is out.....I just don't want to have emotions anymore.....It is all too hard.....I...I don't know what to do anymore.....I will probably be changing my AIM sn again....I don't want to talk to anyone anymore....I want them to leave me alone....I shall give up on my online life...I need to focus more on my real life....shit....not again...fuck...I want to break up with dolly again....*sigh*...............when I need help no one is there...I hate that.....that is why I hate my emotions now....I shall destroy all my good emotions...I shall destroy myself...I will let lestat take over...I will let him hate everyone..including dolly.....*sigh* no one can help me......Christ is a fucker.....God is a bastard....in the end no one is there for you...you are all alone in this world.....I will now become a satanist....I don't care anymore...I get nothing from being catholic so I should just be satanist...I get nothing either way...but maybe...I can destroy all my good emotions if I become a satanist...hehe...good job...Well I shall now do something....

To Everyone: you can all fuck off....you and your stupid lies won't work on me...you bitches are all the same...lowlife little pieces of shit...you guys can all fuck off....

To Dolly: you...you should just get out of my life...i don't want you...I dont need you...You can go to hell for all I care....I hate you.....leave me alone
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