Wednesday, October 24, 2007

My dad killed him self.

And its all my fault.
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Tuesday, October 23, 2007

In case any of you missed it...
IM GOING TO SEE FALL OUT BOYYYYYYYY
see im just rubbing that in your faces and im pretty sure karma will come around and kick me in the ass sooner or later...Like i'll molest patrick and get thrown in jail...

Haha. Cassie what if i turn you into my girlfriend while im in Michigan? XD jk. nah, cassies not mah girlfriend but i do love her dearly.

if you havent noticed im awfully fucked up right now its because i was doing vodka shots at mah neighbor stefanis house.....lol. yah yah im 15 i know but its not like i get fucked up like my mom does and i honestly cant stand the taste of vodka but...i get my thrills where I can. Which reminds me I finally told her that I was bi because shes always tellin me i need a boyfriend.. -_- and she...was saying some weird things that im not going to even mention... but... yeah i didnt get the reponse from her that i thought i was gunna get ._. wooooo.

I have to some how wrack up some money for band merch...which i doubt ill be able to but thats ok cuz i really only want to see them that'll be enough and I <3 cassie times a million for buying a ticket for meh imma have to repay her somehow.

Fuck I left my cd's at stefani's house..

I need to sleep...or something hahaha.

-jenniezzzz
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Monday, October 22, 2007

im going to michigan!
I get to stay with cassie XD
Im happeh.
annnnnnnd.
WERE GOING TO SEE FALL OUT BOY!!!!!!!!!!!
x333

in other news... I have to go to a funeral on wendsday im working at a haunted house on friday and im going trick or treating with my next door neighbors saturday and sunday :) your never to old for candy.

Our car wont pass the admission test and the check engine light keeps coming on. SERIOUSLY this is the 5 time it's came on and we keep getting whats wrong with it fixed but then something else goes wrong. -_- We need to pass the admission so i can go on the 6 hour car drive to michigannnnnn.

yes. im overly happy/excited about this.
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Sunday, October 21, 2007

don't it make you sad to know that life is more than who we are?

Today, or rather yesterday. I found out a friend of the family's got into a car accident friday night. They got side swiped into a tanker [one of those big trucks that carry gasoline] My aunts best friend was in the car with her 21 year old daughter and the daughters boyfriend. The mom and daughter where killed instantly and the guy is at the hospital in critical condition.. They don't think he'll make it. The 21 year old has a 2 year old son and her mother has four other kids. now, I didn't know the lady personally but my aunt did...she was her best friend for years. so if you can imagine losing your best friend or someone really close to you you'd know how she's feeling right now. I feel really bad for the family they had to leave behind and for my aunt.. I mean, she didn't even get to say good-bye. The worst thing is..... If they would have been wearing their seat belts there's a pretty big chance that they would have made it.. It just..makes me think of how precious life really is. I mean I've known that. That's why theres a document on my computer..... I add names too it every time i meet someone that influences my life or someone that makes an impact on my life. Yes... a lot of people from myotaku are on there, and if i were to die someone would eventually come across that document. most of my life is spent on the edge and I don't know which day will be my last so I guess I cant be to careful right?

uh, other then that...my day was okay i went to my cousins birthday party and afterwards we went to petworld...when my hamsters die I'm going to get a bunny...they're adorable. Hm, which reminds me the neighbors next door got a new puppy it's only 6 months old and its so damn adorable. it's a pitbull though, and i hope justin trains it so it doesn't bite like there other dog does. -_-

Yesterday was also my dads birthday and I actually forgot until noonish and was like "Oh shit! Happy birthday!" not that my dad talks to me but at least i said it. I didn't get him anything because well, i have no money what-so-ever. My grandma's coming over today so i guess where having a little party for him...or something..

Lauren talked to me while she was at work today...^_^

Hm..I haven't slept in almost two days so i think imma go do that now...besides I've made this long enough..

-jenny
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Saturday, October 20, 2007

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I'm lucky theres no cliffs around here...and im lucky i dont have any car keys...

Today I'm going to Chuck E Cheeses for my five year old cousins birthday party...It outta be interesting. -_- Dont get me wrong I kinda like the place...It's just, screaming five year olds isn't on my list of things to endure on my saturday off.. Not to mention i've been taking sleeping pills latley and they're making me feel dizzy a lot and im getting headache's even more often than I usually get them.. I think I may just be stressed too. I dunno somethings bothering me.

Lauren has been...practically banned from talking to me. Im slowly dying... I dont know how im going to make it out of this because when I think about it i just feel like dying or puking my brains out.. this is what i get for making her such a big part of my life..hell, she is my life.. I was really upset about it earlier and i had to go into the kitchen and my sister just HAD to start something with me and i almost threw the kitchen chair at her... I didnt mean to get so angry but i just cant take it anymore. I cant. My emotions are being thrown everywhere. I honestly just feel like locking my self in my room and blasting one song on repeat for the rest of how ever long im going to be like this. but I cant, because then someone might think theres something wrong with me...and oh god I wouldn't want anyone to think that...so I keep it all locked inside. where it should be.

...Im making it sound worse then it is...I'll be okay. I talked to nikky on the phone today for a good two and a half hours. She makes me laugh, and we're both kinda in the same boat... if you know what I mean.

Meh, Imma sleep now...the pills are kicking in finally.

-jenny
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Thursday, October 18, 2007

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And even though the moment passed me by
I still cant turn away.
cuz all the dreams you never thought you'd lose.
get tossed along the way


Last night I went to my sisters school...my old school they had some sort of dinner thing and i got to see my 8th grade teacher again. I really miss that school.. not so much the kids though. It's changed a lot though from the two years i've been gone. Imma help out at there halloween party thing...so it gives me something to do. I miss school..

I really wish I could go back in time. I'd go back to june of last year and i'd change everything I did... i did it all without thinking. I hurt so many people in the process. i miss being the one that saves her. i feel useless. I love my friends, and I love my family..but theres just something missing and i cant get it back. Dont get me wrong. Im fine. I have no good reason to be down about anything..my dad's doing better.. now he just needs a job.. God. I dont know.

I need to make my self useful..

-jenny

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Wednesday, October 17, 2007

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Steph tagged me! and I ALREADY filled this out but then accidently closed internet explorer....I usually do my post on word pad...im so stupid XD

Name: jenny

Gender: Female...unfortunatly.

Eyes: Blue/grey

Hair: dyed black.

Height: 5'4

Weight: Ha..HA. HA.

shoe size: 9

Skin: Im white...PALE. whiiite the sun buuurnss.

Hobby: writting stories and poetry, Skateboarding, listening to music, sleeping.

Grade: shh..im not in school. shhhh.

Reads: angst 8D

Fears: steph jumping out another window..losing certain people, death, spiders.

Watches: ...anything that entertains me.

Moods: Random, Happy, emo? XD

IQ: haha. pretty low.

NickNames: Jenny, Jenniez, Jenny muffin XD I think i was called cupcake at one point in time..

Dreams: I have awkward dreams...but, uh to do something with my life?

Pet Peev: when people say they're gunna be somewhere and then they dont show up.

Funniest thing I've done: Uhm, theres lots, once when I went to six flags i asked batman and robin if they where gay for eachother.. In detention hall in 6th grade I was bored so I was chewing on a pen and it exploded in my mouth..and I was to "cool" to do anything about it till the hour was over! ...ink does NOT taste good. then again neither do pine cones....right? XD I knocked down a display of ketchup in the store once..and a display of lucky charms..

Words that describe me: Awkward, Random, Perverted, Odd, Stupid, Immature. XD

Annnd. I tag...

Laurenn.
Cassie
Krissy
KyoFanatic13
KyosKitten14

yayyy,

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in other news...i think if i go threw anymore emotions today my heads going to explode =D

-jenny
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Sunday, October 14, 2007

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I know its kind of late in the day to be posting but i am anyways, because this post isnt really that important but i havent posted for a couple days so i thought i might go ahead and do that.

I've been sick for the past two weeks now...and the past two days i've been really down and...sort of bitchy XP Steph and Megan pretty much got to endure my bitchyness...steph mostly..sowwy xD

I'm thinking though when i get better i'll be back to my normal happy self...[wait would happy be normal?] ...something like that anyways. That is if i ever get better...i havent been to the doctor and i dont plan to at anytime because we dont have that kind of money, and besides someone else may need to go besides me. The moneys better spent on someone else.. i'll survive.

The only thing im being selfish about is the fact that i hardly have any cell phone minutes left and it's my only way of talking to lauren really..We dont talk much but still. er, i'll rack up the money somehow.

on another note, i hate the taste of albuterol.

See ya x]

-jenny
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Thursday, October 11, 2007

Welp...Nikkys here with me shes sleeping over since when she was supposed to sleep over before i ran off to west virginia... plus shes leaving for lacrosse today at 3PM, imma miss her.

we're watching scary movies....at the moment where watching clue which we find more funny than anything, lol.

I was reading threw me and lauren's old convo's again...and i really really miss her..I wish it was summer still. hearing her voice...just made me want to be there with her even more and when we left pennsylvania i wanted to kick my self for not just getting out of the car and walking there. god..i just wish we didnt live so far away. T-T

Hah, i suck.

-jenny
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Tuesday, October 9, 2007

Uh...Hi?

XD I kinda dissapeared for 3 days..meh 2. I went on a short notice, [actually no notice at all] road trip to West Virginia :D It was crazy and im not going to begin to explain all of it but if you really do want to know theres a blog about it on my myspace...If you have a myspace you can PM me your link :D :D [..if you want of course..]

I live in Wisconsin, West Virginia is 5 states away. We went threw, Chicago, Indiana, Ohio, Pennsylvania, Maryland into West Virgina. The trip there was fun...the one back wasn't so great.. Considering i hadnt slept in 48 hours didnt make it to great either... D:

Ooohhhh yeahh thats right my dad might be coming home today... he was supposed to stay for like 2 more months...but i guess it's okay if he comes home. *sigh* -___-'

Lauren saved my life again...

im so horrible.

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How can i bottle a voice?

-jenny
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