Friday, September 16, 2005

There's something cold and blank behind her smile
She's standing on an overpass
In her miracle mile
(coma):
"Cuz you were from a perfect world
A world that threw me away today, today, today
To run away"

A pill to make you numb
A pill to make you dumb
A pill to make you anybody else
But all the drugs in this world
Won't save her from herself

Her mouth was an empty cut
And she was waiting to fall
Just bleeding like a polaroid that
Lost all her dolls
(coma):
"Cuz you were from a perfect world
A world that threw me away today, today
Today, to run away"

A pill to make you numb
A pill to make you dumb
A pill to make you anybody else
But all the drugs in this world
Won't save her from herself (Times 2)

You were from a perfect world
A world that threw me away today.

A pill to make you numb
A pill to make you dumb
A pill to make you anybody else
But all the drugs in this world
Won't save her from herself (Times 2)

"Come White" by Marilyn Manson

You know those days where it just feels like God or someone is toying with you?.........definitely the best summary for yesterday. Heh, now I feel like crap for posting yesterday that Wednesday was a shitty day.....oh boy......

A HUGE portional yesterday was spent reading. I read "The Silent Blade" by R.A. Salvatore from cover to cover. I had really wanted to get it done so that I can start reading "Wizard's First Rule" by Terry Goodkind. So, yeah, that was pretty much my day, just reading......I wish I could end it there......Well, come 3:30, after my bro got home, we took our usual trip over Mike's. I was sitting in the living room with my bro playing PSO when my mom busts into the room (sometime around 6) and says "oh, by the way, Josh, don't make any plans with your "little girlfriend". "We're getting a thunderstorm tonight, and you're shutting down that computer the second we get home". So I got up and begged Mike to let me use his computer so I could at least PM Kat and give her a heads up on the situation.

Well, the thunderstorm came alright.....at like 7:30....and was done within a half-hour....at 8:30 I got up, looked outside, saw that it was doing nothing but pouring, and said "FINALLY". I sat down at my comp, turned it on, and was just logging into my settings when my mom stormed into the room with a "WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOU'RE DOING?????"" then she started screaming at me at the top of her lungs about how "the thunderstorms are supposed to be off and on the entire night" and that she wasn't taking any chances with the puter. I said, yeah, I know that, I can't afford to loose the puter, either. I'd have no way to contact my love.....and she just laughed at me, then resumed the screaming and demanding of me turning the puter back off.....I tried to reason with her, but.....yeah, I would have had better reasoning talking to a brick wall.....I told her that I wasn't gonna stay on very long, just until I heard the clap of thunder.....all I wanted was to talk to Kathy, be it for 5 minutes or 5 seconds....well, I gave up the argument when she chucked a book at my head....and she didn't miss. i've got a huge cut under my left eye

well, after that I pretty much lost all feeling....I felt like all the life had been drained out of me.....I went downstairs, put all 4 disks of the FFVII soundtrack into my stereo, and layed down on my bed.....and.....i cried....i just cried.....i was powerless....someone "up there" hates me enough to do this to me *points at left eye*......I guess I ended up crying myself into a sleep....cuz the next thing i noticed was my clock saying 7:45 A.M.....

And....yeah....that's about it. I won't waste you guys's time with my whining any longer. Take care everybody, I love you all, and I leave you with another round of lyrics....lyrics that seem to fit this time perfectly.....- Triple J

I’ll be coming home
Just to be alone
Cause I know you’re not there
And I know that you don’t care
I can hardly wait to leave this place

No matter how hard I try
You’re never satisfied
This is not a home
I think I’m better off alone
You always disappear
Even when you’re here
This is not my home
I think I’m better off alone
Home, home, this house is not a
Home, home, this house is not a home

By the time you come home
I’m already stoned
You turn off the TV
And you scream at me
I can hardly wait
Till you get off my case

No matter how hard I try
You’re never satisfied
This is not a home
I think I’m better off alone
You always disappear
Even when you’re here
This is not my home
I think I’m better off alone
Home, home, this house is not a
Home, home, this house is not a

Home, home, this house is not a
Home, home, this house is not a home

I’m better off alone

No matter how hard I try
You’re never satisfied
This is not a home
I think I’m better off alone
You always disappear
Even when you’re here
This is not my home
I think I’m better off alone
Home, home, this house is not a
Home, home, this house is not a

Home, home, this house is not a
Home, home, this house is not a home

"Home" by 3 Days Grace

I don't wanna completely kill the day, so, here's the sound clip of the day!!!!!! ^_^


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