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Birthday
• 1990-04-25
Gender
• Female
Location
• In L's Pants!!!! ;3
Member Since
• 2005-08-29
Occupation
• I'm a Student as well as working on perfecting my Journalism skills at our local Newspaper.
Real Name
• Kyrie.

Personal

Achievements
• Learning to read?
Anime Fan Since
• 1994
Favorite Anime
• Too many to count. More into Manga now.
Goals
• So succeed in life, and never take things for granted.
Hobbies
• making collages and writing(typing)
Talents
• I can lick my nose. Ha!

myOtaku.com: shadowtiger69

Wednesday, September 6, 2006

For every 1 good day I have, I have 10 bad ones....

Mood: Depressed/I-don't-care
Listening to: Three Days Grace CD One-X "Never Too Late" and "Let it Die"

Day two of my bad day run...

So before I start my "Pathetic Mewlings" as someone has so graciously referred to my problems as in the recent past *sarcasm*...How is everyone? Hope you guys are at least doing a bit better than I am.

-bows- Its day two of my Ten Bad Days...I hope that tomorrow can only be better and Friday even better but what hope do I have of that...? I'm fighting with my mom, feeling ungrateful and selfish and acting like a crack addict who can't get their fix, except mine is of the internet. I've been trying to tone it down, but I lose track of the time and will be on it for hours at a time, and my mom says that is a no-no. And then me and her get into it, and I'm like -_-'' FINE! Then I have no room to go to so I lock myself in the downstairs kitchen and bawl my eyes out for three and a half hours, then go back upstairs, shower and then go to bed. That was my evening last night.

Ever since we left my dad, I've tried to be happier, and everyone has said that I even LOOK happier, but then I have feelings like this. These absurd doubts and fears that everyone is annoyed with me, and that everyone is going to leave, and I feel like that the situation I am in is just simply not enough...but for god's sake, I'm going to London, Paris, and Rome this summer, My grades are up, and my friends are acting just like they always do: concerned, caring, and there for me. But I just feel like something is missing, or I don't fit in anymore...but when I try to go off and be alone, either someone follows or I feel WORSE...it makes no sense. I blame it all on PMS and hormones. Still doesn't change the fact that I feel this way though...I just want to be happy...now I can have that happiness and finally throw off my depression and all that negative junk, but it seems to hit me harder now than before...

-takes a deep breath and waves at everyone- Ok...people...I think that is more than enough today...

here are some more piccies(Sorry if there isn't alot, I just don't feel very...piccie like today):

And one last funny one thrown in there...

See you on the next update...-waves-
~Shadow-chan

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