Thursday, October 5, 2006

   YARR TIS HOMECOMING WEEK AT MY SCHOOL!!!!

Time: 5:49 p.m. Mood: Happy/sad Listening To: TheUsed-All That I've Got Yes...it is Homecoming Week for our school. Here are the days as follows(and yes...I know its thursday, shush and read) Monday- Twin Day(this was a retard day...>>;;;) Tuesday- Superhero(Did I mention that it gets worse?) Wednesday- Generation Day (we juniors had the 70's) Thursday(today)- PIRATE DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Twas mine and Cellie's favorite day. ^^ Friday- Is of course Spirit Day and our Homecoming game! Woohoo...-so thrilled, rolls her eyes- Sense the sarcasm?? But anyway......moving on. Yeah...I'm happy but sad at the same time. Or maybe Lonely is the appropriate word. I mean, I've got my friends as usual. But I still feel like...disconnected from them all. I can't seem to feel a bond. I mean, I love them all to death, and they are great and everything, but I just can't seem to I don't know, feel comfy around them anymore. -sighs- Story of my life at the moment. Anyway, other than that, I'm happy. And how does everyone like my theme??? Hot, huh? xD Gerard rox my sox people!!!! Anyway, that's all for now, and how are you guys? Piccies of the day: And I feel like that I have to post the lyrics to the song I'm listening to, it kinda describes how I feel at the moment: "All That I've Got" -TheUsed So deep, that it didn't even bleed and catch me Off guard, red handed Now I'm far from lonely Asleep, I still see you lying next to me So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me, I... I need something else Would someone please just give me Hit me, knock me out And let me go back to sleep I can laugh All I want inside I still am empty So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me, I... [Chorus:] I'll be just fine Pretending I'm not I'm far from lonely And it's all that I've got I'll be just fine Pretending I'm not I'm far from lonely And it's all that I've got I guess, I remember every glance you shot me Unharmed, I'm losing weight and some body heat I squoze so hard I stopped your heart from beating So deep that I didn't even scream "FUCK ME", I.. [Chorus:] I'll be just fine Pretending I'm not I'm far from lonely And it's all that I've got I'll be just fine Pretending I'm not I'm far from lonely And it's all that I've got And it's all that I've got Yeah, it's all that I've got It's all that I've got It's all that I've got It's all that I've got So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me So deep that I didn't even scream "FUCK ME" [Chorus:] I'll be just fine Pretending I'm not I'm far from lonely And it's all that I've got I'll be just fine Pretending I'm not I'm far from lonely And it's all that I've got And it's all that I've got It's all that I've got You don't even have to read if you don't want...half of you probably won't anyway. Tis ok...see you guys on the next update. ~Shadow-chan

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Wednesday, October 4, 2006

   I'm Tired...quick update....

Time: 10:35 p.m. Mood: Horrid/depressed Listening to: my cousin play Grand Theft Auto in the background Oh joy, I finally finished my site. Quick update before I go to bed. How is everyone? Do you like the changes? If there is anything wrong, let me know. Um...I'm not doing too well at the moment, but I'll tell you guys about it in my normal post tomorrow. Right now, its sorta late, and I have to go shower and go to bed for school in the morning. I will update and check sites tomorrow. PROMISE! SO GOODNIGHT AND SLEEP TIGHT EVERYONE!!!! ~Shadow-chan

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Monday, September 25, 2006

   -yawns- So damn sleepy...e.e

Time: 11:57 a.m. Listening To: "It Ends Tonight" AllAmerican Rejects Mood: Tired/Melancholy Quick update. Last post...was...lemme see...-lookies- Oh yeah. About the guy, I just sorta gave up on him. Starting today, we don't have any classes, let alone, LUNCH together anymore. So its kinda pointless. Then you know he's got a girlfriend, and all that jazz, so yeah. -shrugs- I'm ok with it, I just let it go, and move on with it. So...how was everyone's weekend? Mine was good. ^^;;; Saturday, me and my mom and cousin went to see the Covenant. Hmm...twas ok. I liked it, but I was sort of disappointed in the storyline. The acting was overall good and stuff(mostly cause there was the group of hot guys *AHEM*) Afterwards, we walked around the mall, and I met this guy(friend only thank you, he's a bit too old for anything like that, and besides, he done told me he likes girls around his own age. >>;; And he's 19 you people before you think anything else...jeez...) But anyway, he tagged along with our little group and it was the first time I had met him EVER. We had talked online for about 5 months and then I spent the last week talking to him on the phone for like 6 hours at a time. (no exageration) But yeah. and He's really nice, my mom likes him, so that's always a good sign she'll let me hang out with him. ^^;;; Then Sunday we went to Dollywood Amusemant Park. I rode my first rollercoaster....my first two...2 times for the first, 3 for the second. All in the pouring rain. It rained all day, but that didn't matter. -shrugs- It was fun, I will have to post pictures once I get them loaded and everything! ^^ But other than that, nothing special happened. I'm skipping school today(gasp) because I'm so tired, and I have like a bunch of homework to do...so basically I've slept and worked all day...-looks back up- Wow...that's really not a quick post, is it? I'm sorry...^^;;; Anyway, here are the days piccies, and I will try to get to everyone's sites. I've been slacking off again, I know. Shame Shame on me. I'm sorry again. See you all!!!! ~Shadow-chan P.S: oh yeah, almost forgot the pics. ^_^;;; The theme for today is funny kitties!!!! MY FAVORITE! I HAS SNOW!!!! -glomps it- hehehehe AWW...it looks like HELP MEE....-squeaky voice- then a couple of different ones (Yeah..I know my tastes run weird today) And to end it off with a question(YAY!!!) I was thinking of changing my site to a non-anime site for a little while, I want to know if you guys would care or not, or if it would affect you visiting and such???? Gerard Way...my new obsession...^^

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Thursday, September 21, 2006

   OH DANNY BOY....where have the COOOKIES gone...?

o.O; Sorry...erm...random moment there. So anyway, hopping right into todays post, Anyone been to Ceekari's site since she updated? If not, then you should know that she was hijacked by a little chicken on her way home from college. xD It was so funny. (I love you Cee <3 ) OK...OK...moving on...no piccies at the moment(sorry I'm at school) Well...I might add one or two(if I can hack the IP address...x.X) ANYWAY...MOVING ON...I suppose I'm doing better. I'm feeling a bit reflective and down today, mostly cause I saw him at lunch...-sighs- MEH...I don't want to talk about it...so I shall bombard you people with sappy PICTURES!!!! Have a nice day, and I will get to sites tonight(PROMISE!) Yeah..I know this one is a little racy...Sorry. ^^;;; Ok...that's all for now! see you on the next update! ~shadow-chan

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Wednesday, September 20, 2006

   I dont' know what mood I'm in.

Not lots has happened since I last updated...I'm feeling a bit random, and a bit BLAH...><;;; I suppose I shall just let everyone know I'm ok, and make sure everyone else is doing ok. ^^ Anyway...I'm doing fine...-does a little twirl...on the catwalk- ^.~ Alrighty then...so how's the rest of you people out there? Make sure you comment even if its just a hiya I'm fine. XD I LURVE the comments. I CRAVE THEM...just like pizza. o.O; See you on the next update and sorry there aren't any piccies. I shall post some tomorrow. ~Shadow-chan

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Saturday, September 16, 2006

   Even though the 10 day bad run is over I still have depressing news...

Yesterday afternoon I was finally going to have a talk with the guy I like, and tell him how I felt. Now everyone(including me) were trying to figure out if he had a girlfriend or not. Well, during lunch yesterday(I have lunch with him everyday with a bunch of my other friends) he's sitting there messing around with the girl that told him I liked him(they are good friends and always annoy the hell out of me.) He started talking and messing around with me...and then this girl walks over and says something to him, and then points at the table behind us, and he turn really red...cause his girlfriend had seen what he was doing, and he didn't even know his girlfriend was in the same lunch!!! -_-'' Point being he has a girlfriend....so I shall keep my mouth shut for a little while, sit back and watch what happens. -small sigh- I'm also going to the first fair that I will ever go to. We leave in about two hours. It's around 8 a.m. here. ^^;;; Anyway, I'm off to visit some of your sites, and if you have any friends, send them my way, I still need 2 guestbook entries so I can have 200!!! =D Here are a couple of piccies for the day: Thought I would give the girls some guy piccies.(with the exception of the first one of course) ^^;;;;; See you on the next update! ~shadow-chan

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Thursday, September 14, 2006

   Day 10 of my Bad day run...things actually are looking up...d^.^b

Hey people...thank you for the comments. Much appreciated. First of all I am two gb entries away from 200 so w00t w00t!!! Also...the guy found out I liked him today...I can't believe my friend told him right in front of me...><;;; I could've died. But it was funny...because she said to him, "Shadow wants to brush your hair..." and he was like, "O.o;;; Why? Is it Tangly?!" I was like, "O.O;;; xD -bursts out laughing-" then she said, "Oh yeah...she likes you..." I blushed...got up and left the cafeteria...didn't come back til he went outside...to erm...smoke...(yes its a bad habit he has I know...-_-'') So yeah...and tomorrow me and Celestial69 will be meeting to over our homework and share our answers! ^^;;; But yeah. that was pretty much my day. I also made up with my online friend. He unblocked me and we had a nice long talk. ^__^ Now...time for the piccies!!!!!!!! Enjoy: Ok this first one I need to give credit to because this is not mine. This goes to www.bottledtalent.com This is a piece of artwork that this person that own this site did and this person has some very beautiful fanart and original as well. I suggest you check it out. Some of it is so KAWAII!!! ^^;;; This one is my favorite...and the last one of the day...^^;;; Ok...see you on the next update! ~shadow-chan

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Tuesday, September 12, 2006

   Day 8 of my bad day run...I hope its almost over...;_;

Yes people it has gotten worse. I don't know how in the world it could've have gotten worse, but it did...and fyi I'm at school and tomorrow's post will be nothing but Pictures. ^^;;; I apologize for the dramatic posts with no piccies to give you a break at the end, but I have to get it all out somehow and the otaku seems like the best place for it, so please bear with me...and gomen, I promise to get to everyone's sites today. -bows- Anyway. I suppose I should start with yesterday afternoon. I found out that the guy I like(who was the same guy I talked about in the whole last post) he may have a girlfriend. But today I found out he might not. ><;;; Its so frustrating for me I wish they would make up their minds...the people I get my info from. I should just go ask him myself and be done with it...;_; But I'm afraid too. Anyway, I get home and I get online and I've not mentioned I met a new online friend and his name is Cal and me and him got into a big fight and he blocked me from chatting with him and that broke my heart and made me really sad as well, and so I finally broke down and cried. But then my other online friend Tom cheered me up =D But yeah that was my day. Today...the guy I like was throwing quarters at me today...><;;; What a dork. ^^;;; No worries. I'll get him back after school. ^.~ Now I have to go and visit some sites before I go home and finish. I hope to hear from you all soon and see you on the next update....-wave- ~Shadow-chan

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Sunday, September 10, 2006

   Day 6 of my bad day run....

I'm sorry I'm on a friend laptop and there won't be any pics...just a long post depicting my great and unusual time at the football game Friday Night and then the Formal I had yesterday evening. FRIDAY NIGHT: We lost the football game Cel-chan got to go with me though, the halftime show was awesome, and I got into a water fight with the guy I like. It was very funny...I even threatened to follow him into the boys Bathroom if he didn't come back out and he did and it was with a handful of water...;_; we chased each other like fools in and out of the school until my mom saw me and told me we were leaving. And earlier, teh same guy had pinched the hell out of my arm so hard I bruised and I told him and he was like, 'O.O;;; Fuck...I'm sorry...-HUG-' And I was like, "OMG he hugged me...o.O;;;" and the other people were looking at me and him funny cause he never hugs or apologizes to anyone...I still have doubts that he doesn't like me back the way I want him too...;_; SATURDAY NIGHT: I had a formal full of semi-drunk teens and people pretty much having sex with their clothes on...><;;; three people were arrested for being drunk and underage...I was like...RETARDS...but the guy I was like showed up and I was surprised cause he doesn't seem the type to do formals but he was there with another girl...but he kept staring at ME...and I was like...WTF MAN? and I gave him back a look that said what are you staring at? o.o;;; But yeah...then there was drama and now my friend is going to tell him that I really like him on Monday if he didn't tell him after I left...;_; I'm scared...I don't want to know if he does or not because if he doesn't I'll cry...cause he's the first guy in a long while that I've actually really thought about trying to make a go of it...going out and stuff...-sighs- But anyway, there's my weekend for short...so hows yours been? see ya on the next update... ~Shadow

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Wednesday, September 6, 2006

   For every 1 good day I have, I have 10 bad ones....

Mood: Depressed/I-don't-care Listening to: Three Days Grace CD One-X "Never Too Late" and "Let it Die" Day two of my bad day run... So before I start my "Pathetic Mewlings" as someone has so graciously referred to my problems as in the recent past *sarcasm*...How is everyone? Hope you guys are at least doing a bit better than I am. -bows- Its day two of my Ten Bad Days...I hope that tomorrow can only be better and Friday even better but what hope do I have of that...? I'm fighting with my mom, feeling ungrateful and selfish and acting like a crack addict who can't get their fix, except mine is of the internet. I've been trying to tone it down, but I lose track of the time and will be on it for hours at a time, and my mom says that is a no-no. And then me and her get into it, and I'm like -_-'' FINE! Then I have no room to go to so I lock myself in the downstairs kitchen and bawl my eyes out for three and a half hours, then go back upstairs, shower and then go to bed. That was my evening last night. Ever since we left my dad, I've tried to be happier, and everyone has said that I even LOOK happier, but then I have feelings like this. These absurd doubts and fears that everyone is annoyed with me, and that everyone is going to leave, and I feel like that the situation I am in is just simply not enough...but for god's sake, I'm going to London, Paris, and Rome this summer, My grades are up, and my friends are acting just like they always do: concerned, caring, and there for me. But I just feel like something is missing, or I don't fit in anymore...but when I try to go off and be alone, either someone follows or I feel WORSE...it makes no sense. I blame it all on PMS and hormones. Still doesn't change the fact that I feel this way though...I just want to be happy...now I can have that happiness and finally throw off my depression and all that negative junk, but it seems to hit me harder now than before... -takes a deep breath and waves at everyone- Ok...people...I think that is more than enough today... here are some more piccies(Sorry if there isn't alot, I just don't feel very...piccie like today): And one last funny one thrown in there... See you on the next update...-waves- ~Shadow-chan

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