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Thursday, December 21, 2006

Well I know this is odd, but I need to relieve some stress, I've had a lot on my mind lately. So much doubt and so much pain. I know I complian too much and I am truly very very sorry for annoying you all so much. I know you don't want to read this and I won't blame you if you don't.

I wake up every morning and lately, I just groan and roll over to try to sleep just a little longer. I'm not tired. That's not it at all....I just don't want to wake up. I want to go to sleep and never wake up again. At least in my dreams I'm happy and comfortable. Don't get me wrong I enjoy life. I am not suicidal at all. I just know that I am important to some degree if not much at least a little bit...

Another thing that is really getting me down and driving me crazy is I just walk through the halls at school...it's thick with those people....I think sometimes that they're trying to make me feel bad...I try noyt to let it bother me, but I can't...it lways does and lately it's worse. It drags my self esteemin the dirt and beats it to a pulp. It destroys me. It shouldn't but it does...

Ok I'll shut up and leave you alone now. I know it's just aggravating to listen to me complain.

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