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Wednesday, October 26, 2005

   Would someone shoot me on the head??...Thanx...

Time of Post: 04:30 p.m
Listening to:"Hear me out" by Frou Frou
Current mood:Bleh-ish, Annoyed, grumpy, stupid, worthless... you name it...



[Be advised this is a rant (well mostly whining) of a silly girl who didn't slept much due to over-thinking, viewer description is advised]
What's wrong with me?!What the HELL is wrong with me lately?!?!I've been thinking all day long, and I mean frickingthinking EVERY BLOODY DAY AND NIGHT!! For those who still doesn't know me a advise for you, new people if your reading this, pleeeeeease stop 'cause I don't want to scare you guys before I really let you see how good person I am xP for those who know me well you guys know how I am so...its not like you guys will get surprised by this xP
Thinking is normal but not like you think nonestop 24 hours a day!
I mean my brain doesn't stop thinking and wondering about everything and anything, even Absurde/stupidy/abnormal things...like yesterday I passed by the bathroom and I looked inside, pretty normal so far, when I layed my eyes on the toilet paper I begun to wonder why toilet paper only has two colours (white and pink) the most normal one is white, and I really wonder why we only have those colours for it, why not other ones, like blue, or grey...why it has to be white or pink?!
At night I visualize what I did the entire day, and I mean THE ENTIRE DAY!! What I did, said what I did not did or said, what should I had said or did, should I have acted that way or should I somehow tried to avoided it or acted diferent, gosh I can't rest!My brain won't shut down and silent itself letting myself fell asleep...I'm tired...my body is lethargic...I still feel bleh-ish (more then before) and my stupid brain won't shut up!!*sigh*
I follow everyone's advise, Blackwings-san advise which was keep myself occupied with something that way I don't let myself overthink, I start to draw which I love the most then I started to wonder why I was doing that... I also followed Someguy-kun advise "Given time anything is possible" so I told myself somehow my stupid brain will stop doing that....but still I can't help to feel annoyed by it *sigh*

Maybe all of this is all due to stress and...well...I was so used to study everyday exercise my brain with you know school stuff, I worked real hard those last years to have great grades and somehow my brain got used to that routine...and now he miss it so much that he tries to occupy himself with anything and everthing he can finds!!
Gosh...even my body is silly x]....[/Rant is over]

*breaths deep*
O-kay!I feel much better...
Anyway aside that, life is still going with up and down moments...and I'm still waiting for jobs calls *sigh* but I did watched CCS movie, its cute...at least I heard Sakura real voice which was quite pleasent better then the annoying Portuguese version >.<
I know I have other things to say, but I'll shut up now, the rant was enough for you. I just hope you guys don't hate me now...*shrugs*

Silly job interview question of the day:What's the thing you like more on this job? The money duh!!

My comments about your comments
Guys I'm sorry no comments about your comments today I'm to tired, I'll comment after I get some rest. Love ya all *hugs*


Shadow out
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