Saturday, May 14, 2005

If you were...

If you were a chicken and you knew in a few minutes it was going to be dropped a nuclear bomb, what you will do? [I promise i will answer and explain this tomorrow ^.~, but for now let me know what you guys think okie?]
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Thursday, May 12, 2005

Mood: If they don't turn that music off, i swear i'm gonna hurt someone today! I swear by the drunken monkey!*pulls katana*

We are having little festivities, really near my house, so usually they put music real loud in some speakers, and i woke up hearing that horrible music, its portuguese music, i like portuguese music, but they have such a bad taste that they put the worst music we have, and its been playing since this morning!I'm going crazy here!!!>.<
I've been cleaning like a mad person because of this, which isn't that bad at all XP, but really c'mon its really getting on my nerves now T.T
Not even put my music in maxim volume i swear i still hear that music!!O.o
*shakes head* Anyway i should head to my cleaning thing and maybe do some jogging on the beach after, so i'm just updating, not really interesting happened ^^''
So okie friends take care...
Shadowlight out...
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Wednesday, May 11, 2005

Mood: Calm and relax, you can try to piss me of but you will not sucessed!*random person stole one of her choco* Hey you...give me back my chocolates!!*chases the person mad* lol

I was hoping by sharing that e-mail here, i could find the person or friend who sent it to me, no luck i guess, no one raised his/her hand, uhmmmm...so you now are all suspects!!*points to all of you* XD
I'm a very curious person so i can't help it, XP, okie, okie i'll do a little sacrifice and stop with my investigation for now...*lol* heheh X3

I feel more relax and calm after my walk on the beach, yesterday and today, those last days the weather is beautiful, warm, bright, blue sky, a fresh brise, really cold water ^,^', it was so good. Its incredible how many people can show up there when its a good day, the beach were full of couples, believe me all the couples here came to the beach O.o, if you turned to your right, couples, to your left, couples, to your back, couples, couples in the grass, in the sand, in the water, everywhere, it was like a plague O.o *lol* i can say that i was the only one who were alone there heh ^,^, unfortenaly it begun to rain today, so i had to run back home ^^''

*scrolls up* Heh, what a random post today, really interesting topic couples XP *lol* XD, well time to go now...
Oyasumi nasai, everyone!^_^

Shadowlight out...
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Tuesday, May 10, 2005

Mood: Great (you're gonna know why^.~)

I woke up today with sun in my eyes, i forgot to close the window, but it sure was a nice way to woke up ^____^

As usual i was taking my breakfast and was checking my e-mail, and i recieve a message, which i didn't recognise from my contacts, but in the subject was saying MyOtaku, so i open it, and was something like this:

Shadowlight,

I just want to say this, you are one of the wonderfull, sweetest and nicest person i ever saw in my live, please don't ever change, because its really rare to find in this world someone like you, so stay that way forever, ok?
Ps: Sometimes i wonder if you are really a person...

It was the sweetest thing i ever read in a e-mail, it made me blush hard ^//^, i was going to reply but it keeps saying the e-mail was shut down or it doesn't exist at all, and i supose its a member from MyO. i'll reply here, who ever wrotte this, thank you truly, it was really nice of you to wrote that for me, and i DO EXIST, i'm no program or something like that, maybe you should check my my friends list, all of them are even more wonderful, nice and sweet then me, believe me! You should check all of them out ^.~
I wonder though who you are, but it looks you want to remain annonymous so i respect that, but once again thank you!
Oh btw, i DO have my bad side, such as, i'm lazy, i think to much, and...O.o heh i better shut up or you changed your mind about me u.u *lol* XD

Anyway the weather is great, its warm and bright, so i'm gonna take a walk on the beach, which is 15 min away my home, so anyone want to come along?^.~ *lol*

Shadowlight out...
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Monday, May 9, 2005

Mood: Happy but really tired ^,^''

I thought yesterday was SG's b-day, but i was wrong, i was 3 months earlier actually ^//^;;
We in portugal use the day/month/year way, not the month/day/year way so i got confused! Gomen nasai ^,^'

Yesterday i couldn't sleep till 04 a.m in the morning, i kept thinking and thinking, so now i feel the consequences, i'm feeling pretty tired, meh X.x
The test was not that bad though, oh and i got my biology test today, woot i'm so glad i had a really good grade, so yay fer me!!^.^
Another thing that made me more happy was Shanny-san finally is feeling better, and i think her life is slowly geting to normal, still i'm afraid some lill'bastards keep harassing her though, have a good rest hun, you diserve it*hugs*

All good news today, ne?Unfortenaly i'm not that lucky, my mother called me now and she said her work gonna change place, its really far from where we live, now she have to wake up more early and prepared because a bus will take her to work...she seemed disappointed when i talked to her, it doesn't surprised me since she was so glad that finally they have there a good boss, uhmmm unfortenaly he end up showing who he really was...

Anyway take care everyone, i hope all of you had a good mother's day*hugs*

Shadowlight out...

PS: I'm really getting tired of this theme, so if i have some spare time today, i'm gonna change it, still don't really know what theme i'll put up, so if you see the page kinda funny or strange, now you know why =)

Edit: Its done!Took awhile (3 hours exactly) but i finished, i think it looks diferent, and it suits my nick name, but i want to know what you think? ^.~
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Sunday, May 8, 2005

Happy Mother's Day!!

I hope all the mother's from MyOtaku and the world have a wonderfull mother's day!!*hands pink roses to every friend's mother* ^_^
Oh!Here is the poem i gave to my mother last sunday, since mother's day here was in May 1st.

Mother....
Deep down inside you
I know i betraid you, mother

Everything, because i'm no longer
the sleeping girl
on your eyes

Everything, because you ignore
that has beds where the cold do not longer,
and nights with morning waters.

For that, sometimes, the words i say to you,
are hard, mother,
and our love is unhappy.

Everything because i lost the white roses,
that i hugged so hard against my heart,
on the picture frame

If you knew how i still love those white roses
maybe you don't filled your heart with hours of nightmares.

But your forgot mother lots of things:
you forgot that my feathers grown,
and all my being grown up
even my heart is bigger, mother!

Look, want to hear me?
Sometimes i'm still that little girl,
who sleep in your eyes,

I still hugg against my heart,
those same white roses,
from the picture frame

I still hear your voice:
"Once upon a time, there was a girl in the middle on the orange trees...

But, you know - the night is big,
and all my heart grown.
So i got out of the frame
and let the birds drink from my eyes.

I haven't forgoten nothing, mother
I still keep your voice inside me.
And i leave the roses to you...

Goodnight, mother. I'm going with the birds now...

Its kinda sad but oh so beautiful its from my favorite portuguese poet, Sophya Mello Breyner, so i dedicate this poem to all mother's and sons out there... ^-^


Today, i'm all alone at house, everyone went out to have some fun, but since i have my psicology test tomorrow, i had to stay at home, dang i really wanna to go with them ;_____;

Uhmmm, well since i can't be much time online today, and i already visit most of you who update today, this post gonna be short.
Today is SomeGuy's birthday, so i wanna give him a present, heh wish though i could give him a real gift though...so i drew a little something for him...



HAPPY BIRTHDAY SOME GUY!I hope you have a very good one!*hugs* ^_^


Well i need to go now, take care everyone and have a wonderful sunday!!^_^

Shadowlight out...
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Saturday, May 7, 2005

Mood: Good ^^

[Arigau for every friend who want to help me*bows and gives to everyone choco cookies* Yumm X3]

My mood is pretty good today yesterday (after cleaning everything) and some part of today i've been watching the episodes from Naruto, and let me tell you i cried, laugh, cried, laugh, then i was so surprised when i saw Gaara fighting really! O.O The guy is amazing! Oops! O.o I'm afraid i spoiled to those of you who never watched! Oh sumimasen! =.=''
Anyway i stoped on the episode when Gaara fight, i think its the 34...man i can't wait to see the nexts ones X3, but i had to stop my anime journey since my sister want to play The Sims 2: University, >:<, i mean i like the game but i was so concentrate and enjoying the serie that ah wel... it was good anyway i went to my room and start drawing until now, now my hand hurts so much because of it ;_______;
But i did pretty good drawings, i was like possessed or something, i couldn't stop drawing O.o+++, i even coloured them and let me tell you they are pretty good because i suck on the part of colouring u.u'
Oh!I almost forgot!!O.O I have my test of psicology this monday, and i forgot to study >__>, oh i have to study something ».« * big sigh*
Heh oh yeah tomorrow's Someone's birthday, maybe some....guy? heheh XP i haven't forgot about it, just wait tomorrow and you guys will see ^_~
Anyway time for me to go visit you're sites..



Oyasumi nasai minna-san!! (i sure hope i'm spelling this right ^^'')
Shadowlight out..
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Friday, May 6, 2005

Mood: ^-^ Music:

If i was granted just two wishes, the first one was everyone in the world who had a disease would be healthy again, and the next one was to visit each and every one of you, to give you a big hug for allways been here to support me, that was the wishes i would wished, if i could.
Finally the enviroment in my house is slowly getting to normal, the enviroment a few days ago was horrible, and that was making my mood so down, but with some help of friends on msn, with random convos which were so funny (got to love randomness, you were so right Sephy ^.~, thanx so much for the best randomness convo ever!*hugs*), and with your support here, i finally had some courage to lift my head again, and smille and say to myself things will get better, you guys were right, i tried not worry anyone here, but they were worried, they never seem me this sad, so i might made things get worse at home, without even knowing i was (or wanting to), so things are more bright at home, which is making me feel better and everyone is smilling, i'm sure my brother will recover, we just have to help and wait to see...
I'm also glad that panda is having a great time with her mother, i'm sure both of them will be ok, (you are still in my and my family prayers and thoughts panda*hugs*)
Thinking to much about it only makes you feel worse or more responsable, so you just have to keep looking forward and have a little faith, and of course the best friends who are allways there when we need them, like all of you! I love you all, so much that words can not describe well.. (its because of you guys that i keep coming back here, you guys rocks my socks!!*big group hug*)
Heh, i even got a DvD full of Naruto episodes from on of my young friends =^^=, can't wait to watch the episodes, heheh ^^
Well i'll have to go now, i still have plenty to clean at home *sigh*, someone wanna give me a hand? I'll make a good snack after, (choco cookies included! made by moi!) promise!^.~
Heh well after i clean everything i'll visit everyone who update, okie?
Oyasumi nasai! (take care)



Shadowlight out...


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Tuesday, May 3, 2005

Mood: Do i need to say?... ._.

First i want to apologise for not posting yesterday what i had promise, i promise i would do and i didn't...i'm so sorry for that, really am...

It just i spend yesterday all day wandering around the house, doing nothing, just thinking and crying, because we had more news from the doctor of my older bother Simão and its not that good, i just feel sad and..and lonely, i know i'm not lonely, i have friends and family, but the feeling won't get away, and feel responsible for my brother being so sick, and i can't talk about what i'm feeling with my family because i don't wanna worry them, it just i don't have anyone to talk except here, and all this feelings are....consuming me....
That's why i didn't post yesterday, it would be such awfull and to painfull for you to read it...
I was going to do today as well, but i can't be away from here to many time 'cause i miss myotaku really much, its kinda a obscession a good one think*little smille*
Anyway i went to panda site and it make remember i'm not the only one who have problems, so many people have worst then mine, saddly panda have, wish she doesn't though*sigh*, please she really need to be confort and you know a bit of love don't hurt anyone, so please make her a visit and pray for her, she really needs...
Panda all my family is praying for you and your mother!All our thoughts go to both of you!Just keep strong*hugs*
I really hope all of you are okie...and don't forget that i love you guys*hugs crying*



Shadow..

[PS:Anyho if your still interested you can see everything
here on this site, is in english and i really advise you to read, its really beautifull....]

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Sunday, May 1, 2005

Mood: Sightly better...

Going out yesterday didn't make me feel better at all, usually it helps, but this time didn't, when i got home, the first thing i did was take a shower and cry there, its not the best place, but its the only place i can't be bother and don't worry anyone at my house...
I thanx everyone who tried to cheer me up, i really do, but i think this mood gonna stay for awhile, you see what make my mood go down so fast was not only the death of one of my favorite kitties, i took care of her since she was a little baby, she was weak and really small, so her mother put her beside to die, i was the only one who could cuddle, feed, carrie her around, i was allways there for her when she need me, a few weeks ago, someone shoot her with those pressure guns, so she lost an eye, but i still love her like usual, i took her to the Vet and she was really well a couple days ago, i called her saturday in the morning like every day to give her food, and she didn't came, i thought she went to take her long walks like usual, but yesterday i found her lying on a pill of woods dead, and that really make me feel sad, cause i wasn't there in her last moment you know? She died all alone...
I know some you will think i'm silly and such, but i'm animal lover, i love my pets really much, and everytime one of them die, its like a tiny bit of my heart dies with them... that whats happens when you love to much animals...you really become really attached to them...*big sigh*
And after my mom told me my older brother is really sick, his heart is getting weak because he have to much fat around his heart, he's handy cap, so the thing he loves more in the world is food, especially meat and bread (sp?), so my mom was crying all the time, and i felt so bad...i think all of us feel responsible for him to be that sick, you know, but we can't be 24 hours a day watching what he's doing... so that's why my mood is so down and miserable...but now is slightly better after i cried yesterday, so don't worry with me, i'm strong and i'll be fine... *little smille*
I said i would writte a post explaning the festivities were having here, but still i'm not in the mood for that, i'm really sorry, i promise i'll writte tomorrow, okie?
Gomen nasai also for posting all this here, but i need to rant a little...i'll try and visit everyone who updated today, i'm sorry but i'm not going to visit the new ones that signed my gb...sorry for that...



Shadow...
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