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• 2007-05-26
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• jenny

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• 6th grade. [10th grade now]
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myOtaku.com: Shallow Heart


Thursday, September 6, 2007

Uhm..sorry I wasn't around yesterday..I guess i should explain hey? Well if you really don't want to read a bunch of..uhm, drama you can skip this part, but anyways...

Yesterday night at around 11 my mom and dad we're already..uh, drunk and my mom came in my room and told me to start packing my shit...apparently she thought we could drive all the way to Pennsylvania in our shitty car that I doubt would even make it to ohio. and yeah...maybe I wouldn't have thought this wasn't as a bad of an idea if they weren't flat out WASTED. and....the thought of dying doesn't really..please me right now. I couldn't stop her though and part of me didn't want too. I'd have been 700 miles closer too...her if we would have made it. Well....we didn't end up getting anywhere, we almost got to Chicago IIlinois, but my dad must have sobbered up a bit and realized how STUPID this was. I mean....we have no house down there and my dad has no job. We'd have had to live in the damn car. My mom was pissed and kept threatening to just jump out of the moving car on the free way. so, im sitting here practically holding her down so she doesn't do that. to make this short we ended up going home and my mom was throwing crap and screaming. I finally ended up getting her to come lay in my bed and I just layed there and didn't get any sleep all night because I was afraid she was going to leave again. I kept thinking about lauren...i still am. i dont wanna leave her. Hah threw all of that I dont think I ever had my seat belt on. talk about living on the edge ey? It was like I was living out one of my nightmares. but like i said....i should do something but im scared of losing them. but..bottom line is..I thought i was going to die, or they'd have got arrested and we'd have been put in foster care. I..dont want to die. as much as I hate things...I dont.

Uh, whatever. Im not really upset...I'm just kind of in shock but im glad im alive. i guess, that's all i can take out of this...I'm still alive.

I dont feel like doing anything but laying in bed and waiting until i get to talk to lauren again...im distancing my self from everyone..I just don't feel right and she's the only one that makes me feel okay....I think i'd be worse off then i am now if i hadn't talked to her...but now i just...miss her again. -sigh- maybe...hopefully i'll be better in the morning.

I'm sorry i haven't been getting to many sites latley..it's just been...hard. I'm going to try to be better...

-jenny


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