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• 1992-08-27
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• Cashton Wisconsin, It's by lacrosse..
Member Since
• 2007-05-26
Occupation
• I am a hostage to my own humanity
Real Name
• jenny

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• I wake up everyday, that's an achievement all in it's self.
Anime Fan Since
• 6th grade. [10th grade now]
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• Loveless, Bleach, Case Closed, Death Note, Naruto, one piece, strawberry panic,
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• Survive each and everyday.
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• I like to write and read. you usually wont find me without my ipod glued to my ear either.
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• Sometime's time reveals thing's we dont know.




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myOtaku.com: Shallow Heart


Monday, September 17, 2007

ah
let's make this short ey?
i have a headache.
im alive. for the moment.
that's all I can say.
i kinda...broke down a little while ago
and cried my eye's out and talked to my phone.
on the front porch
until my drunk mom came out and asked me who it was that didn't care about me anymore.
but, you know...she wouldn't understand.
I'm NOT giving up.
I'm just giving up on caring until...
someone talk's me out of it.
I know im fucking selfish but im sick of not caring about my self.
so...until then, i can't say i'll be around.
i need to know.
i drank again today...and then drove my mom home.
all these empty promises to my self and you.
why do i even try?
i wish i knew.
i need to stop.
my mom threatened to take my computer and cell phone away today.
I cried.
because she doesn't understand. THIS is my LIFE.
she told me to stop being such a baby.
she told me to start living in the real world, and realize that my girlfriend will never be HERE for me.
it's funny, threw everything i've been threw...
this...this feeling of wondering if she's right.
this hurt's the most.
it fucking hurt's like hell.



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