Friday, November 3, 2006

   shit(aki mushrooms) happens

*sighs* well yesterday was not such a great day. left school early to go to a dermatologist appointment. they made me wait a long time then told me a bunch of useless stuff then poked me with needles. YAY. anybody else who's had blood taken can testify as to how fun it is. then, mom asked if i wanted to get my hair trimmed, it'd been more than half a year since the last time not to mention the fact that i had horrible split ends. now.. the split ends are a result of my.. well.. neglect of my hair, i guess i don't obsess over it like most girls, i don't get forty-dollar shampoo and stuff, and i don't worry that much about ripping a brush through it this has cost me.. everything *drama* -_- my hair was really long. i've always wanted long hair, and it's really slow-growing, so here at age fourteen it had finally started to grow out. i LOVED it. it was the only part of my physical appearance that i always like, even in the morning (-_-) so.. i got there.. i knew i'd probably have to get a few inches taken off it... so marty took and showed me how much he'd have to take off to get rid of the split ends. i was horrified. it was like.. four inches or more, i tell you. i let him do it.. because.. if i left the split ends alone, they'd grow out and get worse and worse and frizzier and frizzier. so.. in my eyes, i lost like half my hair=_= it's now only down to my shoulder blades in the back, and i'm devastated. as soon as we got out the door i started crying and kept crying off and on all day long and half the night. nobody knew what the hell was wrong with me. I don't know what the hell was wrong with me! hair grows back, and it's not THAT short really... but i just can't even THINK about it anymore without wanting to cry=_= every time i seem to reach that goal of the length of hair i've wanted since i was four, i have to get half of it chopped off. i look in the mirror now and see myself with this (to me) short hair and i hate it. everybody tells me it looks good-- i shouldn't be upset. it's not a bad haircut, it's fine. but not for me. i think about that hair i'd hide behind, and that covered my shoulders and my back like a web, and that gets in the way all the time, and i just want to cry. this time, i'm being more careful. even if it means actually taking time to do all that tedious hair-care stuff, i'm doing it. i can't stand to lose it again. ...and now i am done with my melodrama. i stayed home from school today because the lingering effects of crying all night made me feel sick. yes, i am insane. *sighs*. good day to all. here it is, how i look now; undoubtedly you like everyone else will say "that IS long!" ..or if you see me frequently "but it doesn't look any different!" *sighs again*.

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Monday, October 23, 2006

   legolas is cool, in a dorkwad sorta way

so yeah.. i ordered this legolas costume completely on a random whim... cause like.. i wanted to make myself an elf costume for halloween but instead i'm going to be a lazy loser person and adapt a legolas costume. but the freaking MORONS didn't even give me ears!! (the reason i found the legolas costume by accident, i was looking for ears) how the FUCK is anyone supposed to be LEGOLAS WITHOUT EARS?? ..anyway i shall have to order elf ears... again... and i think i'm going to wear part of the costume to school tomorrow. before you start thinking i'm incredibly brave, i'll tell you why. it's spirit week (week before homecoming) and today is "dress like someone you're not day". today was "dress like a little kid day", which, i might add, i did not participate in aside from bringing a stuffed animal to school and i might also add squeezing stuffed animals during class is very theraputic. really. so anyway, i was going to dress like an ODU (old dominion university) professor since i have a nametag.. but i could be a legolas-y person.. but.. i ..don't know what do DOOOooOOO >_< maybe i should be a.. a..... a princess ..no ...no no no no lemme go tear through my old dress-up box, i bet ten trillion things that didn't fit me seven years ago will fit me now ..good lord, i am SOOoooOOOoo indecisive... but but but... then... then it's sportswear day and i don't have anything to do for that.. unless i wear my fencing gear which would be entirely impractical. and then jungle day to which i think i will wear my jungle explorer helmet hat thing (it's REAL!) -_-' ..then friday is green and gold day (my school colors). i always make a point to wear nothing but black on green and gold day. (i hate my school )

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Monday, October 16, 2006

F (_) ( |< TeCHnOloGy.....

stupid freaking computer of doomful awful painful miserable wicked wretched screwiness!! this is written a little late so i doubt anyone'll read it but that-- that--- FREAK of technology is screwing with me once again i've had to restart it twice, it won't let me sign in to anything, including the otaku, and finally just froze up so many fucking times i got fed up came here to mum's 'com, which is way faster (laptop) but has the screwiest keyboard imaginable... it does the wierdest things and my favorite key (.) is broken=_= (it's popped up) so i'm now getting irritated at the keyboard every nine milliseconds but at least i can talk to gabe (albeit slowly, since i have to fix all the wierd typos) ok. cna't stand it anymore. i have to end this (post, not life-_-')

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Friday, October 13, 2006

i feel pretty

ookay so i'm sick... sorta.. not too bad though but i'm staying home from school and my parents are gone till really really late tonight ..the only bad part of this is that i was going to get chinese food after school but now i cannot *weeps* ..oh well -(note inserted at a later date: i have now found a wallpaper that works, though it isn't as cool as the first one.)- waiting for my mom's friend ina to bring my makeup work from school.. the receptionist is evil, she'll probably make her wait a while-_- ..dude it's really cold today it's been like.. unnaturally too-hot for quite a while now and suddenly it got chilly it's actually a good thing, i was so friggin' sick of getting hot in october-_-' ..i think i may go find a little-kid movie to watch... yes.. yes i think i will.. huhuhu... hmm. my only problem is indecision. sailor moon? yellow submarine? land before time (NO)? .... wait. i have it. yes... i shall watch.. LIGHT YEARS ...XP ..maybe that's not even a little kid movie (in fact i don't think it is, now that i give it some thought) but i've watched it since i was like seven. it's animated but there's like a bunch of scienc fiction-y scary mutant people and i don't like it.=_= ...well it's better than fantastic planet... i watched that too.. (and i don't think that was a children's movie either..) it's also got scary science fiction-y animated mutantish people but it's all in french which made it even wierder to me. not that it needed any help in that regard, though, i seem to recall something about giant shrimp-looking things getting tied to people. i think i only watched it because at the very end there was a 'courage the cowardly dog' episode thingy. in english. i couldn't read subtitles very fast back then, you see, so it made the whole experience somewhat surreal.-_-' (i know this is getting long, but i'm kind of out of it right now and i don't have anything better to do so bear with me...) i wish i had a new anime to watch. i've already watched the ones i got a couple weeks ago though. they both kind of sucked.. mermaid forest and maetel legend. ...dude i know what i REALLY want to watch, but i can't freaking find it the last unicorn .. i wish they'd give it a better title, man, i feel so stupid saying that. it is like one of the best animated movies ever.. it's based on a book written in german, but animated by japanese people, and they really stuck to the storyline so it's not cheezy at all.. it's like one big lovely metaphor. i love it *grins* after some years of contemplation i have come to the conclusion that it's about finding/losing yourself, and how hard it is to remember your 'true self' when you're pretending to be someone you're not. and the best line is: "what have you done to me... i can feel this body dying all around me!" (-Amalthea) 'tis not a little-kiddish movie at all. ...anyway i shall find something to do now... because that was an obscenely long post, i think. here, have a few pictures. yes, duty calls.. off to be random...

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Wednesday, October 11, 2006

   man...

these past two weeks of school are like the students' dream come true. friday they sent us home early due to flooding, monday we had off because of a holiday, and today we had a two-hour delay because of fog. ...and this morning.. i watched Maetel Legend.. it is like.. soooo cheezy.. it's something like the prelude to Galaxy Express 999 (which was good, and had a lot of cool metaphors and quotable lines and original stuff) but this movie was like... the heighth of cliche.. they used every cliche, i think, except the ones related to romance. at least they didn't do those.. those are the ones i hate the most-___- but it was like.. like... "no! it is impossible! a mere human such as you could not.. defeat.. MEEEEE" ...bleeehhhh i still think the animation is kind of cool though.. it's not especially "good".. but i like how they draw the women they look kind of ethereal.. and their eyelashes are cool i'll try to find a pic.. ookay yeah here.. ..oh, and Emeraldas is my favorite character, both in Maetel Legend and Galaxy Express 999.. she's a space pirate lol (she's awesome)

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Saturday, October 7, 2006

   the good, the bad, and the ugly

well. it is friday ..the spirits told me. aaaand we had a storm thingy. it flooded. they sent us home from school early. the entire high school behaved like drunken idiots on a field day. it was.. quite interesting. then, my parents decided to waste my night taking me to a play. ordinarily i like plays. but this was Death of a Salesman. depressing and slow and based on a book i haven't read. and most unfortunately, when we started watching it, i realized there was a TON of yelling in it. now... i have such a freaking low tolerance for noise, let me tell you... everyday things like someone humming might annoy me enough to scream, it all depends. my nerves were red-raw tonight. and so they have to have a married couple shouting at each other... that.. that more than anything else, bothers me. deeply. i couldn't take that.. so i ran off during the intermission and sat in the lobby reading my mom's book-_-' and now? now i'm talking to gabe... and i feel two trillion times better^_^' waiting for my parents to get tired and go upstairs so i can use the microphone to talk with him... and hey, thank you gabe, for all that you do for me... i love you with all my heart^_^

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Monday, October 2, 2006

   read this people...

does anyone but me find this slightly unnerving? this is what all the people in the army have to learn by heart... i mean.. it sounds kind of like a ripoff of bushido or something.. but... ..man... it's like brainwashing... US MARINE CORPS RIFLEMAN'S CREED This is my rifle. There are many like it, but this one is mine. My rifle is my best friend. It is my life. I must master it as I master my life. My rifle, without me, is useless. Without my rifle, I am useless. I must fire my rifle true. I must shoot straighter than my enemy who is trying to kill me. I must shoot him before he shoots me. I will... My rifle and myself know that what counts in this war is not the rounds we fire, the noise of our burst, nor the smoke we make. We know that it is the hits that count. We will hit... My rifle is human, even as I, because it is my life. Thus, I will learn it as a brother. I will learn its weakness, its strength, its parts, its accessories, its sights and its barrel. I will ever guard it against the ravages of weather and damage. I will keep my rifle clean and ready, even as I am clean and ready. WE will become part of each other. We will... Before God I swear this creed. My rifle and myself are the defenders of my country. We are the masters of our enemy. We are the saviors of my life. So be it, until victory is America's and there is no enemy, but Peace! yeah.. peace because everybody's dead??? man.. this makes me want to move to the UK...=_=

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Sunday, September 24, 2006

   secret lives of restaurant staff

well just got back from the pub and when i was there i felt the urgent need to educate the public in the secrets of restaurants. for you peoplez who have never been insiders, you may find this info *useful*... or at least, interesting. for you peoplez who have been insiders, feel free to share your own experiences in the form of a comment. RESTAURANT SURVIVAL FOR DUMMIES 1. be very nice to your server. though you may not realize it, he/she holds your life in his/her hands. he/she can do any number of things to your food, keep you waiting for it, or assorted other evil things. 2. be even nicer to the hostess. she has almost absolute power. she can make you wait for a table, make sure your table is in fact NOT clean, and tell your server to do any number of things to your food. 3. don't make stupid jokes. the average number of people who come into a restaurant per night who make the 'joke' "table for 17 please" then laugh like it's funny is about 15. nobody wants to hear it. it wasn't even funny the first time. 4. THINGS THAT MAKE YOUR SERVER HATE YOU: a. being rude (obviously) b. "just coming for dessert" c. sitting there for hours when they could have a new group d. leaving a tip of five dollars after staying for two hours 5. your server will spend a minimum of thirty seconds cussing you out after you've left. 6. love the bartender. he/she puts up with you for hours while you're drunk and annoying. 7. love the bus-person. APPRECIATE the bus-person. and for god's sake, don't leave them a bigger mess to clean up than you have to. 8. if you hear screaming from the kitchen, nobody died. it's just the cook yelling for a server. 9. THE KITCHEN STAFF a. it's hot and unbearable back in the kitchen, tempers rise with the temperature b. when they're not making food, the cooks chase each other with knives or throw raw seafood at people c. ordering food automatically makes the cook hate you. d. it also makes them hate your server, but the difference is, the server is the only one who will ever know, seeing as he/she is the one who gets assaulted by colorful swearing. e. if ever you walk by the kitchen, walk by quickly and don't dawdle in the doorway; you run the risk of being accidentally whacked by a ballistic missile thrown by an employee in a "mood". 10. you're a brat if you insistently ask the hostess how long the wait for a table is and expect her to somehow predict the future right there in front of you. 11. people who make lewd remarks to waitresses, hostesses, or bus-girls go straight to hell. 12. the staff of a restaurant goes through more in one shift than you can possibly imagine; their memories, tempers, and smiles must remain intact for hours on end. therefore, tip, and don't be cheap. :) THIS MESSAGE BROUGHT TO YOU BY THE SOCIETY FOR THE PROMOTION OF HARD-WORKING PEOPLEZ

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Monday, September 18, 2006

dorkwads continue to complicate my life

okay so FIVE people- FIVE! wanted to go on that trip so of course... we couldn't do it... our group was too small.. so yeah.. we cannot go to quebec now wtf i hate those fucking people, they won't go anywhere if it's not the frickin BEACH well.. i told my mom i'm finding some way to meet gabe anyway.. and i don't think she has a problem with it... and i took the first step to telling my dad, which was informing him that the trip was cancelled and i was down because there was a friend in quebec that i'd wanted to meet with my group he's like a cat.. you have to introduce new things.. very gradually and this is.. VERY gradually, lol-_- "friend" is just not QUITE the word anyway, those horrible assholes i must call classmates left me pretty much alone today.. couple of the boys gave me a little trouble but i can manage; the important thing is the bovine sisters left me alone (those two older girls that "want to be my friend") (good nickname, huh? thank you knox-_-) okay so... i'm depressed *sighs* ..and i'm hungry (do i say that in every post? i think i do.) black haru is my role model for school=_=

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Friday, September 15, 2006

   highlight of my year so far

yes, well, in seventh grade the highlight of my year was darren stealing the pizza (box and all) from the big football guys and running away. last year there.. wasn't any highlight that i remember. but i just found the winner for this year so far. knox and i were having a horrible time in gym class, we were playing some stupid new torture where we run around like cows in a herd(even with rodeo-sounding music in the background!-_-) and people throw balls at us at 100000 miles an hour. so some of the guys, high of intellect that they are, tried to hide so they wouldn't have to play. you know that thing in volleyball that the referee stands on? it's big and triangular with steps leading up to where they can stand and look down. well foster got behind the steps and was hiding INSIDE the thing which was actually pretty smart.. the gym teachers were on the other side and couldn't see him. so he was huddled up in there laughing--- and then will tried to squeeze in, apparently on top of him-_-' and well he went in headfirst under the middle step.. and got stuck halfway so knox starts laughing hysterically and points.. and i look over there.. and all you can see is his butt and his legs flailing all over the place. for some reason flailing feet are like one of the top ten funniest things in the world to me-_-' but it was SO... FREAKING... funny it was like something out of a cartoon!! you just see these kicking legs sticking out of the ref stand thing.. omg.. we stood there and laughed so long i'm surprised we didn't get a ball to the head and fall over-_-' it took him quite a while to unstick himself and meanwhile foster escaped by crawling out underneath him. man i would have liked to see what was going on in the inside of that thing XD ..anyway it's.. FRIDAY!! i'm freeee from my tormenters (for some reason everyone in one of my classes has, after never knowing i was alive for nine years, taken an active interest in me and my personal life and follow me/ yell "naia!!!!" whenever they see me, or whatever..and ... it's... scaring me.. mehh=_= they totally ruin french class for me which, otherwise, would be very fun the teacher is awesome and he's taking us to quebec *grin*

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