Thursday, August 9, 2007

omg where have i been?
ha ha so yeah, I've been gone for sooo long right? not really

But I got my maid outfit, and let me tell you! IT'S SO DAMN CUTE!

couldn't ask for anything cuter...

and i'm thinking about hosting a contest. those are always fun right? Plus i like sending stuffs in the mail! I mean for prizes you know?

Pretty funny that last time even though I offered up a book as a prize no one entered. thanks guys. lol.
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Wednesday, August 1, 2007

Drama!
Lately I've been feeling odd. like I'm lonely. I mean, I think thats what the feeling is. I think everyone has abandoned me...

Have I completely lost it? I was actually writing letters to someone who never existed yesterday. And today I cried for no apparent reason. I felt no feelings but my tears wouldn't stop. Like there is another person in my that feels emotions on its own, emotions that I can't feel.




I hid in a corner for nearly an hour last night... There was something watching me. I could feel it. A big monster or something, it was waiting for me to let my guard so I had to put myself somewhere I know it couldn't get me from behind. That as its plan and I know it.


You know, I've never been a very sentimental person... I mean when i was little i like my mom to give me kisses and stuff because it made me happy, but now I want my mom dead. for no reason really. Same with my dad. As a matter of fact, I think the only person in the world I love is myself.

But I want to change that.

I want someone to wrap their arms around me when we sleep and never let go. I want that...

I never used to want that. I mean I'm too young, I'm not even old enough in my opinion to sleep with another person.

Maybe its better to be alone. That way if you want to die, no one can stop you you know? Not That I'm going to kill myself, by all means I'm too selfish for that.

I a selfish arrogant bitch, that deserves death, but wont do it herself, because shes a coward.


I really feel empty... I don't think I have a heart...
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Tuesday, July 24, 2007

Momma always said I'd be the chosen one.
She turned to him and smiled, a sad far away smile.

"It's already too late"

Then its over.


"So who taught you right and wrong?"

"I did"



"What is right and wrong to you?"

"Good and evil, it black and white."


"No in between?"

"No"


"Is that why you did it?"

"Yes"


The moon lit the room, a graveyard glow... dark spots on the floor, the walls... everywhere...

it...m..g....I..an't...ru....awa...I..ca...fee...t...br...ath...on....e...ave....e.

And no one can.

And it knows...

Then it's over...



For him its over... But for it, it's life...




And thats how he feels. Everyday he lives.


Then she takes their life... and love when they beg her to stop, their once sneering lips now contorted with the rest of their face in beautiful agony as they scream, only heightening her glee. She wants to dance, or sing. Oh maybe she will.

"Oh my friends my lovely friends... we've waited far too long for this... this love we share can not go on... I like ending it... or is it ending itself? Can you feel my love? It's at its limit... all for you...all for you... Can you return it? No sadly you can not... it's not programmed into your brain to love another so dearly... but I'll give you satisfaction, though bloody it may be... Isn't that the best kind though?

That is my favorite kind~!"



"A shot gun under my bed?"

"For intruders... and stray cats..."

"You shoot stray cats with a shot gun?"

"Yes, that way you don't have to hear them scream."

"What about intruders?"

"Oh, they still scream..."


To drink the kool aide.







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Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Blah
I'm so tired. Man. I entered Vampire kisses contest, and it killed me. I worked hard on the entry so I hope you like it! I'm bad at fan art so I just drew some oc's. lol. Anyways.

Got a sukisho layout. God I love that anime. Now I need to get me the game! for real. lol. I've already beaten the hell out of enzai so lol.

Geez what else is there to say.. nothing really

I'm hungry... and I want to make manga... but i'm too tired... *shot*

AND FUCKING DA IS IN READ ONLY MODEEEE!!!
*Kills DA*

I'm going to go to sleep now... lol. Man! and it's only 12:43! Thats toooooo early!
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Wednesday, July 11, 2007

Well I'm back
Went to visit my sister, it went fine. I didn't draw much but I have terrible news...

MY MOM FOUND ALL OF MY YAOI! EVEN WHAT I'VE DRAWN!

I Feel like part of my soul has died...

anyways, I don't have much to say, so I'm out <3 you all!
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Sunday, July 1, 2007

Quick
Quick post them I have to go to bed, i have to work tomorrow! how gay. Well yeah...

Um, i have to enter Vampirekiss' contest! HAVE TO! >.< I'm super excited about it, and then I don't know what I'll do after that. lol.

Does anyone know what BJD's are? Well I'm thinking about making outfits for them, I could make some seriously large amounts of money off of that shit... I'm really contemplating it... seriously!

Anyways submitted to new pics both oekaki. Go take a look if you have nothing better to do!

<3
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Monday, June 25, 2007

GRAHHH!
I'm so sick of pro-lifers. Standing in front of abortion clinics and preventing people from getting abortions. Preventing someone from entering a builiding is a violation of the constution, but then again do those assholes care anyways? No they're already trying to control what women do with their children. Assholes. Allowing their damn religion to make their decisions. I hate it. Why can't everyone just leave everyone else alone?

Anyways, I added some new artwork, not that I suspect anyone here cares, I'm practically dead on this site. lol. Ah it can't be helped.

Well if anyone needs me I may or may not be around, its like 3:30 am right now so I thnk I'll head to be in an hour or so, so ttyl.
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Thursday, June 7, 2007

Gah!
I'm dieing over here. Trying to watch "Papa to kiss in the dark" *A Yaoi* But somone is sitting right in the next room and I'm freaking out. lol. It's made me laugh out loud to the point where my mom almost asked me what i was laughing at. gah. anyways school is almost over! Hell yeah! you know how happy that makes me? you know!? I'm like going to die over here man! Than i can watch porn like all summer! lol! I'm so happy. and i have my ghetto ass job, life is pretty sweet right now even though all of my real life friends other than sam hate me. ha ha ha who the hell needs friends when you have comcast and porn eh? Whoot!
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Gah!
I'm dieing over here. Trying to watch "Papa to kiss in the dark" *A Yaoi* But somone is sitting right in the next room and I'm freaking out. lol. It's made me laugh out loud to the point where my mom almost asked me what i was laughing at. gah. anyways school is almost over! Hell yeah! you know how happy that makes me? you know!? I'm like going to die over here man! Than i can watch porn like all summer! lol! I'm so happy. and i have my ghetto ass job, life is pretty sweet right now even though all of my real life friends other than sam hate me. ha ha ha who the hell needs friends when you have comcast and porn eh? Whoot!
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Wednesday, June 6, 2007

OMG
Comcast almost caused my death yesterday! it was being a bastard... lol. but yeah anyways i'm in love with it now! it's frigging genius! THats about all i hhave to say. lol ttyl
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