Saturday, November 5, 2005

   ok i want to approach an issue
ok the issuei want o approach is a person by the name ChiJessica.....now normally i would ignore her idiocy...now wehn it starts to mess with my friends is when i put my foot down....she has messed with a friend of mine to were sh had to eliminate her otaku profile...I Do not appreciate this...she needs to stop becuase its making me mad and i dont get mad easily.....as i sadi before i am not going to do anything to her...but i will tell her what i tjink...now if she wants to come on my profiel and harrass me im gonna let...be cuase then she has given me the oppurtunity to report her...she willnot harras my friends to were they can no longer go to their sites...it makes me mad becuase that is very shallow and superficial and she needs to quit.....now i have to go to work if you have anything to say leave a comment.
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Wednesday, November 2, 2005

   I tried to make peace
I tried to make peace with those I have scorned....some have accepted my apology and we are freinds agian......these people are E.S. and Z.H. now I have also apologized to J.B. although she accepted my apology we are no longer friends and i expected a truce.....well turns out she does not believe in peace...she continued to spread nonesense about me saying that I'm "emo"....now I have not done anything else to her and I'm not going to...I am not going to stoop to her level....but if she lays one finger on me I WILL wear her out.....but you know.....I recieved a very amusing "hate" letter from C.H. ...now i did not find it offensive in the least....however....I did nothing to him for him TO send a letter like that so I had decided not to bother arguing with him becuase I knew it would be a waste of MY time and MY energy.....but then he came to me and apologised...I forgave him...but as to wether or not I'll be his his friend is a completley different story....see I have made a policy that I follow now....if someone wants to be my friend they have to earn that right...here are some people who have EARNED it....Amber, Damian, Tamika, Tomi, Hoover, Thomas, Daniel, Ricky, Tasha, Heather, Cody, Erik, Johdi, Aarron, Vision, Roxanne and Nick...anyone else that I hang out with they have either had my freindship for a long time or I have yet to give it to them...now I'm only their friend if they gain my trust first......C.H. and J.B......well lets just say they lost my trust a LONG time ago.....and I'm not one to forget that sort of thing...you know I apologized to J.B. for what I did to her....but I wasnt the only one at fualt....so was she.....and I took the high road and apologized, she has yet to do that. Well I have to go to work.
Crimson Regret
Kat
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Monday, October 31, 2005

   yes today i have decided to show an emotion
happy halloween! yes this is my day! the day i get to go out at night and enjoy it! Unlike most im not go begging for candy (thats just degradding). Me and the rest of my friends (amber, johdi, jared, and lauren.) are going to go to the cemetery and cause a little trouble! Afterwards where going to go to The lunar Eclipse tonight is vampire night and all those wierdos your parents wrn you about that come out on halloween are going to be there. well i have to go and put on my fangs see ya!
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Saturday, October 29, 2005

   for those who dont know
i have named my virtual pet senecan tragedy for those who dont know,Seneca was a roman playwright and stoic philosphere and wrote several tragedies.he developed tragedies based on greek myth around the notation of revenge such as revenge tragedies and tragedies of blood.due to the lack of speacial effects Seneca had people run in and report the blood and gore.
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Thursday, October 27, 2005

   ok people lets get a few things striaght
I am not emo...nor am I punk....I am cybergoth.....I do not show dramatic emotions....I do not show anger,sorrow,happiness,or pain....anger is a useless emotion that wastes energy....I have not shown anger, noone has seen me angry nor will they ever. I do not anger easily. I do not show happiness that is also a useless emotion...I am drone like....and these poems and sonnets that I post are ways of getting rid of useless emotions that i do not wish to feel... you do not read have to read them but if you do I wouldd like it if you commented about them....I am a drone like person...I do not care what people say to me or about me.....I ignore it and go on with my day. Those who try to get a rise out of me are asinine and inane people who have nothing better to do with htier lives...i do not cuss anymore i have given that up. Those who try to "bitch me out" remind me of yapping mutts who do not know thier place. Now if someone throws a punch at me yes I will throw them across the room...now that I have explained myself I would appreciate it if thse who try to anger me give up its not going to work.
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   broken
I wear a smile to hide these tears..
My fallen hopes and unconquered fears..
I do this deed to escape the pain..
But nothing I do can stop the rain..
Do you understand how I bleed..
Bound and broken, torn at the seam..
My wings are clipped I cannot fly..
Forever more my limit's the sky..

They tell me they love me..
They tell me they can see..
No one can ever see the real me..
I'll never be who I used to be..
That carefree girl with a smile..
Who thought life was worthwhile..
She is no more, the tears were too much..
Numb to all but one's touch..

Lost she cries out in the dark..
Searching for that stolen spark..
"Save me from this emptiness..
Tell me it's me you possess.."
The words fall on deaf ears..
Too much time lost to these years..
Who can save this broken dream..
Who can hear me as I scream..


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Monday, October 24, 2005

You said you'd stay with me,
You promised me,
And now you've lied to me.

I said I'll stay by your side,
I said I'd always care for you,
And now I've lied to you.

You told me to wait for you,
You told me you'd be back for me,
And now you've lied to me.

I said I'd wait for you,
I said I believe you,
And now I've lied to you.

You cried for me that day,
You told me you'd never leave me,
And now you've lied to me.

I cried for you that day,
I told you I'd never let you go,
And now I've lied to you.

You let go of my hand and drifted away,
You sleep now forever peacefully,
And now you've lied to me.

I let you go unwillingly,
I know I could have done more,
And now I've lied to you.

We laid you to rest,
Under the willow tree,
And now you've lied to me.

I called your name,
Ever so softly,
And now I've lied to you.

But I heard you're words before you left,
I'll never forget them,
And now you've told me the truth.

I whispered them back to you,
As soft as wind,
And now I've told you the truth.

You said to me I love you,
You said them with your last breath,
And now you've told me the truth.

I said to you I love you,
As you lay there dieing,
And now I've told you the truth.

You lay there,
Smiling at my words,
And now you've told me the truth.

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   amber is over agian!
Amber: ok i want to talk about you hiding your emotoins kat. *gives kat a dry look*
Kat: i don't know what your talking bout.
Amber:ok Kat i know half of your smiles are fake.
Kat:so? whats wrong with giving fake smiles?
Amber:Your never really happy are you?
Kat:..........
Amber:Kat
Kat:no....
Amber: ok now i want to talk about your ex.
Kat:which one?
Amber:b.
Kat: oh no.......
Amber: now you lied to him bout how you felt 24/7 didnt you?
Kat:...no......
Amber:KAT!
Kat:ok....i did...so......
Amber: you should have! you are always a fucking drone!
Kat:thats not a bad thing...
Amber: yes it is! im gothic and i still show my emotions!
Kat:........
Amber: example kat, when he dated you AND that other chic you didnt like it did you?
Kat: he asked for my consent and i said i didnt care.....
AMber: but you lied bout that too didnt you? you did care, am i right?
Kat:....maybe...
Amber:KAT!
Kat:fine...yes i did lie......i wasnt ok withit at all.......
Amber:then why did you lie?
Kat:Amber can i ask you something? if dustin asked you the same thing would you leave him?
Amber:....no.....
Kat: why?
Amber:.....becuase i love him.....
Kat: that was my reasoning...now do you see why?
Amber:i still would have told him how i felt about it!
Kat:...well i didnt trust him with how i felt.....
Amber: you dont trust anyone with how you feel!
kat: we're gonna have to finish this later....see ya people...peace
Amber:see ya peeps

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Saturday, October 22, 2005

   aaaaaaaaaaaah AMBERS OVER!
Kat:hey peoples my good friend Amber is over and we both are gonna talk!
Amber:hey peeps waz up!
Kat:*looks at Amber like she nuts*
Amber:*hugs Kat* i love you Kat!
Kat:*pats Amber on the head*i...love...you too???
Amber:aaaaaaaaww come on say it like you mean it!
Kat:*shakes head* nu uh no way!
Amber:*hops up and down on Kats lap* say it like you mean it!
Kat:ow! ow! ow ow! ok ok! i love you!*shoves Amber off* my poor legs...
Amber:like dude i am so high!
Kat: i wonder what cricket would say to that.....
Amber:*heads bangs to enter the sandman*
Kat:*headbangs with her*
Amber:ok now that we have that out of our system!
Kat: i think we might be driving them nuts....*looks at Amber*
Amber: WHOS NUTS?
Kat:DEEZ NUTZ!
Amber:LMAO
Kat:^_^ im evil
Amber:HEY your not the only one!
Kat: i know! i know!
Amber:i can just see us when we're 23
Kat:O_O i would probly be arrested for to much profanity and drinking and driving.....
Amber:i'd probly be one of those psycho killers you see on the news.*grabs a machette*
Kat:oooo shiny! i want one!
Amber:you know if i became president i would make everything legal except murder.
Kat:that way people can smoke reef and noone can say nothin damnitt!
Amber:yeah and--
Kat:*covers ambers mouth* not in front the kids!
Amber:*removes kats hand* soooorrry!
KAt:>> you are such a horndog.....
Amber:*does hand motions* good girls sit like this bad girls sit like that girls who sit like this get "it" like that!
Kat:ROFLAO!
Amber: hey Kat what is it you said to Damian?? you know when you thought that that he kissed that one girl...
kat: i said "remember my name, remeber my face, cause no other bitch is taking my place!"
Amber:lol
kat:well i think thats enough for now! *waves* peace
amber:bye peeps
*Kat&Amber leave headbanging to slipknot*

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Wednesday, October 19, 2005

   uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuugggggggggg i don wanna!
ok this suck ass big time....my best friend Amber is having a party reeeeeaaal son and since i told her so much about one of my old friends that she wants me to brig her along with me to the party.....well theres a problem in that....me and my old friend are no longer speaking....she said that she wants to at least meet one of my old friends and well....when i found out i was moving...i kinda made all of them hate it was a slow process but it wored and the reason i did it is because when i moved i knew they wouldnt miss me becuase they would hate me so i made them hate me.......and well how do i explian that to Amber.....it doesnt seem the fates are on my side...well i guess ill try and bring my old friend along...but its not gonna be easy........Well i got to go to work.
cya
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