Thursday, June 15, 2006

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Date: Thursday, June 15 2006
Mood:silly

The weather is bright and warm, the smell of home made bread spreads in the air while the wind keeps you refresh, when night comes there's festivities everywhere, every person you run through greets you with a smille, the streets are iluminated with bright beautifull colors, music flows in the air...


Shall we take a walk together?
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Monday, June 12, 2006

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Date: Monday, June 12 2006
Mood:Hypper-ish/silly


Is it really true that I'm updating two days in a roll?Because somehow its seems unreal to me =P

So anyway I'm not sure why I'm posting today actually heh I just felt like doing because you know I'm all forward for the rush feelings/moments hehe...guess I should use this more wisely and put something interesting on it, heh.


Hmmmm...lets see I've woke a couple hours and I feel this incredible burst of energy inside me, like I wanna run/jump....hug people while shouting silly stuff?
Its not like I'm feeling extremely happy I just feel very hyper and hmmmm....wanna shout something silly over my window....?

......

*laughs*

I'm sane don't look at me like I'm not. I think its due to my recently addiction to this cereals we've been buying lately that has like a very good and I mean VERY good percentage of chocolate in it [chocolate makes me hypper if you don't know], hmmm not a bad thing actually this hypper will definitely help me on work tonight *sigh* another graveyard shift, bleh.

Hmmmmm...you know I've also noticed I've been "hmmm" saying everytime I talk ever since I woke up.Awkward.

Ohh yeah I remember why I'm posting!Posting today had a meaning after all, heh. Oh boy I think my hypperness is messing with my brain, darn those addictive crunchy cereals...

So I went to Shanny's site and she had this idea of being a "master" to myo newbies, somehow like a mentor or guide to them. She picked one already and you know it seems interesting and you know what?I'm going to try out.
If your new and want someone to guide you around help you with your site layout changing and just want someone to be your cool bodyguard, I'm available. *winks*

So whoever is interested pm with this filled up:


Your name:
Gender [I know its wierd but I need to know just for statistics manner =P]:
Why you want me to be your "master":


I'll let you know whom I picked in a few days.Good luck =P

aaand teh old myotaku buds...I'm moistering an idea of doing our own "otakuoldies" club ;P

*grins*
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Sunday, June 11, 2006

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Date: Sunday, June 11 2006
Mood:Feeling Sane once again

I'm somehow sane once again, well sane as it possible for me to be =P
Forgive me for the last post being so...depressed, gloomy and...selfpityfull. I know I should have never said that I'm worthless but you know things have gotten on a way that I just couldn't take anymore. Stressfull work/signing up for courses, family loses, family problems after, people who I thought wasn't a part of my life abruptly came back and want to be part of it once again by forcing me to accept it the painfull pain on my back all the time and that thing that I refered so much in my last post... it was indeed a very hard time.
Knowing that someone had betrayed me was the last drop I could take I think, so I went to an insane selfpity mood, its embarassing for me to admit it but its true and what kinda makes me feel bad is I've dragged you all into it, which wasn't nice of my part.
Heh its kinda all my fault since I needed help for quite awhile but refused to let people know about it ironycally I ended up asking for help in the end didn't I?
So please forgive me for that.

Things are lighter now though, like I said I've regained my sane mind once again, (the pain on my back still remains though) rested up yesterday since it was day off [not exactly I was out with parents almost all day =P] and of course your comments did a huge help to bring the floor to my feet once again.

Even though I need a tid bit more time to heal up completely, I pretty much can say ol'Shadow's back in town.

So...

Thank you.


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Wednesday, June 7, 2006

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Date: Wednesday, June 7 2006
Mood:Stocked with tylenol painkillers
There comes a time when you just feel/get tired of being the one who always get stabbed just because you believe in people and love/want to help others and that's how some people pay you back...Betray you.... believe me it isn't fun.

...and then without wanting you hurt people who care and loved you and would never EVER do such a thing to you...

....I feel...worthless.
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Tuesday, June 6, 2006

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Date: Tuesday, June 6 2006
Mood:Stocked with tylenol painkillers

....I feel so betrayed....
It hurts far more than the pain on my back.
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Sunday, June 4, 2006

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Date: Sunday, June 3rd 2006
Mood:Gloomy...with back pain
Yesterday while I was carrying the garbage out on my job I hurted my back, I heard this huge crack and then a sharp pain came through, it was so painfull that I suddenly let go the garbage and just wanted to yell...but meh I couldn't after all if I did it would scare everyone there (and considering that there's a pregnant woman there it wouldn't be wised to do so), though some tears rolled but I still had to carry the garbage and so I did, I carried it outside and trew it away. My back is killing me since then, I can't stand for too long, I can't lay down decently I can't bend down very well, meh overall it hurts in every position I get...
I should take some painkillers but you know I take way too many of them for my headackes (some of them already make no effect on me), I'm just glad my auntie gives me this Tylenol ones that are really strong (one of her relatives mail it to her from Canada), I guess if things get worse on job today I'll take some.
Ah I know I also should consider going to a doctor and check it out, but he/she most likely will tell me that what I need is rest and maybe not carry anything heavy for a few days?
Though I just can't like get on the job thing and say I can't carry the garbage out just because I stupidly carry it the wrong way. Besides just two of us can actually carry it out, after all pregnant women can't. So you know to hell with it. I'll just endure it, its just for 3 more months than I'm free once again.


Shannylove I hope I catch you on soon, I need one of your pamperings and it seems you need some as well.

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Friday, June 2, 2006

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Date: Friday, June 2nd 2006
Mood:Gloomy
Life has been quite a test lately. It seems my quiet problems-free life has stopped for now, theres so many things happening, bad and good...I'm having problems to digest it all at once, so this leaves me a little bit angsty and blue... Heh but I'll be fine.
For now I'll leave you with my newly theme I made last night to keep my mind off things for a little while [made most of it in a couple of hours], its not that amazing though and things are a bit out of place but heh thats have to do it for now...I hope you enjoy.
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Monday, May 29, 2006

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Date: Monday 29, May 2006
Mood:Tired
First thank you for the well wishes, I had that headacke all day long on my day off but refused to waste it by going to bed and rest, heh I did end up going to bed after I got from the cinema....

On the day before my day off I've told my mom to wake me up early, of course she was surprise by that since I always sleep in on those days hehe, little she known what was I planning to do.
So she woke me up as I ask her too, I did my usual thing that most people do, take a shower brush the teeth, check myotaku while drinking latte [insert silly giggle here] =P and then off we head along with my sister to the city. [boys weren't allowed to tag along =P]
They were both quite curious to know where we were heading since I haven't told them anything, but then when they noticed the streets they finally figured where we were heading...to our all time favourite place....TEH Asian Side![We have this street full with asian stores restaurants its like a small version of ChinaTown?Yeah something like that though very small version compared to it heh.AAnd thats how me and my mom call that street].
There's no need to say the two of them got way excited with this lil' surprise, since I told them we were going to have some breakfast and shop all we want there.We end up drinking some tea and this cute muffin types things and boy if they were delicious (the boy who served us wasn't bad either hehe), and well yeah putting this short it was such a great time we've laughed talked, my mom looked like a lil'child, she even said "Arigatu" everytime we bought something and of course bowed after, it was hillarious every single time she did that.


[Aside note:I'm very happy with the fact my mom is trying harder to understand my asian obession, she actually told me after that maybe just maybe she has some Asian-blood in herself as well, not to say the fact that she let me know all the gorgeous asian boys she would find while we walk hehe. One thing made me giggle so hard when she told she wouldn't mind at all me having an asian boyfriend, haha]

Hehe mom's are really cute things don't you agree? =3

Aaand there's where I bought my guitar, too.It was very cheap there and heck it was made by Asian people and brought by Asian people itself I had to buy it nonetheless. It plays smoothly.
I wish its owner could play it smoothly as well, hahaha. I suck so bad. Its so hard.

When we head home brother suggested about going to the movies right in the moment I was signing on on msn, heh burns.... I had to apologise to every single poor friend who started to pop up to chat, had to tell them I wasn't going to be on for a couple of hours but would definitely be back after.... ended nothing getting on after, booo for me I know.

I thought brother was going to pay for tickets but in the end he gave me an excuse [very lame excuse btw brother!] that he couldn't pay, I ended up paying it, not that I minded.
Anyway "The Da Vinci Code" its quite a piece of movie I might add, I adored every single bit of it. I haven't read the entire book yet just half so from the half I've read it was exactly the same nonetheless....hmmm I don't know why but for me I thought Langdon was more younger buuut it was Tom Hanks heck he was good!Like always he has been =P
I must say I was quite surprised with the ending I won't spoil it for you. All in all I loved it alot, will definitely buy the DvD when it comes out.
I highly suggest you to watch, its worth the money and time![the movie last for 4 hours counting with a break] even if your Christian and stuff, it won't due you any harm, if you do believe on your convictions a simple movie won't changed that much your mind don't you agree?So don't private yourself of a very enjoyable and worth watching movie.



After that good day off, life has gotten on a hectic-lazyness-enjoyable-notenjoyable thing heh, as always weekend at work was very stressfull but oh well I'm getting used to it.
If only my day off wasn't so far away I wouldn't mind having some rest now, bleh.

On another note I might chance my layout once again soon, I'm getting pretty annoyed of this one for some odd reason heh must be the pink-ish kinda looks, but ya know I'm having problems with my next layout not with the codes this time (since I pretty much figured how this whole thing works), also not with the background (since I already made a bunch of them) but with the top picture...darnit I need inspiration somehow and of course time to actually try it out heh, so yeah if the site gets a bit funky on the upcoming days, now you know why.
Anyway I hope your having a good summer (for those who just finished school) and a good week at school/work ahead of you.

Oh yeah I'll probably be less active here when next month comes(though I'll keep going to msn after work), I'll try to pop out now and then so I'm sorry for that alright?

See you on the flip'side [haha I've been saying this way too many times for my own good xD]
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Friday, May 26, 2006

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Date:Friday 26, 2006
Mood:Tired
I bought a guitar yesterday, been trying like crazy to play decent.Sucesseded on just one music, I'm pretty happy with that.
Oh had a good day off between playing guitar going to the movies to see The Da Vinci Code and a major headacke.


For those of you I was suppose to meet last night on msn I apologise.

And for those who got their diplomas...Congrats once again!

Have a good day <33




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Tuesday, May 23, 2006

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Date:Tuesday 23, 2006
Mood:Annoyed but overall in a very crazy state.
I haven't been around much haven't I?No more pampering for me, I say for I have been a bad girl.
Its been quite hectic days, this weekend and yesterday was definitely the worst, the restaurant was packed every hour, too much people to give attention too, unfortenaly I couldn't give the same attention I usually give to tourist people [which usually their the nicest and gives you more tips ones by the way], its a shame, I always have some fun chatting and learn quite a few things with them [like how to say thank you in various languages], aw well.
I forgot to tell you this on my last update one Finland tourist on my birthday [without knowing it was my birthday] gave me a finland 1cent coin, its so shinny and has a hole in the middle, man that was definitely a cool gift, though the people I work with said they prefered a real tip, ah he invited me to go to Finland since he came to mine and said I was one of the nicest and THE only person whom he've spoken too so well in english, okay maybe he exaggerated a bit, I'm not the nicest or even the only person who speak so well in english but he sure was a very nice old man, I wanna go to Finland now!Because Finland people are just so nice, just like asian people as well!! Gawd I have seen/chatted AND made friends with so many asian male gooddness its not even funny, hahaha. Seriously I'm getting my avid asian male crazyness back again, because everywhere we look now it has a sexy asian boy on every corner, I swear! This is a good and bad thing, the good is that I know have on every corner a nice place to let my eyes on aaand the bad is I have the urge to get one for myself, haha.
Aaaand last night someone just made it even worse by showing me, more vids of sexy azn and I finally known someone who is very dear to me was asian as well....god lord whats wrong with people lately?Do they want me to get crazy with all of this? 'Cause it seems that way, hehe.

Anyway the sad part of my week was that this week we had our religious festivites (its to venerate an image which is very dear to us, a long time ago when we had this huge earthquakes we prayed for this image to stop the earth from trembling and so it happened, so we venerate it, its called "Senhor Santo Cristo dos Milagres" which in english is "Lord Saint Christ of Miracles").
Most of you who I speak with since I first put my feet here knows about it, since I wrotte about it every single year [this is the third time], so to avoid being annoying I won't say much about it this year. I practically have the same friends as last year with a few exceptions so you know what festivities I'm talking about, their quite beautifull ones and I'm not bragging they really are, being religious or not you would have a blast at it, especially if you were with me, haha I make all festivities even more enjoyable =P but yes its quite a sight I tell you.

However if you don't remember about it, don't worry, just tell me if you want to know more and I writte a very short post about it, because you know I love to ramble about my island, its one piece of heaven for tourist I've heard...now if only living here wasn't so hard it'd be heaven for us as well....

But anyway, the best days and my favourite ones of this festivities was this weekend and where was I?Closed on a small place packed with people with a very silly uniform, meh, I got annoyed then mad aaaand finally a tid bit sad because I have never lost one day, but I lost all of it this year, heh I did went there for a bit after work but I didn't enjoyed it as much, I was so exhausted from work, I barely could stand on my feet, so after awhile I went home and just trew myself to bed falling asleep immediatly.

Aw well I always have next year, I'm cool about it now though.But meh I had to get annoyed today as well, remember about the course I told you about it on my previous post?Well guess what, mom called and they told her that course isn't available this year, then why the heck they told my mom in the first time she called about what courses they had about it?This makes me sad, I was really looking forward to it.
But they have others courses I might join, though the signing up thing hasn't started yet like most of the schools I'm going to sign up as well, ah and I was stressing all over about it.

Botões your package its on its way, once again I'm truly sorry for mailling it so late, I so hope it gets safe and sound in your hands, I wish it was on your hands already but meh you know I just didn't had time, sorry.

If your reading this Congratiolations!!
I hope you have a blast tomorrow, and remember I'll be cheering you!If you can just try to get on today =P


Alright this got way to long for what I predicted heh, my bad sorry. I hope your all having a good week, mine's going very smoothly compared to last week [except monday bleh], I just want thursday to come because its my day off, haha.





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