Wednesday, June 29, 2005

A thank you, an explanation, and an unexpected turn of events.....
Well, I'm back. Firstly, I want to thank you guys for caring. I deeply appreciate the kind comments. It just goes to show you that otakus really are the best people in the world! I spent yesterday and Monday collecting my thoughts/feelings. While I was absolutely crushed at the semi-loss of my dear friend, I came to the realization that this can be just as much a blessing as it is a burden. This is exactly the motivation I need to stop whining about how shitty my life is and to finally get the fuck up and do something about it. I bitch and complain about my family life every chance I get (I've spared you guys from that, though, heheheh) This is now my opportunity to get out.

This is the goal that I have set before myself: Before my friend left, I pledged to her, that I WILL reunite with her.....within 6 months time, by the end of the year.

My main obstacle preventing me from beaing able to move down to Texas myself right now is: MONEY. I just recently got a job, so why should I be complaining? Here's the deal: I'm making $6.75 an hour, working roughly 6 hours a day, 5 days a week. After taxes and shit, I'm bringing home about $160-170. My mom's taking $60 each week for "rent" since I'm living in "her house". That leaves me with about $100 each week. So, in 6 months time, I should have plenty of money saved up and be able to move, right? Not quite.

Last year, I spent 1 semester in college. To put it bluntly, I fucking sucked. At the end of the semester I was informed that, "since my grades were inadequate" one of my grants had been cancelled. Well, I thought my mom and her boyfriend were able to work things out, explaining my family's financial situation and such. I was told that things would clear up and me "debt" would be erased. Well, out of nowhere, 2 months ago, I received a call from a collection agency demanding payment. And due to my "tardiness" of not paying up, extra money has been added upon to what I must pay. WTF? I thought things were clear? To be truthfull, I still don't know what the fuck happened, but I'm not taking my chances with the law. So, right now, as we speak, I must currently pay off a collection agency about $1100. That's my money dilemma. So my job is now entirely going to paying that off.

But I'm not going to let this derail me in reaching my goal. Starting today, I'm desperately looking for a second job so that I CAN keep up with putting money away to move. Unfortunately, things don't look too good. But enough of my rambling. I'm sure you guys probably can't follow that which is spewing out of me anyway. But I don't blame you. I don't understand everything, either.

With that aside, I'll get to the "unexpected turn of events" part. 26 hours and 31 minutes in, I am exactly halfway through Shadown Hearts Covenant. Here's the turn of events: the story is at a perfect break. The whole second half of the game will have its own course of events. I mean, I can stop playing here and be content, looking to the second half of the game as simply a sequel. And that is exactly what I'm going to do. Shadow Hearts is being moved onto the back burner, and starting tonight, my free time shall belong to FF7 and my walkthrough! Jeez, wasn't that the main purpose of my site? The only snag now that we may run into is when I do get my second job. I dunno how much free time I'll have then, but, hey, we'll worry about it when we get there.

So, my dear friends, I thank you all once again for being here with me and visiting my site. It really means a lot to me. Tomorrow I should be able to throw up part 2 of my guide.

Until then, love and peace to you all.


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