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• Cashton Wisconsin, It's by lacrosse..
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• 2007-05-26
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• I am a hostage to my own humanity
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• jenny

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• 6th grade. [10th grade now]
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• Survive each and everyday.
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• I like to write and read. you usually wont find me without my ipod glued to my ear either.
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• Sometime's time reveals thing's we dont know.




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myOtaku.com: Shallow Heart


Saturday, October 6, 2007

I fail..everyone

I failed Lauren I failed my dad I failed my mom and my sister. I failed cassie and megan. I failed steph.. I failed my family and I failed who'd ever you'd call god.

People ask me why i think im so terrible and heres the answer; Everytime i look at my family and what we are and what we used to be, i realize how much i messed up and every opritunity i had to fix it i passed up. I dont care for the rigt reasons.

Oh god I can feel it dying. Im trying so hard to keep it together, im trying so hard to let you know that forever means forever. I'm so afraid one day you'll wake up and you wont have any sympathy left for me and then i'll just be part of the past a part you dont want to remember.

I dont want to remember my self. i want to slip away without actually doing so.

I dont even bother to call anymore because i know you wont pick up the phone.

thats the way it'll always be and that's just what i have to except. until i can find another lie to cover it up.

but please, just tell me that once it was true for one second, that would do. tell me forever meant for always and you had no doubts about that.

Im so afraid to leave you because im afraid we wont find eachother again

-jenny
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