Wednesday, August 29, 2007

   I wish I had an angry face. D: <

Time: 11:11 a.m. (By the compy) but realy its 2:12 p.m. Location: At School. Mood: Cranky, hateful. Thinking: "What the hell is wrong with me?!" Listening To: Annoying background chatter. XxGreetingxX Hey Guys. How's Life? Sorry for being extremely slow about getting to sites, I'm trying to get into the groove of things again. So bear with me! D: XxSchoolxX Well, school's officially making me want to stab myself in the face. Life at this particular moment is making me want to stab myself in the face. ._. But the weird thing is, I can't put my finger on exactly why. Maybe I'm having one of my "days." XxBandxX I guess that started my bad mood. Our Captain of the Guard said that we were having a test over our second song work, and she said that if we didn't know it, we fail. But SHE didn't even know the FIRST SONG WORK. )x I was so pissed I thought I was going to quit right then and there. I hope she looks AWFUL this friday. >.>; I've been working my ass off all season, and for what?! To fail a test because I couldn't get all the work right?! At least I know it, and I've been trying. (post later)

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Saturday, August 25, 2007

   Don't Kill Me? I Love You?

Time: 12: 08 p.m. Mood: Happyful Listening To: "I'm Your Favorite Drug" - Porcelain and The Tramps Thinking: "I can't believe I forgot this place..." XxIntroductionxX Oh gosh, guys! I'm SOOOO SORRY for not being here in forever! I suck at life. Officially. )= I'm a bad otakuan. Its just...its been a busy summer. I've been barely able to keep up with my myspace let alone other things. So should I just say Gomenasai and jump right in? -bow- XxSummer LovexX As a few of you will be pleased to know (Or already do) I have a wonderful loving boyfriend. He has also kept me busy this summer. We've been dating for a while now, and I tend to love him more everyday! XxTripxX ....Yes. I went to EUROPE this past June. London, Paris, and Rome. I will give a detailed account later, alright? Along with a few pictures! =D I know how much you guys LOVE pictures. Hahaha. XxSchoolxX School has started back, and I'm a senior. Its interesting, and stressful already! xD HAHA. I made Colorguard this year, and our first game is this coming Friday. I'm so DAMN nervous. I hope I don't trip, or forget my work! Colorguard is flag spinning in the Band. WE make the band look pretty. And they make us sound good. ;3 Its a circular thing. XxThe EndxX WHOOO! I'll spare you all from Song Lyrics and just post my favorite little part: "...The side effects are sexual Are you down for a taste? The side effects are sexual You know the way I say I'm Your Favorite Drug Your Favorite Drug Just one hit is never enough..." And one Picture: Mmm, sweet love. =3 OVER AND OUT! ^.~ ~Shadow-chan

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Saturday, February 3, 2007

   My Updating has become erratic.

Time: 3:21 p.m. Mood: Healing/Tired Listening To: "Hit the Floor"-Bullet For My Valentine (I NEVER get tired of this song) XxGreetingxX Hey you all. x3 How does life treat you guys? I'm sure I'll find out though, as I'll go read your posts. x3 But its always nice to be concerned. =D XxHmmxX Nothing really has happened lately, to be honest. I talked everything out with the guy that broke my heart, and I didn't say he broke my heart in so many words but he knew, and it was a big sob-fest, all the crying was my own. But...I'm coming to terms that he just wants friends. I can live with that. Maybe. I hope. =S XxFriendsxX Again...I'm feeling a bit lonely. It did not help that my friend, even though I think she said it jokingly, she said that she didn't miss me when we got out for snow on Thursday and I hadn't seen her that wednesday before either. I just pretended to be shocked, but it really hurt, cause it made me wonder if she really felt like that, and was pulling it off in a joke. So that's about the only thing that's got me down. But other than I'm fine! =D So here is your picture and I'm OUT! PEACE GUYS! This is for the Naruto fans today: BYE GUYS. <3

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Monday, January 29, 2007

Chicken Poptarts.

Time: 2:48 p.m. Mood: Melancholy/Heartbroken Listening To: VH1 Nelly Furtado- "Say It Right" Hallu Hallu you all! -she would wave and hug everyone- First of all, I would like to say thanks for so many fsking comments on my last post. I've not had that many comments in God knows when, so thnx! <3 Anyway, How are you guys doing, and on with the postage! XxExplanationxX About my brokenheartedness, my teacher came over to my compy on the last update and was like, ">O WHAT IS THAT?!" So I just pretty much hit "Post" without finishing my post. T_T But...yes, I have had my first heartbreak...ever. I think I've come to realize THAT is the worse feeling in the world. The pain is so freaking physical I can feel it hurting. But...he was so sweet about it, so I couldn't hate him. In a way, I wish he had done it hatefully, because maybe then I could have reacted differently. But instead he told me he loved and adored me as a friend, and he'd like to think we could be together, but it just wouldn't work. So I took my broken heart, and I still talk to him. But I don't tell him I love him anymore. He broke me down completely. One of the few people that had the power, and he abused it. -she sighed- XxIn other sad newsxX My Aunt Died on Friday. Yesterday was the Receiving of Friends and Today was the Funeral. I had to miss work yesterday for the Receiving of Friends, and do you know what my work had the AUDACITY TO SAY?! That I need a signed not from the director of the Funeral HOME SAYING I WAS THERE! Dx WHAT KIND OF RUDE MF'ERS ASK SOMETHING OF THAT?! -she huffed- But the ceremony was sad today. I didn't cry, and I feel awful, because everyone else did. I just wasn't that close to my aunt, even though she raised me. I mean, I Feel horrible that she died, but I didn't cry. =/ Does that make me a bad person? Anyway, that's all in the world of Shadow. Here is the piccie, but I'm too lazy to get lyrics. xD What is says: "How can I fly? With broken wings How Can I soar? my wildest dreams How can I reach? The top of the world? How can I say? Those lovely words How can I sing? If there's no tune How can I be happy? If you cause my life to doom How can I feel safe? If my life is full of fears How can I cry? If there's not tears Its titled broken Love. I thought it was appropriate. ~Shadow~

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Friday, January 26, 2007

   Cellie was FACE RAPED BY KUMA KUMA!!! D:

Time: 9:19 a.m. Mood: Heartbroken Listening To: Absolutely nothing. YES. Hello people. I am alive. YAY. Well, sort of. At this point actually I sort of wish I wasn't. Or at least couldn't feel. But...GOOD NEWS FIRST! And NO I am not off work tonight. T_T I went over to Cellie's house(celestial69 for those of you who DON'T KNOW ) and we played around and she has a Kumagoro plushie from the anime/yaoi Gravitation. I LOVE THIS BUNNY. So I'm laying on the bed, and I have him on my lap, standing and I'm making him do pelvic thrusts, and Cellie walks by so I sit up and shove his crotch right in her face, screaming, "FACE RAPE!" xDDDDDD But...we had fun. Then I had to leave. And...on another note. I must goo. So my heartbroken reason shall have to wait.

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Friday, January 19, 2007

   Always Wondered What Happened When I'd BreakDown

Time: 9:02 a.m. Mood: Depressed/Not So Stressed Listening To: The incessant typing of my new compy class. XxBreakDownxX Yes, Ladies and Gentlemen, I finally broke down. I finally went over the edge. I had two panic attacks and a complete mental breakdown on Wednesday. So today, I went and dropped a major class to help with my stress because I refuse to give up my job. Hence the me sitting in my new Computer Applications class which will be very simple and not at all hard, and it gives me free time to work upon my homework and the such when I finish in fiteen minutes. But...I only have one class now with my fibby, and that makes me even more depressed than I was before. But...it can't be helped. XxOthernewsxX Two people quit at my work last night. Or rather, one got fired, the other walked out. The guy that quit almost made me cry. -she sighed- I really liked him(As a friend, durka dur) alot. But now...I don't know. I said I was just ready to give up. But I don't really want to do that. I think I just need a nice long break from the stress. Which I will get this..summer. T_T Anyway, I'm off for now. I'll leave you with some lyrics of a new favorite song of mine by Marilyn Manson even though I'm not listening to it. Its called "This is the new Shit" Anyways, over and out, and I apologize for no picture. ^^' XxLyricsxX "This is the New Shit" - Marilyn Manson Everything has been said before There's nothing left to say anymore When it's all the same You can ask for it by name Babble babble bitch bitch Rebel rebel party party Sex sex sex and don't forget the "violence" Blah blah blah got your lovey-dovey sad-and-lonely Stick your STUPID SLOGAN in: Everybody sing along. Babble babble bitch bitch Rebel rebel party party Sex sex sex and don't forget the "violence" Blah blah blah got your lovey-dovey sad-and-lonely Stick your STUPID SLOGAN in: Everybody sing, Are you motherfuckers ready For the new shit? Stand up and admit, tomorrow's never coming. This is the new shit. Stand up and admit. Do we get it? No. Do we want it? Yeah. This is the new shit, Stand up and admit. Babble babble bitch bitch Rebel rebel party party Sex sex sex and don't forget the "violence" Blah blah blah got your lovey-dovey sad-and-lonely Stick your STUPID SLOGAN in: Everybody sing along. Everything has been said before There's nothing left to say anymore When it's all the same You can ask for it by name Are you motherfuckers ready For the new shit? Stand up and admit, tomorrow's never coming. This is the new shit. Stand up and admit. Do we get it? No. Do we want it? Yeah. This is the new shit, Stand up and admit. And now it's "you know who" I got the "you know what" I stick it "you know where" You know why, you don't care. And now it's "you know who" I got the "you know what" I stick it "you know where" You know why, you don't care. Babble babble bitch bitch Rebel rebel party party Sex sex sex and don't forget the "violence" Blah blah blah got your lovey-dovey sad-and-lonely Stick your STUPID SLOGAN in: Everybody sing. Are you motherfuckers ready For the new shit? Stand up and admit, tomorrow's never coming. This is the new shit. Stand up and admit. Do we get it? No. Do we want it? Yeah. This is the new shit, Stand up and admit. So, LET US ENTERTAIN YOU LET US ENTERTAIN YOU... Blah blah blah blah everybody sing along (Btw, I think I'm just going to start posting key points of the song, instead of the whole son, but I thought I'd ask what you guys thought, so what should I do? ) ~Shadow~

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Tuesday, January 16, 2007

   You Are about as straight as a Rainbow. With unicorns on it. ^.~

Time: 6:04 a.m.(Or that's what the school clock says, its probably around 9:04 a.m) Mood: Frustrated/Happy/Stressed Listening To: OMG THE BUZZING IN MY EARS HURT! D: Me: OYFG!!!!!!!!!!!!!! D:< -rampage about- Jean-Claude: Mon amour, did they take your mobile phone as well. Me: o.O; Jean-Claude? Where's Sesshomaru and Naraku? Jean-Claude: -shifty glance- Er...with...your Fib, ma chere. Me: OH. Ok, YES! THAT is EXACTLY why I'm OYFGing about. D: Stupid school taking my cell phone, causing me to get sick over stressful situations, I should SUE! Jean-Claude: ...But...Ma cher- Me: -throws her pocky stick at him- NO! Don't say I should not blame the school because I have too much computer time! I WILL SUE!!!!! Dx Jean-Claude: ...-grumbles- Silly little American... Me: WHAT?! I'll show you Silly, NO SEX FOR YOU! Jean-Claude: -pause- ...QUOI?! (What?!) Me: You heard me. xP Jean-Claude: MA CHERE. If you will not give it willingly, I shall take it. >:D -stalk- Me: O.O;;;; -slid to him, and clung- Ok Ok. You can have it. JEEZ. Jean-Claude: *thought: Everytime, ma chere, you fall for that.* -fanged grin- Anything else happen ma chere? Me: MHMM. I met a guy online last night that was into Bondage and EdgePlay. Jean-Claude: O.O;;;;; Edgeplay? MA CHERE THAT IS NOT APPROPRIATE FOR SOMEONE WITH AS DELICATE SKIN AS YOU. Me: But...Jean-Claude...you bite me...-she pouted- What's the difference? Jean-Claude: Plenty. Edgeplay...is...dangerous. Me: Not if its done right. Besides, I think being cut while having sex would just add to it. D: You only bite me during sex. Jean-Claude: shhhh, not so loud ma chere we are in public. Me: >.< Oh right. Anyway, yes, I met a guy, and he is awesometastic...but he lives in Oregon. D: Always so far away. He's hot though. ^.~ And really, that's all there is to know today. So I shall bid you adieu and I am scuttling off with my rainbow-squishing lover. ^_^ Jean-Claude: Does that make me a unicorn then? -eyebrow raise- Me: No you whore. Makes you my LOVER. Durka Dur. Jean-Claude: Ah, you flatter me ma chere. Calling me a whore is always so sweet when you say it. Me: ...I hate you. -they both bow and slid out- *NOTE* (Sorry if that wasn't entertaining, I was bored. D: ) ~Shadow~

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Friday, January 12, 2007

   Overstressed, made myself sick.

Time: 2:13 p.m. Mood: Sickly/relaxing Listening To: Alter Bridge- "Broken Wings" OMG. I overstressed and passed out and made myself sick! HOW STUPID CAN I BE?! D: So now I have a viral infection and am on complete bedrest! Its ridiculous, but at least, now I can get to sites! Hopefully, I'm supposed to be at school by Tuesday(since there's no school on Monday because of Holiday)but we shall see. D: Nothing new has happened much, and I'm cutting my post short so I can visit your all's sites! D: I promise I'll try to update more often as well, but I hate updating if i can't get to sites. Anyway, here is the pic of the day: I love this picture. XxLyricsxX "Broken Wings" - Alter Bridge Fight the fight alone When the world is full of victims Dims a fading light In our souls Leave the peace alone How we all are slowly changing Dims a fading light In our souls In my opinion seeing is to know The things we hold Are always first to go And who's to say We won't end up alone [CHORUS] On broken wings I'm falling And it won't be long The skin on me is burning By the fires of the sun On skinned knees I'm bleeding And it won't be long I've got to find that meaning And I'll search for so long Cry ourselves to sleep We will sleep alone forever Will you lay me down In the same place with all I love Mend the broken homes Care for them they are our brothers Save the fading light in our souls In my opinion seeing is to know What you give Will always carry you And who's to say We won't survive it too [CHORUS] Set a-free all Relying on their will To make me all that I am And all that I'll be Set a-free all Will fall between the cracks With memories of all that I am And all that I'll be [CHORUS] PEACE OUT! ~Shadowtiger~

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Tuesday, January 2, 2007

   LIKE OMG TRUE BLUE UPDATE!

Time: 4:03 p.m. Mood: Stressed/Lonely Listening To: "Walk Away"-Paula Deanda Ok, true blue update, then quick site visits and I'm out for a little while. School starts back tomorrow, and I have to work ontop of it all! >O God bless it! -curses and the such behind the screen- Right, anyway, on with the post! A recap of Christmas and New Year! XxChristmasxX Christmas was bittersweet this year, I suppose. With us having left our dad, I wasn't close to him, but, I was close to his parents, or my grandparents. About a month and a half ago, I wrote a letter to my grandma telling her that if she wanted a relationship with me, that she could call me, and we'd meet and have one, but not with my dad. I'd NEVER see him again. She never wrote back and I always saw her for Christmas, so this year it was hard. But I really enjoyed my Christmas at my grandma's. The highlight of my presents was this set of Three Swords that I got for Christmas, that I almost cut my face off with when I tried to unsheath the full lenght samurai sword. But I love them. XxNew YearxX I spent my new year at Ceekari's and her parents had a party. IT WAS HILARIOUS. I loved staying at Ceekari's. her and her little sister Ryuu-Kiba, were awesometastic. And Flueky and Mitzy were there as well. WE all played with the Wii Cee got for Christmas. And I stole Ryuu's Nintendo DS and played her Harvest Moon! xD MY Two New Years Resolutions: 1. To Grow Up 2. To Learn to Let Go. But yeah, that's the highlight of my break. The rest was spent working and the such I suppose. Sleeping. God, so much sleeping. =3 But anyway, I guess that's all. LOVE YOU GUYS!!!! =D Here's the Pic of the Day: (I'm in a romantic mood today as well. ^.~ ) XxLyricsxX "Walk Away" - Paula Deanda I'm gonna remember you, you're gonna remember me I'm gonna remember you, you're gonna remember me I'm gonna remember you, you're gonna remember me Yeah, I'm gonna remember you, you're gonna remember me I saw you with your new girl just yesterday And I feel that I must confess Even though it kills me to have to say I'll admit that I was impressed PHYSICALLY JUST SHORT OF PERFECTION Gotta commend you on your selection Though I know I shouldn't be concerned In the back of my mind I can't help but question Does she rub your feet When you've had a long day And scratch your scalp When you take out your braids Does she know that you like to play PS2 'Til 6 in the morning like I do I can't explain this feeling (yeah) I think about it everyday And even though we've moved on (uh huh) It gets so hard to walk away I'm gonna remember you, you're gonna remember me Walk away (Forever you will live in my memory) Walk away I'm gonna remember you, you're gonna remember me Walk away I can't forget how we used to be I guess I have to live my life from day to day Hoping maybe you'll come back I know I tell myself not to be afraid to move on But it seems I can't Though my new man is giving me attention It ain't the same as your affection Though I know that I should be content In the back of my mind I can't help but question Does he kiss me on my forehead Before we lay Show up on my doorstep With a bouquet Does he call me in the middle of the day Just to say baby I love you like you used to I can't explain this feeling (I can't explain) (yeah) I think about it everyday (everyday) And even though we've moved on (moved on) (uh huh) It gets so hard to walk away I'm gonna remember you, you're gonna remember me Walk away (walk away) (Forever you will live in my memory) Walk away I'm gonna remember you, you're gonna remember me Walk away, yeah I can't forget how we used to be I'm gonna remember you You're gonna remember me The things we did, the way we share our fantasies Just you and me, my friend, my love, my family How did we lose the love that seemed meant to be Sometimes I kiss her, wish that it was you that I was kissin' Sometimes I miss him, wish that it was you that I'm missin' Sometimes I hug her, wish that it was you that I was huggin' And I realize how much I'm buggin I miss you So how do I express this feeling 'Cause nobody compares to you And you know that she'll never love you like I do I'm gonna remember you, you're gonna remember me -sighs- Story of my love life, that song is. ... ~Shadowtiger~

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Monday, January 1, 2007

   OH NOES!

Time: 3:25 p.m. Mood: Confuzzled/Busy Busy Listening To: Tardmousses play Monkey Balls on the Wii. I JUST WANTED TO LET EVERYONE KNOW I AM ALIVE AND HAVE NOT FORGOTTEN. I HAVE JUST BEEN BUSY BUSY AND ALL THIS! TT-TT So how was everyone's Christmas and New Year's?

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