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Wednesday, October 25, 2006
Wednesday, October 25th 2006
I feel a comotion of emotions right now so I think this post eventually end emotional or maybe it'll lack of it...
These past two days were the worst days of my life so I came here with hope I would get some confort to my broken soul but instead, it got even shadered in pieces, so small and shapeless that...I don't know...it'll be hard to glue all of them together.
...By an inch I almost lost my mother twice and now I got the news that two of the most wonderfull, incredible amazing people I've ever meet and had the pleasure to know deeply are thinking of leaving this place. I know I should respect their decisions which I do but I cannot help to feel heartbroken by knowing that...
I also feel betrayed, its stupid to feel that way I know, but I had that silliest thought that they would always be here whenever I needed, whenever I wanted to know how they were doing by reading their posts or leaving them private messages, it was easier to contact them through here rather than email or msn for exemple.Now they're going in separate ways, it'll be twice as hard to keep in touch.
Remember when I told you that maybe you were spoiling me too much? I truly meant that, when I like someone and become not just a "friend" but the real concept of the word "friend" I get attached, become incredily involved to simply let go...maybe its a quality or a horrible flaw but thats who I am and I won't denie it...
Just a few minutes ago the word "Myotaku" for me had the most pure and beautifull sound ever, it was the same as saying friendship or love, same as that words when we spell it has that warm fuzzy feeling that make us smille each time, remembering us a special memorie or someone.
To me it makes me remember, Shanny, Sephy, Someguy, Alexa, Joshy, Vicky, Ina....and all those special times we've had together...
These people, I've become extremely attached to and just can't bare to let go, especially one of them which I don't need to name it so if two of them truly wants to leave like it seems it'll happen, myo won't ever be the same as it once were, it lost its charm and magic....
But then, maybe....it'd be rude to completely disappear from here...there's others that are still here and I love them so much too, should I denie my presence to them as well?
To you dearest the real questions are, is it really what you want to do, a move that it should be done? Abdicate all those times and nexts to come because suddenly for some way or another we started to think that maybe, just maybe it was time to leave with no special reason for it?
Either way, I respect that as much as I love you.
Heh thinking about it, its kinda poetic because this place will make three years in a few months and only now I'm seriously thinking of leaving...silly isn't it?
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Friday, October 20, 2006
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Friday, October 20th 2006
Its been a very awkward week, just like a rollercoaster with ups and downs. Teachers have been pressuring a bit harder now so I have an huge ammount of projects/research to do, its not like I didn't know already this would happen, I did, what annoys me is instead of being with people that deserved to be pampered because it was their day I was working on my projects.
Also, my collegues noticed somehow that I'm a good listener and good adviser (which I'm not btw), its not like its a bad thing, I feel truly honnoured they trust me enought to tell whats passing on but by ranting me all their problems, fears, anxiety, my head overflows with their problems because I have the bad habbit to wonder "What if it was me?".
Sometimes their so frontal about it that I'm unable to find proper confort words or if I should be smooth or frontal as well, even though its not exactly my problem it becomes my problem so its hard to deal with certain rants.
Like one of my collegues, her dad had cancer a few years ago but recovered very well, now after all this time the doctor found a wierd spot in his stomach and she's thinking that his cancer is back and all him and her passed through that dark time will eventually beguin all over again.She's that kind of girl that's very energetic, like always jumping, fooling around but lately she hasn't and today I found her in a dark spot sttruggling to not cry, she reluctantly kept telling she was alright until eventually she broke down and told me that, isn't that heartbreaking?
It definitely makes you ask yourself the "what if it was my dad?" question...
But it hasn't been entirely bad, there were good moments like, I've catched this cold, its not so bad but everyone has pampered me today at school.
Since the very first day we've become closer and closer [School only started for three weeks], like we've known each other for so long.
If you could see us interact you would definitely think we were friends from decades, I'm a shy person (sometimes too much) its hard for me to get close to someone that fast so its the very first time that happens and an entire class. Its good to have collegues so warm and nice like them, makes you feel important, needed a completely different ambient I was in my later highschool years.
On another note:
THANK YOU for the 5500 HITS<33
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Monday, October 16, 2006
Monday, 16 2006
Counting with today it makes three weeks that passed from last time I updated and this update will more likely pass unoticed since its almost 10pm...oh well its not like I have important things to say anyway, I'm just updating for the sake of updating and to check out my fancy new layout WITH a few things I've learned in school.
Well most things will pass unoticed but some will be visible, things I have never used before lets see who can noticed what it is. =P
So lets make this short because I still have projects to start and to finish, urgh.School has made me busier than the Pope himself, I know its a strange, very bizarre comparison the least but it seriously has!So many things to check and to be done, so little time and patience. XD
I've been staring this pile of research paper for hours now and I don't find enough patiente to read....urgh who cares about knowing the significant of Family in latim...
Its a pain in the....ahem..."voluptous down place" to be doing each week an essay or project its still better than doing tests or exams, so I shouldn't complain - to much. =P
Oh!I've been HAZED!
Hell yeah, it was about time, dammit!I'm quite proud and happy about it![Its quite awkward that someone could actually feel happy or even proud that she has been submitted to do very embarassing things not only at school but around the city as well...haha] Seriously now I feel that I am a freshman there!
Making the story very short, last friday around afternoon all freshmen were sent to the "backyard" and each course and studend were called one by one, [Around this time we knew something was bout to happen], what kinda gave us the right clue were the oldest students were inside and were giggling, one even said "Poor thing" to me while I walked to the backyard I got worried. 0_o
After all the calls where finish each class were called inside and not long I had to wait for my time, I had to pass through a small corridor were all students were closed to the walls waiting for us, we were pushing each other because no one wanted to pass through there (what a wuss we were xD), they did no harm, they just sung that song of funerals...?I don't know what's called.Then we were present with other oldest students dressed as knights from Rome and one of them told us to kneel down and so we did, then we had to rise our right hand high and do the jurement [although that were quite embarassing I had so much fun, since the words were all messed up like "I promise to be faithfull to school, to never desobey or touch "other" parts aside from hers until our course separate us apart" XD ].
Shortly after they present us with a small gift a "Miss freshman" belt and then we were sent to the street to yell whatever they want us to yell and sing naught stuff, a couple of colleges took some pictures so I should have some to show you =P, after going around the city yelling naughty stuff, scaring children, oldfolks we went to the auditorium to get a lecture about the rules and such, that was the part I didn't like it at all.
Well guess now I have the memorie I wanted, hehe.It was so much fun if you don't look to all the embarassment we had to pass.=P
Hmmmm...I just realize that I post rarely but my posts are always big when I do, haha.Hope its not to boring to read.Ack I should go already and work on those projects.
See you till next time <33
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Sunday, October 8, 2006
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You have reached Shadow's myotaku corner.For mutual respect between me and my visiters I only ask to read some, lets call it request for a good enviroment.
And they are:
//First of all, I would appreciate if you remember your manners.
If you desire to leave me a message, use the guestbook.If you do, use your imagination.
Do not steal, re-due or anything that crosses your mind with my graphics or codes.If your interested in any of them, you are free to ask me to assist you. Don't be foolish I have myo ninja/spies, you'll more likely get caught.
Private messages are only to assist, personall messages, any others aside from those mentioned above [ex. chainletters or asking me to visit you] are deleted.
The site and its owner are Yaoi/Yuri friendly.If such a thing offends you, you know the way out.
All in all be nice, respectfull towards others and towards yourself.Its all I truly ask.
Goo Goo Dolls - "Black Baloon"
Enjoy your stay.
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Updates
[This is the real update =P]
I couldn't help but giggle a few times with your comments about trying to figure out what I was saying in my language, hehe.
It was fun, shall we do it again sometime soon?More likely, haha. =3
Thanks for commenting though. I gave the link of my site and a few others to my teachers I still don't know what they think about it, next week I'm sure.
Oh since I'm talking about commenting, I'm unable to comment on Myo. this past few weeks, there's some kind of problem with it.I already warned Adam about it...twice. I'm sure I'll be able to comment again in awhile.So in case your wondering why I'm on and leave you a shout on your shoutbox and don't comment, now you know.
Just a quick reminder to two lovable people that somehow are having issues in their lives, one with a stressy somehow un-wanted trip and another with some news that was shocking, for both of you, especially you darling, I'm always here for you whenever you need it.And sometravellerguy, its going to be fine.*hugs*
So the first week back to school has finished and a brand new week is about to beguin and your wondering how was it?
Priceless!
I seriously mean that, it was a bit awkward and confusing the first day but then I got the handle of it.After spending only two days there I had to do an essay, it wasn't too hard, I had help though and I'm very thankfull for the person who gave me a "push", it inspired me and made it look more real, exactly the way my teacher wanted.
I could tell you all that happened during this week with an amazing detail (I assimilated everything to remember in laters years) but it'd be so long and to you, it'd be too boring, to me, exciting to tell, hehe. So I'll just say one or two major events that happened.
Like the Hazing (as I've learned from Duo I thought you called it pranks before XD), I had no one hazing me which left pretty much surprised.
"Errrmmm aren't you suppose to haze me today?Like I'm a freshman....new to school kinda girl?Someone to poke and mess around for your own three years enjoyment?A pay back kinda thing for your haze three years back?....No?....ya tired right? "
I'm sure I've said that to each three year college guy that came by to talk or ask something, hahaha. I know I was seriously asking for it but c'mon the answer was always "why should I?" or "Ermm no?Unless you want me to..."...incredible!
Okay, okay so I got hazed one time, but nothing too serious, I just had to shout some sillynaughty things in the backyard...but c'mon....I wanted some serious hazing...ya know to remember later?Aww well...
Last Friday was fun, we had no classes in the afternoon, we went to the auditorium to check out the three years WebDesigners students' works and HOLY COW that was BADASS works I tell ya.
I was WOW-ing all the time and my jaw was reaching each time a bit more to the floor with each work that passed through the big screen.
I can assure you that while I was watching that the "click" hit me, I found my future, this is what I REALLY wanna do.I found my vocation.
Each time a student showed us his/her work, they warned us of how hard work is needed to do even such a simple thing because according to them the deadline to do it and make it work decently will very tight so it'll be needed alot of commitment and sacrificies.
So its hard and I'll have many sleepless nights but I can't wait for it! I'll master not only the webdesign but also the audio and video, two brand new subjects they added it this year.
I've also heard that after this I can complement with another three years and finish it as Computer's Arts Engineer or whatever is called, sounds important doesn't it? x]
Anyway its going to be one hell of a ride with many hard work and sacrifices but it'll be worth it, oportunities like this ones don't happen more then one time so I'm very excited to start it and give my very best. =3
Another thing I want to add is, I have great collegues and great teachers (Teachers and students passed most time, chatting and playing around), and all the people that work there...this school I'm in is completely different from my Highschool, I've been warned it'd be that way but...only experience can tell of how much is different...I'm lovin' it so far.
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Welcome
You have reached Shadow's myotaku site.
This site is no longer at hiatus still, due to certain personall affairs, I rarely update.
But please, feel free to browse around just as long as you follow these simple rules.
Which are:
//Although I may or may not be here, I would appreciate if you remember your manners.
If you feel like leave me a message though your before warned that my reply might come late.
Do not steal graphics or codes.If your interested in any of them, you are free to ask to assist you. Don't be foolish I have myo ninja/spies, you'll more likely get caught.
The site and its owner are Yaoi/Yuri friendly.
All in all be nice, respectfull.Its all I ask.
Enjoy your stay.
Shadowlight
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October 2nd
[This is not a real update]
Just showing my site's layout to my brand new Web Design teachers and colleges.
Be nice boys. =P
Em caso esteja a ler isto, este site pertence a Catarina M. é como muito gosto que lhe apresento a minha pequena dedicação e o meu hobbie.
Apesar de saber um pouco mais além disto que lhe é visivel, prefiro um estilo simples e descomplicado, por isso neste momento este site de estilo simples é composto pelo mais básico HTML sendo apenas utilizado tabs (tables) e divs em conjunto. A imagem acima foi composta por mim através do programa Adobe Photoshop CS2.
Um pequeno àparte, a maioria das pessoas que frequentam e usam este servidor (não sendo meu é claro) gostam de anime (banda desenhada Japonesa) para além de outras coisas é claro.
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Comments (5) | PermalinkMonday, September 25, 2006
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But nothing was worth it,
You have reached Shadow's myotaku site.
This site is no longer at hiatus still, due to certain personall affairs, I rarely update.
But please, feel free to browse around just as long as you follow these simple rules.
Which are:
//Although I may or may not be here, I would appreciate if you remember your manners.
If you feel like leave me a message though your before warned that my reply might come late.
Do not steal graphics or codes.If your interested on the codes/graphics you are free to ask me to assist you. Don't be foolish I have myo ninja/spies, you'll most likely get caught.
The site and its owner are Yaoi/Yuri friendly.
All in all be nice, respectfull.Its all I ask.
Enjoy your stay.
Shadowlight
If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that I know
Once upon a time 26 years ago, on a very bright and warm day, a small beautifull baby girl was borned.September 25th was the date.
The world couldn't recieve better grace from such a wonderfull creature.
From a child who was a spotline to a wonderfull unreplaceble woman she became. Still, the world and everyones that have the honnour to share her life rejoice and smilles upon her.
Whenever she crosses our sight or when we hear her name its like we can listen a truly beautifull lullaby master piece directly from heaven, impossible to be repeated, impossible to be played by others, because nothing can be compared to her.
She never cease to amaze of how far she can go to make someone smille and be conforted, she rejoice when your happy, she cries and embrace you when you reach the bottom.
She is our air, our sun, our stars, our moon, our goddess , we certaintly wouldn't be the same without her.
This story does not have an ending, not yet, its too soon. There will be many more adventures along with her and who knows, in a very far future we will be sharing our stories about our young days together with our grandsons while we take naps between.
Shanny will never grow old, because angels can never grow old.
Happy birthday love. I hope many many more years come and we'll be cherishing all our moments forever together.
Love you truly,
*snuggles*
~Shadow your eternal KittyKat <33
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