Tuesday, January 22, 2008

....
It seems that I posted yesterday without actually doing it, maybe it was a glitch of some sort. I don't really know.
Still, I apologise for those that came once again and commented. Also, want to thank you all for your incredible and supportive words, it truly touched me and made that day more bearable.
The only good news I have to tell you is my PS3 is fixed. It was something about a file that got corrupted or deleted from the hard-drive so after some imagination we fixed it and its working nicely again. If we mailed it to Sony it would take around 30 to 50 days to get it fixed. We wouldn't pay a thing but still waiting that long its not that appealing.
We did, however lost everything that was stored in there, like saves from games, demos and such (I was so close to finish Assassins Creed), so yeah no fun.

What about life itself?
Well. Its been rough times and I'm afraid it will stay that way for awhile, for how long I do not know but not for long, I hope. I'm still positive about a better tomorrow even though things keeps pushing me down.
About what's actually happening, I rather not talk about it yet, when things get straight again and I can take a relief breath, I'll let you know. So I ask you to bear with me for awhile, heh.

And as for Shanny, you know that no matter how hard my life can get, how mean it can become, there's always space and attention for you, doll.
ALWAYS. So do not hesitated to call me.
2008 is owning us big time, especially for you so he better behave from now on or else.Well. Lets just say he'll be in big trouble.

Same offer goes for you guys.

So let us all wait for better tomorrows together, okay?
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Saturday, January 12, 2008

   Is just one of those days
The day started pretty awful and it kept getting worse and worse.
And on top of it all my PlayStation 3 died on me.

Heh, is just one of those days that you wish you have never woken up to...
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Sunday, January 6, 2008

   [insert wickiest title here]
The past few days I've been watching this show called Densha Otoko, it talks about a group of people that ends up meeting' in the net and become friends.
I've never heard of such show before, until recently.
It was one of the christmas gift I received through mail from a close friend so I appreciate a whole lot more. It's truly a delicious and funny show so you should definitely give it a try whenever you can.
But that's beside the point I've mentioned it.

Just like in the show, we've all made friends through the internet whether it was here or anywhere else, I certainly did. I've been a member for this place for hmmm....5 years or so? Yes, it's been a long time now, I've met many people, some came and went away and some we've become more and more close each passing year.
Some of this close friends have helped through many hard times, we shared tears and laughs, we celebrated New Years together cheering every time someone got into the new year, we even woke up early in the morning to do it (heh guilty in charge *laughs*) and most important of all, they helped mold my personality. (I could rant about it for a good while but it's not what I pretend with this so I'll skip it)
Its only fair to say that my life wouldn't be the same without them, believe it or not, they are part of my life now, so life without them would be pretty boring, and, well, shallow too.
While watching that show, how all of the characters were getting so close to each other each passing episode even being miles and miles away made me realized a few things, some good and some bad.

The Good
The good part is how lucky I feel for destiny was nice enough to make our paths cross and I got the chance to meet such fabulous people. Words cannot express how happy I feel whenever they come to mind. Its a warm feeling to know that wherever life take me I have friends all spread throughout the world. Its so overwhelming!

The Bad

The bad part is because we've been friends for so long, I took them for granted, sometimes I even over-used their friendship or test their patient, and what hurts more its I only realized that after watching this show.
I know, it may sound like I'm ungrateful friend and maybe I am sometimes but it only makes those people even more special to me because they never ran away or lost faith in me, they are still around and I have always acknowledge that.

Heh you know, this reminds of something too and most of you will agree with me on this, perhaps too much, hehe...
I have this motto that I always try to follow, its basically like this “Whenever possible you should tell others what you feel about them, how grateful you feel to have them around and how essential they are to your life. Tell them today don't wait for tomorrow because you might not get a chance to say it by then and they would never end knowing how you feel”.

So yeah, I skipped some those in the past year with some of you but that's also why I started that little tradition two years ago around this time where I “boost” your ego with sweet descriptions of you. AND there is also why I “annoy” you by telling you how I've missed you or how much I care for you and its also why every time something happens to you my “worryness” mode works like crazy and sometimes I overdo it.

And the point to this post is.....?

Well the point of this post is, I want you to know that each and every single of you are precious to me. All the moments we've shared, every time we've spent together, I am grateful for.
And it may not count much but I apologize. I apologize for each time I overdue it or took your friendship for granted or perhaps were mean to you in someway.


A new year has started and it couldn't have started in a better foot when all of you were there and celebrated it with me. Its also a new year to start over again so I'll do my best to change a little, be more patient, slow my “worryness” mode more and well just appreciate better the time I spend with you. Be assured though that I'll always be here for you whenever you need. So don't be too shy to ask okay? =3

Sooo....here's hoping for another fantastic year in your company! And lets hope I make it and truly show you how much I appreciate your friendship in person soon.
[winks & laughs]

Love you all,
Shadow

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Wednesday, January 2, 2008

   Dear friends,
I hope 2008 is a better year,for all of you, than 2007 was. I really do.

Love,
Shadow
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Monday, December 24, 2007

   It's Christmas!
So it seems to me that its been awhile since I last came here. Thought I should finally drop some lines over here 'cause you know, its Christmas Eve and all and I still can't believe we're already celebrating Christmas! Time surely runs by fast lately...

But before going on about the holidays, I should, at least tell you a lil' bit about whats going on with life lately.
So how have been Shadow's life?
Well, it certainly has been eventful, hectic and emotional. Well school related, it has been more or so like:
Trying to finish shooting the animation before the time runs out, exams, projects, essay's, hosting the School's Volley Competition and Christmas Party (which I like to think that I did alright on both), while I was helping at home with remodelling the living room, booooooy that was hard! So yeah James everything is completely different from when you here. It looks much better now. =D

You can be sure that I was desperate for the Winter Break and since I'm already enjoying it, all I've been doing lately is cleaning the house like crazy (because of the remodelling we had this tiny white dust that spread throughout the house furniture. It was a nightmare to get rid of it!) and until now I was cooking like mad for tonight.
Boy I'm tired, but I still have some time to play Baldur's Gate - Dark Alliance II along with the brother every night 'till very late or more like early morning? Hahaha...yeah and I'll be doing that in a few seconds again. Its a fun game.
Oh speaking of games! Due to school I was unable to mail the gifts sooner so they'll arrive late. I'm sorry about that everyone.
Well time to leave and wish you all a Merry Christmas!

Hope you have a great time!

Ps: Aaaaand it just arrived one gift! And I loved it very much! Thank you, James! =3

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Sunday, November 4, 2007

Answers for your questions
Boy I never thought I would have so many questions to answer but it was fun! Thanks everyone for doing it.

Have you ever REALLY liked someone that you really shouldn't have? (Eg. cousins)
Ah that is one naughty yet fun question, MLKK! Hehehe...
The answer is, yes I have. I mean it wasn’t love or anything, it was more like a crush and it was so long ago. Ah you know, I was a child and he was three times older than me, he was cute and sweet with me and yadda yadda yadda. =P
Things changed, like the crush is long gone and now he’s married and has a son, I’m happy for him. =)

And who is or describe your ideal other half :)
Not so long ago Mimminx asked us something similar to this but I was a bit vague, I think so I’ll see if I can describe it better this time.
So my ideal other half has to be someone kind, sweet, with a dark and silly sense of humour, I love to laugh and I’m easily amused so its a big plus for him if he can accomplish that.
Someone emotionally strong, someone I can feel comfortable but most of all safe, because even though most of the times I’m emotionally stable, there are times when I break down and its comforting to know that I have someone I can run too, lay my head on and tell me that things will be alright.
Hmm a patience man, since I’m a weird person heeeeh. Yeah lots and lots of patience....>_>
Physically well we all want someone cute, right? =P So I don’t mind with that, hehe....Oh nice eyes too. Its first physical trait I look to and like anyway.
Because eyes are the mirror of the soul. ^_~
Like I said in my comment to mimminx, I love to spoil and be spoiled so if he likes that too even better!
I know there's so few of those but they exist.

Do you snore?
Well I actually didn’t know if I snore or not so since I sleep in the same bedroom as my sister I asked her that and she says, no I don’t. Although I do tend to speak loud while I sleep. See what I meant with being weird?

Do you have pets? If so how many and what animal?
I do. Aside from Pocky (the kitty I showed you the other day), I have another cat – Apollo, two dogs (Pardo and Bobby) and one gold fish (Romeo I think). Yeah, lots of animals. I’m a pet-person what I can do, heh.

Do you sleep on you side,back or stomache?
On my stomache with half my face covered. weird, I know. I just can’t sleep any other way.


I guess it'd only be fair for me to ask you what your favourite dirty joke is, so I'll do that. What's your favourite dirty joke?

Ah I love dirty jokes, especially the one you wrote in one of your posts the other day.
Click here, its the one about a man and his [cute fluffy bunny], hehehe
That one always makes me laugh. X3
You have to tell me more since your so good with those.

What's one embarrassing moment you've had involving the opposite sex?
Ooooh boy....do I have too?
Let’s see....
I was around 14 or 15 years old and I was so happy about something I can’t exactly remember why but I was walking and moving my arms up and down, up and down and suddenly this guy ran in front of me while my hand was going up and. Yeah. My hand hit his lower back ermm bozoom? When I realize what happened I immediately apologized while all the friends I was with was laughing pretty hard in the back. Embarrassing!

What the top three places you would travel to if you didn't have to worry about cost?
Ah this one’s easy!
1- Canada to visit friends and family. Spend a good amount of time there.
2- Japan!!Tokyo!
3- USA. To visit you and all my other friends too.
That would be so cool if I could do that. Ah well, a girl can dream.

What are you favourite games?
Oh dear, that’s a very very veeery long list but I’ll make it by just saying the top 5
1- Metal Gear Series
2- Resident Evil Series
3- Silent Hill series
4- Gran Turismo
5- TIMESHIFT! Such an awesome game!

What is your favourite movie of all time and why?
Gladiator! I can’t get enough of that movie no matter how many times I watch it. Although the movie 300 have conquered my attention as well.hmmm....
I guess I like watching movies that talk about ancient cultures with tough guys that have a soft heart beneath all those muscles.

If you had your own island (other than the one you're on right now :p) what would you call it and what would your house look like?

Gosh wouldn’t that be nice?! Hmm could I call people too to join me? ‘Cause living alone sucks and I’m not used to it, heh. (Comes from a very large family)

It would have to be a tropical island with white sand and a blue sea, ahhh that would be fantastic. I would call it Mithos, because it would definitely be a myth and I like how spell it, Mee-thos. Fun.
The house can be simple and minimalist, like it could be made of Palm tree with big windows to enjoy the view. //daydreams//

Now can I invite you to join me in Mithos? ;P

What kind of animal would you like to be?
Animal or insect?
Hmm well the animal I would love to be is a black panther, they are powerful, has a kind of mythicism and they’re just plain awesome. If I was in insect I would love to be a Butterfly. They’re magical, beautiful and they’re completely free even if they live for such a short amount of time.


How would you spend a date with a guy?

I’m a romantic girl and every romantic girl has a very romantic date that they would love to put on practise. Mine is take a walk around the beach, and after watch the sun go down with the boy. Perfect.

What do you like to do for fun out of the house?
I’m pretty sure I’m going to disappoint you on this, schultz but I’m that type of girl that likes to be at home, although I do enjoy to go out, watch a movie, go to a nice place have some dinner with friends and socialize a little. I wish I could do it more often though but I’m unable too since I’m busy with school and stuff and so are my friends.

Any plans for the future?
Well I’m not sure if I said this here but planning doesn’t work for me. I have this kind of bad luck every time I plan something ahead it never works out. Aside from knowing what I’ll be doing when I finish college and the trip I’m working hard to happen next summer, I have no other major plans. I just go with the flow, I guess.

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Tuesday, October 30, 2007

A rant
People can be so cold and cruel.Well most people, anyway.
They can hide it very well, they pretend to be nice and sweet and when you least expect, they unleash that side of theirs and you’re caught off guard most times.
I despise them pure and simple. I really do. Because they can never tell you directly what they want, they hide their intents in sarcasm, irony or just a bunch of words that to most are harmless but to you they're hurtful and plain cruel.
Sadly, I’ve always been surrounded by one or two of these kind of people and I always fell victim to them. Actually, it was also good in a way since I’ve learn with time to don’t mind or care of whatever came out of their mouths. To me it was just garbage and garbage cannot reach me. I wouldn’t let it. Not anymore.
Still, I don’t know how but these people know how to trigger my ire and can hurt me pretty badly when instead of talking or being cruel about me, they turn to the ones I love.
I know that its still the same garbage talk and I shouldn’t mind with that, but I just can’t. Not when people I cherish the most are involved.
So I tend to loose control. I have the urge to protect them, they’re not there to protect themselves and even if they were, I would still protect them at all cost.

I’m so furious! Furious and sad. Furious that someone can actually feel pleasure by doing that and deeply sad that that person used someone I care and love so truly to only get their message through on how they think I should do or have in my life. ITS MY LIFE! I never asked their opinion on anything!Especially when I only know them for a few months.


I can't help but wonder, how can someone take pleasure hurting another with cruel words? Why do it if you know that person will most likely feel hurt and sad?
I don’t get it, I really don’t. Nor do I intend to understand it, either.
I just know that if this happens again, I probably won't answer for myself.

Its sad and revolting. Truly.

I know I have your questions to answer, I could do it now since I have the time, it just wouldn't be right to do in the state of mind I'm in right now so I will do it next time. I promise.

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Tuesday, October 23, 2007

   [Insert something smart here]
Since I can’t come up with a good subject to write about nor life has been interesting enough to talk about.
I'll be unoriginal and do what most everyone have done by now already:

Ask me anything you want and I'll answer it next time.

C'mon people give me something worth posting. =P


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Monday, October 8, 2007

   To that adorable Country called Canada
And to all the lovable people that lives there,

I wish you...

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!

With love,
Your Silly Azorian Girl who loves you truly :3
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Sunday, October 7, 2007

   We have a new guest at home


Say hello to my new pal that has many, many names and one of them is Pocky (my favourite) hehehe...
His been with us for two weeks now, I picked him up from the Shelter. His only two months old and such a nice boy. =3
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