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myOtaku.com: Shallow Heart


Friday, October 5, 2007

Time: 10:57PM
Listening To: Never let this go/Pressure: Paramore

*sigh*

Still sick...I kept losing my voice on and off threw out the day. I really only say random things outloud anyways. I kept thinking about the movie speak. How can i speak when i dont have the words to say? ...meh something like that. That movie depressed me but i love it.

When I went to the hospital half way there i realized i didnt have my cell phone. now, i've only had it for 2 months but i've never ever left the house without it. not because i talk to people but because i guess i feel like i need it. Its almost like...a constant reminder of how it used to be. So i went to the pond again and read a book. yeah i finished a whole book. I get so distracted so easily sometimes. mostly because of my connection to other people. So..Im thinking about asking to go with my Grandma to Arkansas for.....a month. Just because I need to get away...All though this is up to a certain person, and...im still not all that sure on it myself. Its kind of sad...I just want to walk away and pretend like it NEVER happened but I cant. Because as hard as i try its always right there in the front of my mind.

Nikky's coming over on Saturday...she might sleep over. we'll probablly hang upstairs. Shes a little sad and I want to try and cheer her up a little bit. Cheering people up makes me happy..

god...i want to throw my phone at the wall. i wanna live inside the storys i read. at least i'd know how it ends and it really wouldnt be my problems. Im a coward. I always have been im just not as naive as i used to be.

-jenny

[well what do you know i cant even cry properly with this fucked up cold...]
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