Monday, November 12, 2007

update
hey everyone sry i haven't updated i haven't been in the mood and i'm actually grounded until thursday but i'm in a suicidal mood right now and i have been since yesterday. again it's all my dad's fault and now i have to wear a whole shit load of cover up and wear my hair in front of my eyes. good i'm so tired of this shit!
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Monday, November 5, 2007

Pain in the ass
hello everyone how r u! i am good ^^ i'm just having a hard time trying to find moving jigsaw icons! i love that puppet and that guy! anyways if u know a good site let me know
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Sunday, November 4, 2007

more about me
01) First name:
Everyone should know what that is by now and if u don’t it’s cho!

02) Your nickname in Otaku:
I don’t have one I go by my real name

03) Birthday:
April 3rd

04) Horoscope sign:
Aries

05) Birth town:
like I would tell u but I was born in Pennsylvania

06) Religion:
I’m sorry but I don’t believe in god so please don’t hate me, it’s just how I was raised *_*

07) Nationality:
White/Caucasian

08) Parents:
I got a mom and dad

09) Do you love them:
Kind of it depends

10) Brothers or sisters:
Younger sister

11) Do you like the place where you live:
No

12) Hair color:
Red

13) Color of your eyes:
Blue

14) Height:
5'1

15) What marks do you have:
I have scars

16) Do you work anywhere:
Not yet although i do need a job

17) What do you want to be in your life:
a comic book drawer I don’t know

18) Your life:
Boring

19) Personal quote:
bite me, bitch!

20) What are you interested in:
Writing and anime and drawing

21) Good side of your character:
I'm mostly a nice person, quite, calm and collective

22) Bad side of it:
If people piss me off, I become a real bitch

23) Is your life happy?
Hell no well sometimes

24) Do you think that you are crazy?
Yeah!! But I like that part of me.

25) What is the time?
8.55pm

26) What is the date?
November 4th, 2007

27) What's the weather like:
ugly and raining yet dark and depressing just the way I like it

28) Favorite day in a week:
Friday because the weekend’s almost over and my dad’s not off so I don’t have to deal with him. THANK GOD!

29) Favorite music:
Rock, Punk, Metal, Japanese

30) Band:
nightwish (i'm a freak that way)

31) Song:
end of all hope and bye bye beautiful!

32) Best concert you have been:
NIGHTWISH!

33) Actress:
Don't got one

34) Actor:
Don't got one

35) Film:
saw!!! go jigsaw!! I love all 3 but the first one was the best, but I also like blood Rayne and Tremors so…

36) TV series:
Sonic the hedgehog! I’m obsessed u should c my room! Sonic infested lol every corner there’s something of Sonic. Comics, plushies, a shadow pillow ect!

37) Theatre play:
who the hell knows, I hate theatre plays.

38) Film director:
no

39) Do you want to be famous?
No! I would hate to have people bugging me all day long. I deal with that enough with my sister, ayu and I would love to smack her!

40) Do you want to be an actor/actress:
No

41) Do you want to be a singer:
No

42) Book:
Full metal alchemist (not the graphic novels)

43) Food:
Pizza

44) Sweet:
I don’t eat much junk food I don’t eat much at all

45) Fruit:
Apples

46) The worst food:
Spinach

47) The Worst drink:
Rum! Man that taste like crap! it burned my throat!

48) The worst Singer:
Madonna (man what a slut!) in fact if it’s not heavy metal I wont listen to them, but I do like cascada (every time we touch)

49) The worst Band:
AC/DC pretty much the same reason why from above

50) The worst Actor:
Don’t know I don’t pay much attention to the acting

51) The worst Actress:
Don’t know (same reason)

52) The worst Movie:
alone in the dark (hated that movie except for the ending credits because they played Nightwish!)

53) The worst book:
?

54) Do you drink alcohol:
No but it does taste good lol don’t get the wrong idea!

55) Do you smoke:
No why would I!

56) Do you take some drugs:
No crazy people would if they wanted to screw up their brains and the inside of their noses lol

57) What do you adore to wear:
anything black and red and anime like but mostly black and red. Maybe even black and purple. Goth colors. I mean that’s what I am, right? i am a goth

58) Do you think you're pretty:
Heh, no. I mean who does, because people who think to highly of themselves is a little insane. Everybody’s got to hate one thing about themselves, but I hate everything about myself so…

59) What language(s) do you speak:
English, and some Japanese, still teaching myself and I’m learning by using my Chobit cds lol

60) The most beautiful(Hot) person you have ever seen/male:
My boyfriend, Derek!! OMG I love him so much!

61) The most beautiful person you have ever seen/female:
I have idea, I think everyone is beautiful in their own way lol I’m not crazy! It’s just how I feel!

62) The most beautiful person on otaku/male:
dragoncheif

63) The most beautiful person on otaku/female:
?

64) 5 your best friends on otaku/male:
dragoncheif

65) 5 your best friends on otaku/female:
Hiei twachi, serpant and knuckles joycelin

66) The ugliest person on otaku/male:
I don’t know like anyone gives off pictures of themselves and even if they did that would be mean!

67) The ugliest person on otaku/female:
same as above

68) The person on otaku who you love the most/female
Tough disscioun between all of my friends because I love all of they mean more to me then my family and my life(friend wise) lol

69) The person on otaku who you love the most/male?
It would be Derek I LUV U!

70) The person on otaku who you don't like at all/female:
I don’t know

71) The person on otaku who you don't like at all/male:
Read above ^^

72) Are you in love?:
Yes

73) Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend:
I have a boyfriend

74) How does he/she looks like:
He looks really cute.

75) Is he/she from otau:
Yes it's dragoncheif

76) When was your Very First Kiss?:
?

77) How was it:
?

78) E-mail address:
shadrougeluver@gmail.com

79) Do you wear glasses?
I’m suppose to but I hate them and I threw them in my closet

80) The best experience in your life:
when i firstgot my rabbit, Midnight! i love him so much! when i got thumper and my boyfriend

81) The worst experience in your life:
My life’s pretty miserable except when I’m on the com. midnight died last month

82) When were you the happiest:
When I met Derek

83) When were you the saddest:
When I see the ones I care about get hurt in front of me and I’m to weak to do anything about it

84) Who do you want to go on deserted island with:
With my boyfriend and my friends because then I could spend more time with them

85) Do you have a secret?:
In fact my whole life is like one big secret

86) What would you do if you were invisible for one hour:
Get revenge on those that hurt me, my friends and my sister. Like they would get away with it! One way or the other they will get what they deserve. Even if it’s from me or someone else

87) Who's the last person you've spent time with?
My DAD!

89)Do you have an idol?
Yes it’s jigsaw! I love that guy! lol all hail jigsaw!

90)If the world goes to apocalypse, and you can save only one person:
man tough discion between my friends and bf lol so I guess I would risk myself for them because they mean more to me then myself.


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Thursday, November 1, 2007

   bye bye beautiful-a shadrouge fic
Cha.1 Bye bye beautiful!

“I’m going out tonight with the rest of the Chaotic, will you be here?” Rouge asked Shadow as she washed the dishes.

“yeah,” Shadow said and stood up from the kitchen table, “yeah I’m be here.”

Rouge listened as Shadow left the room and she frowned, ‘what happened to us? Ever since we got married we’ve been pushed further from each other.’

Finally the hills are without eyes
They are tired of painting a dead man’s face
Red with their own blood
They used to love having so much to lose
Blink your eyes just once and see everything in ruins

Shadow quickly wrote a note and read over it a few times before laying it down, tears streaming down his cheeks, ‘I’m sorry,’ he thought.

Did you ever hear what I told you?
Did you ever read what I wrote you?
Did you ever listen to what we played?
Did you ever let in what the world said?
Did we get this far just to feel your hate?
Did we play to become only pawns in the game?
How blind can you be, don't you see?
You chose the long road, but we'll be waiting

By the time Rouge got home, she realized that Shadow was gone and that he had left a note for her. She picked it up and read it before realizing what it meant and she dropped her bag that was in her hand.


Bye bye, beautiful
Die die, beautiful

“No,” she said and fell to her knees, “why? Why did he leave?” tears streamed down her cheeks and she placed her hand near her mouth, “why now?”


Jacob’s ghost for the girl in white
for the blinded siblings wanting the dying hearth
Lose around a choking heart eternally torn apart
So toll now the funeral bell

Shadow stood by a tree, rain streamed down his face, mixing with his tears. He thought back to the note and he wanted to know how she reacted to it.

‘Rouge?’ Shadow thought, ‘how do you feel about me now? Do you hate me?’


I need to die
to true a lie

“Shadow?” Rouge mumbled and she looked at her hands like there was blood on them, “why?!” she screamed and punched the floor, “dammit where did it all go wrong?!”


Did you ever hear what I told you?
Did you ever read what I wrote you?
Did you ever listen to what we played?
Did you ever let in what the world said?
Did we get this far just to feel your hate?
Did we play to become only pawns in the game?
How blind can you be, don't you see?
You chose the long road, but we'll be waiting

“I’m sorry,” Shadow said to himself and he opened his eyes, “it wasn’t working out for us, Rouge. It was never meant to be anything real, we should’ve just stayed friends.’

Images of Rouge flashed into Shadow’s mind and he sighed, ‘we were never happy anyway, but who’s to blame for that?’


Bye bye, beautiful
Die die, beautiful
Bye bye, beautiful
Die die, beautiful

‘I feel so empty now,’ Rouge thought still sitting in the middle of the floor with tears in her eyes, ‘am I the cause? Was I the reason? Who was the cost to this hell?’


It's not the tree that forsakes the flower
Not the flower that forsakes the tree
Some day I'll learn to love this dance

‘It just wasn’t meant to work,’ Shadow told himself and he looked back at the path he had followed. To him, it was a long and dark path.

He turned around and he slowly walked further away from the apartment. He had the choice to turn back, but he kept walking anyway.


How blind can you be, don't you see?
How blind can you be, don't you see?
How blind can you be, don't you see
That the gambler lost all he does not have

Rouge stood up and she walked to her window, hoping to see Shadow return home, but there was no sign of him. That made her cry even more as the thought of her husband walking out on her became unbearable.

She gave off a gasp when she noticed Shadow outside her window and she smiled warmly, “Shadow.”

Did you ever hear what I told you?
Did you ever read what I wrote you?
Did you ever listen to what we played?
Did you ever let in what the world said?
Did we get this far just to feel your hate?
Did we play to become only pawns in the game?
How blind can you be, don't you see?
You chose the long road, but well be waiting

“You came back,” she said and she watched him from outside her window, “he came back!”

Rouge threw open the window and she poked her head out, the rain hitting her face. It was hard to tell which was the rain and which was the tears hitting her red face, “Shadow!” she called with joy.

Shadow slowly turned around and he began to walk away, Rouge gasped and she wept harder, “Shadow!” she wept through a scream.


Bye bye, beautiful
Die die, beautiful

“Shadow! Please, Shadow, don’t! Don’t do this!” she continued to plea through tears, “shadow! Shadow, stop!”

Rouge fell to her knees and the last words of the note echoed through her mind, leaving her sobbing even more.


Bye bye, beautiful
Die die, die die!

THE END


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Wednesday, October 31, 2007

   todays quiz
[] You hate the world
[] You hate society.
[] You think vampires are cool.
[] You write poetry.
[ ] You have colored your hair black Halloween
[] You wear black/blue eyeliner>> black and blue but not at the same time
[] You write poetry that's not for school
[] You are freakishly obsessed with darkness.
[] You think love is a waste of time.
[] You've given up on the world.

Total =

[] You've shopped at Hot Topic
[] You've spent over $100 at Hot Topic.
[] You wear more bracelets than a Russian Choker Spikes.
[] You own a dog collar, that's not for your dog.
[] You're extremely pale.
[] You are a member of a poetry site.
[] Your screen name has been an oxymoron.
[] You are an atheist or agnostic.
[] You don't believe in god.
[] Your screen name has/had X's in it.

Total =

[] You have been referred to as scary
[] You have been referred to as demented
[] You have been referred to as weird
[] You have been known to hate teachers.
[] You have been known to cause trouble.>>>I was a troublemaker at school.
[] Your hair has been dyed a color that was not natural.>>>urple
[]You have at least one photoshopped picture on myspace.
[] You think pictures look better in greyscale or sepia tone.
[] You are scared of yourself sometimes.

Total =

[] Suicide has crossed your mind.>>>I've attempted it a few times.
[] You have screamed before
[] You use big words that no one has ever heard before on occasion.
[] You've seen The Exorcist.
[] You liked The Exorcist.
[] You've seen Saw.
[] You liked Saw
[] You've done voodoo.
[] You hate sports.
[] You dress up as the most morbid thing possible on Halloween.

Total =

[] Halloween is one of your favorite holidays.
[] You have an obsession with fire.
[] You have only a couple of actual friends.
[ ] You're not afraid of spiders
[] You have had a conversation about how you want to die.
[] You've painted your nails black>>>almost all the time

Total =

[] One or more of your myspace pics had writing on them.
[] You have had the word "...." in your display name.
[] You love art.
[] You like art with negative meanings.

Total= 2

Multiply your total by 2

MY RESULTS!

[X] You hate the world
[X] You hate society.
[X] You think vampires are cool.
[X] You write poetry.
[X ] You have colored your hair black Halloween
[X] You wear black/blue eyeliner>> black and blue but not at the same time
[X] You write poetry that's not for school
[X] You are freakishly obsessed with darkness.
[] You think love is a waste of time.
[X] You've given up on the world.

Total = 9

[X] You've shopped at Hot Topic
[X] You've spent over $100 at Hot Topic.
[] You wear more bracelets than a Russian Choker Spikes.
[] You own a dog collar, that's not for your dog.
[X] You're extremely pale.
[X] You are a member of a poetry site.
[] Your screen name has
been an oxymoron.
[X] You are an atheist or agnostic.
[X] You don't believe in god.
[X] Your screen name has/had X's in it.

Total = 7

[X] You have been referred to as scary
[X] You have been referred to as demented
[X] You have been referred to as weird
[X] You have been known to hate teachers.
[X] You have been known to cause trouble.>>>I was a troublemaker at school.
[X] Your hair has been dyed a color that was not natural.>>>urple
[]You have at least one photoshopped picture on myspace.
[X] You think pictures look better in greyscale or sepia tone.
[X] You are scared of yourself sometimes.

Total = 8

[X] Suicide has crossed your mind.>>>I've attempted it a few times.
[X] You have screamed before
[X] You use big words that no one has ever heard before on occasion.
[X] You've seen The Exorcist.
[X] You liked The Exorcist.
[X] You've seen Saw.
[X] You liked Saw
[] You've done voodoo.
[X] You hate sports.
[X] You dress up as the most morbid thing possible on Halloween.

Total = 9

[X] Halloween is one of your favorite holidays.
[X] You have an obsession with fire.
[X] You have only a couple of actual friends.
[X ] You're not afraid of spiders
[X] You have had a conversation about how you want to die.
[X] You've painted your nails black>>>almost all the time

Total = 6

[] One or more of your myspace pics had writing on them.
[] You have had the word "...." in your display name.
[X] You love art.
[X] You like art with negative meanings.

Total= 2

Multiply your total by 2

41*2=82%


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   hi!!
hello there and i have just one thing 2 say HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!
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Tuesday, October 30, 2007

   school LMAO
omfg school just keeps getting funnier and i have no idea why! alright so me and my best friend, ko. we were in art class and she was playign with this damn duct tape like she always is, she's mentally retarted so what do u expect lol but not really thou. anyways she likes to rip open the tabe and people's ears and scare them because it's really loud. so i was putting my my clay project away on a shelf and i had no idea she was behind me with that damn duct tape and i whiplashed me head and i hit the tape on my face lol. there's this painful damn scracth under my nose and it was bleeding and wouldn't stop! i had to use almost half of my cover up to cover it up. i'm going 2 kill her tomorrow lol i'm surprised i didn't kill her today. i often wonder if i'm to nice to her lol

oh and as u can c my dumbass dad forgot about my grounding and here i AM!!
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Wednesday, October 24, 2007

   CONFUSED!!
alright so here's the deal with my pathetic life! i have no idea if i'm even allowed on the comp! my dad's being an ass like always and he never tells me anything! i gto banned form the comp. because i left his CD out by ACCIDENT! hello dumbass u can't punish me for that! so if i'm not on then yeah i'm grounded! but i try to like make my dadforget by not bringing up the subject lol so lets c what happens! WISH ME LUCK!
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Monday, October 22, 2007

   i was forced 2 do this by my boyfriend ^^'


i don't like getting my picture taken but i was forced 2 ^^'
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Saturday, October 6, 2007

   OMG funny shit!
OMFG i had so much fun at lunch yesterday. alright me and my friends were all just talking and my best friend, Ko AKA Hiei Twachi, had these containers filled with katchup and the trash can was right beside me, so she picked up the katchup and threw it hoping it would go in the trash can but it got all over me and her! then she went to pick up her ice tea and that spilled all over us and her backpack. we made such a mess with the shit it wasn't funny as hell. she ran up to the window and touched in order to get our friend (Horsewalk's) attention and it got all over the window. it looked like blood!

KOAKOCHO-NEKO OWENER:
Shadrougeforever

CO-OWNER:
Hiei Twachi

KOKACHO-NEKO MEMBERS:
Red Kie
Hiei Twachi
Horsewalk
Serpant
Ayu kinomoto
Icethewingedwolf

YOU CAN JOIN ANYTIME JUST SEND ME A MESSAGE!!!

NOTICE ABOUT KOKACHO'S PROCESS!!!!
Kokacho has been pushed back and will not be coming this octobor because Hiei Twachi is banned from the com. due to grades. so she'll get it up as soon as she can until then i hope u all look forward to this story ^^
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