Saturday, April 30, 2005

Mood: So and so...i think...

Well this will be quick since i will leave home in a few minutes, our biggest Christian (and non Christian)holliday's begun last Thursday, but officially begun today, its quite beautifull, i could writte a post talking about it with a few pictures, if you want it...
I was going to write today, but mew my mood is geting horrible, one of my kitties died...and some other stuff happened..so i'm not in the mood to do it now..so let me know if you want to see, okie?
Well i just visited Shizuka and i think i make her feel even worse, she was feeling down those days...
So i'm sorry if i make you feel worse shizuka, i hope you feel better soon dear*hugs tight*

I was going to send this greeting to you, but i don't know your e-mail, so i'll send through here..*little smille*
Well i'm off i think, have to go with my family, i really don't want to go...mew...maybe its better...
Take care everyone...
Shadow


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Friday, April 29, 2005

Mood: Wonderful, couldn't feel better then this ^. ^

I feel so loved, really! I never like much birthdays, (well maybe in child because I got presents, just like Christmas XP) but you made me love this day, I want another birthday! Really! I wanna another one!! XD
Thank you so much for the sweet comments, the p.ms, the greetings, the posts! Thank you so much for loving me that much! Words can not describe the way I’m feeling now! You’re my strength, my support and best of all, my best friends which I love and feel so proud to have you all as my friends!!Love ya, love ya all!!!*hugs warmly each of you*
So wanna know how was my day yesterday?I still gonna tell even if you don't want to know XP
[Warning: Heh i don't know if this will be long, 'cause i'm doing right now at 12:59 a.m no make it 13:00 p.m i just woke up and went straight here heh XP, , still you can't kill me because i have someone who defend me, ain't that right SG? ^.~ *lol* j/k i know you guys will never killed me, so i'm sorry if it gets to long]

So well after finishing my post and commenting on friends sites, one of my friends came by to early, i was not even dressed at all O.o, i was still in my baby blue pyzamas with little cute bears figures, heh that was embaressing, cause she laugh when i opened the door >__>;;; and you'll probably laugh now that i said it,O.o++ dang >.< *lol*
So yeah when she was still giggling and laughing about it, i was dressing myself, then my brother took us to place it was suppose all of us to meet, but well some of them couldn't make it, others couldn't be found and others came to late (like 2 or 3 hours later lol), and just me and Cristina had to wait for, it was raining real hard (like it allways rains in my b-day i think the weather doesn't like me much =.=), so to kill time we went to a Music Festival were you can find lots of old and new CD's, it was long and for a festival the CD's was still expensive!».«
I tried to find Elvis CD for my father since he love his musics, but couldn't find it, how could a festival with all the old and new musics from all over the world don't have the famous Elvis???O.o++ they never had the CD's there!Its plain false publicity i tell ya!
Anyway when my friend came we went to our favorite restaurant Sentado em pé (it means sit in foot i think)i know, i know the name its pretty wierd, but its because the chairs are dressed with pants of Jeans and give the sensation that we are in foot what in the truth we are seated, heh anyway the food is great, the environment is great, and seems that we are in Hawai and everything, therefore has the huts (sp?), the tables are all made of bambú, its really great and confy ^^, oh and if you are old enough they offer you champagne if its your birthday..cool huh?
So after we finished the deserts and champaigne, they turn the lights down and one of my craziest friend (who got up of the tavle saying she was going to the bathroom)showed up with a slice of a desert with a candle on it, singing the happy birthday music, the restaurant was crowded, then everyone turned their head to see what was happening and sang along with her, i was so embaressed!!!*blushes* Really!Then people start to get up and wishing me happy b-day, i kissed a thousands of strange people yesterday!The people even said goodbye to me when left the restaurant a few hours later!My God!It was crazy..and i must admit very amusing also!! ^_^
I think my friends just wanna make me remember this b-day forever!And they sure did a good job, like you guys as well! I'm the most luckiest girl in the world i think!*big smille with happy tears in the eyes*
Well time for me to go now, hope evil-chan had a good day, and demon's boy (although i don't know him/her) as well ^-^


Thank you for making my b-day so wonderful everyone*big bear hug*
Shadowlight out...
PS:Long live the long post!! *cheers* heheh XD (i just had to say that XP)
I'm sorry if i sound silly today, but don't blame me, blame my lack of sleep ^^''


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Thursday, April 28, 2005

So yeah...its silly me b-day!!*lol*

So let it be known shadowlight’s its official 2 decades older!! So let the big MyOtaku party begin!!!*no ones shows up*
Also I forgot to mention there’s gonna be free food, anime males and anime girls, movies, music everything!!*suddenly everyone showed up*
I had to say the magic words, free food, anime males & girls, movies and music for everyone show up! Tsssk *shakes head*
lol
So yeah its official i'm one year older..and i do feel old...XP
Now i'm part of the old people from Otaku!XD
Today a friend called me at 07:00 a.m in the morning just to ask me what was the sensation of having 20 years old 0.o really i was still sleeping, i barely said hello, and she shout with that question...i was just: Huh?? 0.o+++
I really have wierds friends XD well maybe she was trying to be original i don't know...XD
My father woke me up today (my mother usually woke me up), i was surprised, (because he usually are not home at that hour), he woke me up with a kiss and said: "Raise and shine butterfly!" it was the sweetest way to wake up!!=^^= So when i get up, he said: "You should know your 20 years older now, your adult, you have to wake up on your own now!"..heh..yeah...^^'' so then we heard someone giggling behind the door, it was my mother!So we laughed so much, it was really a amusing morning today ^^
I got my first present today its from sephy, and i love it!!=^^=
Thank you so much hun!*hugs*
Well...i better be going now..have to prepared myself to my birthday dinner with my friends, have to put me pretty heheh ^^
But first i wanna wish a big...

to Evil-chan, hope you have a great one too girl!*big hug*
So go and give her a big happy b-day too okie?^.~
Oooh one more thing, i have a surprise for you, (i know that it shouldn't be me who do the surprises today), but i couldn't help it..^^

I don't usually do this but i drew myself yesterday, its not the best since i was so sleepy and such but i thought i would share, and its a way to say thank you for being allways here for me*hugs*
I love you all!
Shadowlight...


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Wednesday, April 27, 2005

New theme, new mood i guess ^. ^

Ohayo!
“Time heals everything”, maybe the person who said that was right, and from my experience time really helps to heal, in my case not to forget a love, since I didn’t love him anymore, but he was someone I trust and all the things he made me believe were a lie…and that what hurts more….but time heals and I’m less melancholic then two days ago…nothing like good friends like you all, my friends here and my last day with 19 years old to help out a bit, oh yeah and your comments (yeah blackwings-san men’s are weird XD…but not all of them…I hope XP), some of the comments surprised me (in a good way^^) also helped me a lot (Arigatu*bows*). Also they made me think (which some of you know really well that I can never stop thinking, it just a bad habit I have lol XP), maybe I provoque all this mess, me being a helpless romantic since child maybe I wanted a bit of romance in my life, like the fairy tells (which girl never end up dreaming with a cute prince ne? (anime males are accepted!^.~), but my story ended a bit different then the originals ones, well everyone says I’m …okie, okie changing subject since this is being really boring for you to be reading all the time my rant and thoughts about this ~_~, so I’ll stop right now…^-^ heheh…
So yesterday I passed by (it was quick visit though), I was commenting onMatt’s site and finally got courage to do this quiz (I’ve seen this quiz before, don’t know why though I never did) and it make me laugh for a bit XD

Your love is... by ChibiMarronchan
Your name is...
Your kiss is...	erotic
Your hugs are...	to die for
Your eyes...	sparkle like the stars
Your touch is...	heart warming
Your smell is...	amazing
Your smile is...	amazing
Your love is...	one of a kind
Quiz created with MemeGen!

My hugs are to die for XD…so from now on…if you want a hug you have to pay…yeah pay!*nods* Nah I’ll give them for free*hugs everyone that pass by* Yeeeeeah they are free!!! ^_^
Oh! Yeah can I ask you a favour? Can you visit matt he feels kinda alone?…lol…well no, but he has a great story which I’m sure most of you know and love (like me ^^), (he was considering to delete his site and leave otaku for good, but I made him changed ideas *shows the glue and ropes (sp?)* yeah I glue him to his seat and then tide him to the pc…lol.) well his story is back with new chapters, new character’s and I’m there!! Oh! Yeah and to spice more your curiosity in the last chapter moi been rescued from a very BIG and Nasty monster by a very cool and yummi guy!! ahahah XP
So please can you guys make him a visit? I would appreciate it a lot!
Oh! One more thing I upload a new fan art when you have some time can you check it out also? Thanx so much in advance!!*hugs * ^-^
Take care everyone ^. ^



Shadowlight out...
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Monday, April 25, 2005

Mood: Don't really know how to describe it... ~_~''

Well...i finaly had the conversation with the boy i talked a few days ago (the boy who made the promise, remember?), so yeah i ask his friend his number and called him, we talk like an hour ago...so its really fresh in my head ~_~
He was surprised when i asked him if we could meet, so here is what we talked:
[This is gonna be a little long, so well i'm just warning you..]
Him: You really came!
Me: Yeah, why?
Him: Well...i thought it you were not going to show, you know...to make me suffer...i don't know...
Me: I'm not like that...you know that!
Him: Yeah...sorry...so why you called me?And why you wanna meet me here?
Me: You know why...(i never looked at him when i was talking, i don't know why i just couldn't!)
Him: I thought you don't want it to talk about that anymore..
Me: I changed my idea, i can do that right??
Him: yeah...ofcourse...
Me: Okie...lets take a walk...
(we begun walking we stayed silent for a long time, then i stopped)
Me: Okie...this is taking to long, lets just...lets just put this straight right now!Tell me why you acted like that 4 years ago?
Him: Oh please not that again!!
Me: Come on, i need to know why you act so stupid like that!!
Him: You really don't wanna know...
Me: Please i need to know, just tell me, i can handle...(finally i looked at him)
Him: *sigh* i know you will hate me for this...
Me: I.... won't...
Him:...i remember the promise...i remember everything...its just...you were so vulnerable in that day...you couldn't stop crying...i felt helpless...so that's why i made the promise...
Me:WHAT??......why....?
Him: I told you already, i promise that to make you feel better...i really care for you back then...you were my best friend!!In that two years i tried to find you...i just stoped and finally gave up...so then you showed up, you didn't changed a bit, well you grew up, but your face still is the same, the way you looked, the way you act its same way...i couldn't believe!It was really great to see you again!
But...
Me: But...
Him:.. then you asked me if i remembered the promise!
I lied to you, i mean i loved you but not the same way you loved me...i lied to my best friend...
Me:So why didn't you tell me, the truth???
Him: I don't know, maybe i just was afraid to make you cry again, i really don't know!
Me: Guess what?You made me cry even more acting the way you act, and saying all that things you said to me, you made me feel the worst person in the world!!!
Him: I'm sorry...i really am...the way i act was wrong really wrong...[he said more but i don't remember because i was trying not to cry]..that's why i wanted to talked to you in the other day...to explain for once everything...you were so cute back then and still are and yet to depend on me, the way i act was because i allways knew you loved me but i couldn't love you back, my love for you was and still are like brother and sister...
Me:I'm glad that finally you had courage to tell me this...but you are wrong about something...i'm not cute and i'm not depended of you anymore...
So yeah the promise was a lie after all...once again i didn't need to post this, but since i talked here about this i think you guys diserve to know the truth also, even though its a not a good one *big sigh*
Don't feel bad for me really i prefer to know the truth then living my whole life with a lie...it hurts i can't denie it, but give me a few days and i'll be fine again *little smille*
Well i don't know if i'll be around here this week, since i will have almost everyday tests, but i'll do my best to be around...
Believe me when i register here was the best thing i did and have now, it really supports me in a way i can not describe...
I love you all*hugs warmly everyone*



Shadowlight out...
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Saturday, April 23, 2005

Mood: Bored, sleepy and hungry...yeah i'm feeling great ^^''

Well things didn't run the way i wanted, my parents find out about the surprise dinner to soon, so soon that i didn't even begun cooking*sigh*, atleast the house and table was perfect...
We did had a good time, my brother Flávio helped me with the dinner, in fact he had the idea for the food ^^
We bought also a cake, which caused my mother to cry a little because i drew there a quote they both like...
Then after that, i follow shanny-san idea, (thanx shanny!*hugs) and me and my sibling went to see a movie, "Hitch" with argh...i forgot the name of the actor ~_~'', quite funny movie, had a good laughs, when we got home, my mother and father were in the sofa sleeping hugged to each other, yes everyone you can saw: AWWWWW...it was really a priceless moment... all the work and tiring was worth it, just for that ^***^
Well i should get back to my studies, cause next week have plenty of test to do *big sigh*


Shadowlight out..


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Friday, April 22, 2005

  

Mood: Soooo tired ~_~''

Well i've been cleaning the house all day long (09:00 until now 16:43 p.m), i didn't had school today ( school went on strike (sp?)), and today is my day off of work, (which i totally forgot^^'', just remembered when i got there), so i came home begun cleaning, and now i'm taking a break to eat and to come here ^-^
Well i'm just updating to let you know that i'm still alive XD, because i really don't have anything to say to you, life being pretty normal those days, quite boring actually ~_~'
So uhmmm yeah, i should get going and go visit you guyz, still have quite a few to visit...


Take care...
Shadowlight out..
Edit: Oh btw i'm doing all this because my parents do their 29 aniversary, they've been married 29 years!!That's a lot!!So yeah i wan t to have the house perfect, with a their favorite food for dinner!! ^.^
Aww i just have to find away to take all of my siblings and myself out of the house, to let my parents all alone, they need a bit of romance ne?*wink, wink*XP eheheh any ideas would be apreciate it ^.~
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Wednesday, April 20, 2005

Mood: A bit tired but fine ^_____^
[My cat had kitties...and they are soooooo cute, she had them yesterday and i asked my mother if they could be inside the house, in the laundry room, she let, and for some odd reason my cat took them to some other place and i can't find them to take a pic for you to see >.<]

Kon-ban!*waves*
Gomen for being away those 3 days, i've been here commenting in friend's sites, but yesterday was to lazy to writte, well i write now, oh!First, i wana thank you for wishing my father a happy b-day, i told him, his first reaction was: "My...thank you, but whose MyOtaku??O.o", you should see his face, poor dad XD
Anyway on saturday like i said told you in my previous post we went to his favorite restaurant he was so happy, we stayed there for quite sometime, laughing playing around, its quite a nice and confy place, the weather was beatifull, warm, bright, and with lots of birds singing, it really felt like Spring came (i love this season^^), so we went home, changed clothes and went to a beach which is 10 min away from our home (I am a lucky girl right?XP), it was really fun!Sunday we did the same thing went to the beach and just got home to eat and then on the afternoon, they put a big screen and we watch a movie (i think it was Finding nemo), with the sound of the waves in the background, it was so great!
Monday was a pretty boring day, so i don't have nothing to say, tuesday was more fun, after geting home played lots of hours with my brother on Gran Turismo(i lost count of the hours, and almost skip my aikido classes because of it!^^'), and yeah i'm still trying to beat him U.U', then went to aikido classe, because i'm not 100% better i did just 1 hour and half (We do 3 hours per day), and then i stoped, some time later Daniel (remember him?from our very first challengue i had a few weeks ago?), so yeah we talked, its was almost like we were hosting the class, talking about the moves, thecnics, so when i was preparing to go home, he called me and ask if i would like to see a movie or something (ok the last time a guy asked me to go see a movie was months ago)so i was so surprised,because i wasn't counting with that,i accept it, its just a friendly movie so problem....(so what did we learn here?if you are a girl and kick "that part" of the boy's body, they instantly ask you if you want to see a movie!!XD *rofl* j/k)
Well the only thing i have to say about today (and because this post its getting long) is that i made my reservation on the travel agency, i just hope *crosses fingers hard* that this time i'll go to Canadá in the summer, because i was going last year but they changed our final exams to the time i was going -_-, so i'm pretty excited! *lol*
Ok, that was a long random post XP, so i'll just go away before you guys kill me...


Shadowlight out...
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Saturday, April 16, 2005

Today gonna be a good day!


Nyhao!
Today is my father's birthday, so me and my brothers gonna make a big surprise to my father, we are gonna take him to his favorite restaurant and then...well i don't know what we are going to do next, but i'm sure it will be fun!^-^
Anyway i'm writting this real early (08:00 a.m early for me ^^'), my sister want to prepare a good breakfast for our dad, i think it was a cute gesture so i'm helping her out. Now that i had a spare time i came here to let you know, that i will be out all day, i did check some sites but not much, so i'm sorry if i didn't went to your's*bows*, but i'll promise that later on today i go if i can okie?*big smille*
Well got to go now, take care everyone, have a nice weekend!

Shadowlight out...
PS: Oh!I changed my theme what you think?and can i ask you a favor?Can you check my fanart i upload 4 new drawings, some the quality are not good, my scanner gone crazy or something*shadow look to the scanner with evil eyes*so gomen*bows* thanx in advance!^^
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Friday, April 15, 2005

   Mood: Great
Photobucket for some reason is shut down for maintenance i guess, so no pics in today's post (i don't know if is a good thing or a bad thing eheh).
Anyway sorry for being away yesterday, but i went out with my brother Flávio, the purpose was to buy videogames, but ended not buying none, but was really fun, well actually all those days were, it like the old days, when we were younger, although with some diference ^^', i really missed his company, he's my big brother and friend! (i know you're reading these ^.~ bro, i got to make you buy Devil May Cry 3 for my b-day XD) ahem...
Anyho, i'm glad some of you like that pic in my last post, Flávio showed me that in that day, so i didn't had anything to talk on here and i thought it would be funny to put ^^', though if someone didn't like it my apologises*bows*
[Reads her post and shakes head]Well it sure is a radom post, but its better then not updating right?^^'
Well its better for me to go now (if photobucket comes online soon, i will put some pics to look more apresentable and attrative this post XP)..
Shadowlight out
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