Sunday, July 31, 2005

   Well.
I feel lots better...I think I got a lot resolved yesterday. Between myself and my step sister's family, between myself and Erik...I think a lot of things were made better. So...then why do I feel so stressed?

I gonna work on updating my FMA story now. My GW one is close to a close. My FF8 one is just beginning, and I have a crap load of people who want to kill Rinoa now. I made her so evil. XD I got this "review" on my FMA story:
From: Ancalyme ( http://www.fanfiction.net/u/387789/ )

Baka baka baka! You ruined the lime-scene in chapter 15 with idiotic
lyrics! *cries* That's the best way to put me off reading a story *sniff*

And, please try to make Ed a little bit less melodramatic, if that
doesn't go against the plot of the story. And Roy a bit less fluffy. Pretty
pweease?
Okay, first of all, kid, if it puts you off reading a story, why are you still reading it? Also, I put the lyrics seperate and in italics, meaning they could easily be skipped over. I was in a song mood that day, and I'm not too happy about it myself. whoo hoo. No one else complained. Secondly, how is Ed being melodramatic? In the series, he's the same way as in my story. When he was in that basement talking to Al about Nina, he yelled at him and ran off. How is that different from making a comment to Mustang and running off? He's not actually hiding from Mustang, Roy just doesn't know where he is. And Roy? Fluffy? He can be romantic, since he's that way in the show, but beating Russell up to find out where Ed went isn't exactly what I'd call fluffy. Neways.

So...yeah. I dunno. I'll go...do something now. I don't know what...maybe playing piano will get me in a better mood. I watched Constantine and Assult On Presinct 13 yeatserday. they were pretty good. Constantine was better. In the other one, too many of the good guys died...not that that's bad, but the slut lived while the better lady died...that's kinda dumb. Neways.....yeah.
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Now I will tell you
What I've done for you..
50 thousand tears I've cried
Screaming, deceiving, and bleeding for you
And you still won't hear me...
Don't want your hand this time
I'll save myself
Maybe i'll wake up for once...
Not tormented daily
Defeated by you...
Just when i thought
I'd reached the bottom...

I dive again...
I'm going under
Drowing you...
I'm falling forever
I've got to break through...
I'm going under

Blurring and stirring
The truth and the lies...
So I don't know what's real
and what's not...
Always confusing
The thoughts in my head
So I can't trust myself anymore...







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Saturday, July 30, 2005

   so...wrong...
It was...so much different than I thought...I...I was so wrong...Erik really made them out to be the abd guys when he saw them and...and I....I thought all these things...but now...her, her husband, and her kids being here...talking...explaining what's been happening...I feel so terrible I was so wrong....I'm crying now...I've been so terrible...I've thought all these bad things about them...I just....I'm so fucking terrible...

It wasn't like I thought at all...and they...they never stopped caring...I knew the whole time....I...but now I know it for sure. I was so angry at her....for not being here....but...she's still my sis....and she loves me and she always has, even though....even after everything....And Dave, he cares too. He always has and he's always been so nice. He hugged me and told me that if I ever need anything, to call...that if Erik ever tries to hit me to call him and he'll beat Erik's ass and explain to him that you just don't hit girls/women. They're not....they're not bad people at all. All thsi time I thought they were just running away while we had to face it, but they were having a really hard time, too...her kids...Brad and Kate...my neice and nephew...they've grown up so much....Pam's not even 30...GOD FUCKING DAMMIT!!! All thsi time I've been saying all these things...thinking all these things...and they were all lies....and now they're trying to help us....and they apologized so many times for not calling all this time when they should have...and I'm so sorry I was mad at them...I want so much to call Dave's cell and just say "....I'm..sorry..." because I am...I'm so sorry....I love them very much....I can't stop crying...
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I wanted you to know...
That I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high
And steal your pain away...
I keep your photograph...
And I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high
And steal your pain...

Cause I'm broken
When I'm lonesome...
And I don't feel right
When you're gone away...

The worst is over now
And we can breathe again...
I wanna hold you high
And steal my pain away...
There's so much left to learn
And no one left to fight...
I wanna hold you high
And steal your pain...

Cause I'm broken
When I'm open...
and I don't feel like
I am strong enough...
Cause I'm broken
when I'm lonesome...
And I don't feel right
When you're gone away...

You've gone away...
You don't feel me here...
Anymore...












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   WTF?
Sorry I didn't post last night like usual. I didn't really feel like it. My family was pissing me off. My glass was on the table, right? Kyle spills it on accident and everyone's freaking cause it got on Erik's phone and shit. So I just mumbled "it's not my fault". and then my mom's like "Yeah, right. NOTHING is ever YOUR fault."
And that just way pissed me off. "FINE THEN IT IS MY DAMN FAULT!" And I go in my room. I turn off my lights, get cozy on my bed, and turn on my yummy hate music and just sing with it. I'm talking about Evanescence, Three Day's Grace, Papa Roach, etc. Then maybe a half hour later, Erik pops his head into my room. I ignore him. Then he flicks on my light. So, even though I know it's a major no-no in my house(not like I give two shits) I yell "God dammit Erik! Get the hell out and leave me ALONE!!!" So I jump up, turn off my light and slam my door in his face. Later I come out and grab myself some food. Everyone knows I usually eat out at the computer cause I just do. So, on purpose, he goes out on the computer RIGHT after I come out. So I just stand there and glare katanas into his back and my mom tells him to get off cause she knows he did it on purpose. So he does but I was still pretty unhappy for the rest of the night. Sorry, Lyss, I bet you didn't even know....kind of like the other day...we were talking, laughing, doing our RP...but I was actually crying, and you didn't know that either. That comes from thinking too much...thinking about my dad too much.

Anyways, I had an unhappy dream last night, too. I was working at the Jewel or something(Jewel Osco. I don't know how many of you have those in your states, but it's a grocery store)and then Zac(my most recent ex-boyfriend) shows up. And we hug and stuff as if we were still together and then some of the people there were talking to us and stuff. It was weird, but then...but then, while it was happening, in the dream, I felt...loved. And safe...but then suddenly I'm outside with my mom. I forget, but she said something to make me angry and I threw down this pretty box I had bought her...then I ran. It was sad...

On an angry note, I was woken up this morning to my mom telling me my step sister is going to visit here today. I'm ready to verbally kick her ass and my mom says I should hash it out with her. So...whatever. I'm not gonna be nice to hell. To hell with that. She used to be like a real sister to me. Every time she'd call "Hey, sweety, it's Pam." And i'd go over there sometimes and stuff. But now...she's so different. Oh well. Maybe she can give Erik shit and get away with it, but not me. I have no respect for her anymore, so if she gives us shit I'm gonna give it right back. I don't care if I make her cry-hell, I HOPE I do. I know, I'm mean. But she deserves it, too. Ah well.

On another side note, I couldn't mow Reenie's lawn yesterday cause she doesn't have the key-her husband does and he's on a male bonding outing with his son. So. I just ended up sitting around over there till 8:30 or something. Reenie's birthday is sunday, so monday her, and her friend loxy are going to the movies, then to get ice cream. She invited me to go with. It's strange...you know? They're adults, technically, I'm not.

Shit, they're here. I'm gonna go. She brought her two kids...I can be an ass, but not that much of an ass....I'll yell if I ahve to, but otherwise I'll be calm about it...as much as possible. i don't want to...ya know, with her kids here. *sigh* Ja ne.
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How can you see into my eyes
Like open doors?
Leading you down into my core
Where I've become so numb...
Without a soul...
My spirit's sleeping somewhere cold...
Until you find it there
And lead it back home...

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can't wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me...)
Call my name and save me from the dark
Bid my blood to run
Before i come undone
Save me from the nothing I've become...
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I figure this picture fits.
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Friday, July 29, 2005

   I must be insane!
I have to go with reenie AGAIN tomorrow at 8 and I'm going to mow her lawn. But I'm getting paid this time. So i'll do price checks all over the net and stretch my dollars as far as they will go. On anime of course!!! I didn't get any screencaps today, i'm sorry. I was gone 8 AM to 5 PM. So...I'm tired. I think I'll cut her grass, maybe come home, then take a nap-shit, i can't. The whole reason for coming home would be to watch kyle because Jeremy wants to go out with his friend. Dammit. Oh well. No sleep for me...again. 11 hours of sleep in the past four days....I think. that's not so good. I'm tired. But seeing as i have to get up in an hour and 5 minutes, there's no point. Anyways, i'm too tired to write more. I drew this pic of Ed, so I hope you all like it. Umm...he looks a little too tall. His right sleeve seems to be a little invisible, but my scanner is stupid. 1 hour now. Okies, Enjoy and tell me what ya think.
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Some people tell me...
That you're not my kind
And I believe them...
But I can't get you out of my mind
Some people tell me...
that I should stay away
Maybe I will...
Some other day.

Cause it feels right
You know it feels good
And I don't always do
What I should
And I know what
Makes me happy
In my heart
You are it exactly...

I don't wanna do right
I just want you tonight
Not just only in my dreams...
Save my best behavior
For a little later
Cause I'm only seventeen...
Think I made my mind up
I got time to grow up
Face responsibility...
Living in the moment
Keeping my heart open
But I'm only seventeen.

I'll learn my lessons...
And I'll make mistakes
And if I get burned...
It'll be my heart to break
It isn't easy...
Hearing what they say
Sometime you've got to...
Take a leap of faith.

Cause it feels right
Yeah it feels good
And I'm not gonna do
something stupid
Just this once I
Wanna feel like...
I can do what I want
When I hold tight.

Anyone who's ever been in love
Has got to know...
What it means
To have a dream
And no one can say anything
To change my mind...
No, not this time.

I don't wanna do right
I just want you tonight
Not just only in my dreams...
Save my best behavior
For a little later
Cause I'm only seventeen...
Think I made my mind up
I got time to grow up
Face responsibility...
Living in the moment
Keeping my heart open
But I'm only seventeen...
I'm only seventeen.
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Thursday, July 28, 2005

   Dun Da Duh Dun DUN!
Well, thsi morning the lady was supposed to pick em up at 8 AM, but she wasn't feeling well, so it was more like 9ish. I got home at 3. I had to clean out her damn basement. It's so messy and shit...and she's making em go back tomorrow, too. she'll be picking me up at 8 and then I'll be home at 3 again. this is all leaving me very tired. I went to bed at five and took a five hour nap. Now I'm really tired again. I'm not gettied paid at all...but then again, my mom told me Reenie(my mom's friend that I'm working for)'s husband is going to send my dad money...so, if that's the case...then i guess it's alright...working without personal gain...

I've had PSP8 and that's good for making wallpapers and working with colors and photos and stuff. So, today. I put on my fav program PhotoImpact5 for my special effects. It has lightning, smoke, fire, bubbles, fireworks, rain, everything! So, I really love it.

I was able to get some smexy pics of Ed this morning while I waited for her. Tomorrow I'll try to get he rest of the pics for everyone, but I've been so tired with all this work, so I can't make any promises. P.S. Katsume, I'm SO sorry I spelled that wrong!!!! x_x As you can see, I ahve typos galore lately, so I'm really sorry, i didn't mean to! x_x
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Of all the things I believe in...
I just wanna get it over with...
Tears form behind my eyes,
But I do not cry-
Counting the days that pass me by...
I've been searching deep down
In my soul...
Words that I'm hearing
Are starting to get old...
Feels like I'm starting
All over again-
The last three years were just pretend...
And I said

Goodbye to you...
Goodbye to everything
I thought I knew...
You were the one I loved
The one thing that
I tried to hold onto...

I still get lost in your eyes...
And it seems like
I can't live a day without you...
Closing my eyes
And you'll chase the thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right...

And it hurts to want everything
And nothing at the same time...
I want what's yours
And i want what's mine...
I want you,
But I'm not giving in this time...

Goodbye to you...
Goodbye to everything
I thought I knew...
You were the one I loved...
The one thing athat i tried...
The one thing that I tried
To hold onto...

And when the stars fall,
I will lie awake...
You're my shooting star.

Goodbye To You - Michelle Branch
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Wednesday, July 27, 2005

   I feel WAY better.
Well, I am feeling MUCH better. Thank you all so much for your support and stuff. Erik broke up with Gina today. I can tell my entire family is SO relieved. The atmosphere in the house was so much less tense...it was so wonderful. I got dragged out of my house at about 12:30 to my mom's friend's house(the same one that I had to help at the party) and she made me put together this huge ass shelving unit for her. It wasn't too hard, really. It was pretty heavy, though. So...I never did end up going to camp. The lady called this morning saying she would take me today now if I needed it, but my mom's friend had already called and I had agreed to help, so..yeah. I'm not getting paid either. And tomorrow she's taking me at 8 AM. So i gotta get up at 7:30 AM. Sorry to all my online friends, I'll be going to bed after this post. Today started off bad, but got good. I was just playing Red Faction 2 against Jeremy. Damn him! He's too good at video games! But I did beat him...once. Ah well, s'long as I beat him once a day, it's alright. It all started cuz I called him a chibi...and he said "WHO ARE YOU SAYING IS SO SMALL THEY'RE LIKE A GRAIN OF RICE?!" So...I said "Hmm...I dunno...you?" So we broke into a fight. XD Then he's like "Fine, we'll play video games and see if you can put me in my place." So...we did. lol It was a lot of fun. On a side note, I am getting much better at the song I've been practicing for the talent show, so that's good. 'Ey, Lyss, maybe I should sing that cute little song from Fruits Basket for the talent show? XDDD that would be funny. I wrote this earlier today:
This is mostly for me so I can get some thoughts out. If you're confused as hell, go read the other two posts from last night.

Well, it's looking more and more like Jeremy was set up. If you're sitting in your car, and someone scrapes your car, do you just sit there and do nothing? NO. I'd explain it all, but I'm too lazy. Basically, we were screwed as per usual.

Last night I crawled into bed at 5:30 AM due to it being too hot, and lack of intrest. Stupid, I know. But when that happens, usually I get to at least noon.

Not Today.

Thank someone for extra strength tylenol. I wake up to arguing...then my mom comes in and I get asked for the millionth time if I'm going to camp. I tell her no. I already said I'm not so fuck it. I already put all my shit away. "I'll give Erik the $10 for gas, if you still want to go." Why? You already said you're not giving him a dime, and so what-it's okay to make exceptions for me? Why? So he can use the rest of that gas to drive to Gina's house? Fuck that. "You really need to get out of the house. It'll be good for you." Yeah, I know. But at this point...all I would do there is mope around. I may be stressed as hell and pissed off, but at least I'm not worried. If I'm not here I don't have any control...I don't know what you guys will do. Who's going to make dinner since no one's aroudn or has the time? Why are they pushing this issue at me? Erik even told me if I go he'll take care of all my chores. And for what? No one does anything that doesn't benefit them. No one. Every "kind" thing a person does has a motive behind it. What is pure kindness? Does it exist? I used to think so. I used to think I really was kind...now I'm not so sure. Why do they want me to go so badly? What will that accomplish...? Who gives if I "need" it, the question is: Do I deserve it? Certainly the answer is no. My mom deserves some kind of escape more than I do. It'd make me feel guilty to just leave like that.

I don't want to go...for several reasons, I guess. The first and foremost being the importance of staying here. Then, of course, guilt. I don't want to see the happy faces...it will only depress me more. I'm sure most of them don't have the problems I have. I'm not selfish...I know they have problems, too. But I can't help feeling that the only problems a lot of them have is what outfit to wear to school...which lipstick to use today...which way to do their hair...which eyeshadow to put on...and it kills because...I want that. Envy really is the greatest of the 7 Deadly Sins.

I read the letter my mom got from my dad. He actually got a fan and a few other small items...he said it was like Christmas...and that hurts me very much. I used to pray every night. It happened in September...I made sure to pray every single day through November. I made a deal with "God". "If you can bring my dad home by my birthday...I'll never skip church again." Shouldn't that be what God wanted? Isn't that a deal worth making? And it was a promise straight from my heart-one that I would never had broken. My birthday came and went...but I didn't give up. I prayed every night..."If you can bring my dad back by Christmas...I'll never skip church again." Christmas came and went. New years. My mom's birthday. My father's own birthday. Erik's birthday. My little brother's birthday. Jeremy's birthday. One year had passed...and it was my own birthday once again. I turned 14. "God" took away everything...and no matter how hard I tried...he gave me nothing. So you see...there is no "God". It's just something for adults to take comfort in. Something bad happens "It must be God's will. He has a plan for me." But really...it's just a way to feel secure. It's a way to make what happened alright. But it's not....it's not alright at all! Only in fairy tales...do people get saved before the really bad things happen. Only in fairy tales...are there happily ever afters. Only in fairy tales...do princes find the right princesses in one shot, without dating anyone else. Only in fairy tales...does good always win over evil. Only in fairy tales...is life so simple, with such a short battle to reach eternal happiness. Fairy tales are what people read to their children at night...giving them false hopes of these things. But I guess it's alright...until they get older. And then when they find out the truth behind the happily-ever-after. It's good to keep them away from the truth, for a time, if you can...but sadly, the truth was shoved in my face. No one could protect me from it. At the age of 13, I first tried to kill myself. Yet I wasn't even really aware of homosexuals/yaoi/etc until I was somewhere between 14 and 15. There's something seriously wrong with that. But that's what happens when the truth is shoved in your face. And I'm not talking "truth" behind the gate of another world like FMA. I wish i was. I'm talking about the truth to this world. This disgusting world that we live in. "Humans are such sick living things." Roy said it, and I'll quote him on it for the rest of my life. It's one of the most true statements I have ever heard. Well, that, and "Life fucking sucks, and then you die." from Lyss.

I used to be this innocent, fun-loving kid...I had lots of friends, a great family, wonderful grades...this is where a parent would say "You used to be so great. What happened?" Ha. A hell of a lot. I'm getting kinda tired of typing...or maybe I'm jsut tired in general. Tired of everything...some say everything will be alright sooner or later...well, it better fucking be. My life better be fucking peachy when i'm older or when i die, I'll find who's responsible and kick their ass. And yet, I know life won't be. I can't even imagine what a good life is supposed to be.

~The Injustice System - guilty until proven innocent~

But, as I said, I feel a lot better now. I was thinking of writing Shinigami's Fairy Tales "The truth behind the happily-ever-after." ha ha...I dunno. So...I have to show my mom's friend how to use her new computer software tomorrow. I'm sure I can figure it out fast. Ummm...I'm relaly hoping that now that Gina is out of the picture, things will get better. I feel bad...I know I make Erik look like a total asswipe, and well, he is, but...he's not a bad guy. I think...hanging around the wrong kind of people is really hurting him. But now...I'm hoping so much that that will change. That he'll find a nice girl...because, as they say...the right people can bring out the best in you. He just hasn't looked hard enough. Though I make it like I hate Erik's stupid ass, I know I love him cuz he's still my brother and always will be, no matter if he's with a bitch or not. Ah well. Lindesy, these Aya pics are for you and Kitsume18! I'll be getting to Full Metal Alchemist and more pics of the Sohmas tomorrow, so hold on, everyone! ^^;;; These are all only just from episode 14! x_x I looked through....over 25000 frames. He also appears in episode 20 and 16, so if you want more pics of him from those episodes, let me know. ^^
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Even if the days
When I smiled a lot
Should turn out
To be nothing
But a lovely dream
That would be alright with me
If that's all it means...
My mind's unrest
Struggling with me
Recalling the past
Who I could be...
Gotta rise and be strong
Gotta be tough
But not lose the person I am...
Two lives I have
One life I live
One life I dream
In dreams I remember
The better in me...
Vision don't let me down
I'm depending on you
Carry me through
When I see...
Reality...

Blue Gender - Love Taught Me
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Tuesday, July 26, 2005

   Well, nevermind.
Okay, screw it. I'm not going, so nevermind. My mom won't give Erik gas money and his stupid bitch doesn't want him to take me anyway(even though he told me that he still would) so I told him to just forget it. So I'll be here all week. Woo hoo. I'm tired now...from being so angry...

Apparently Jeremy was baking out, felt a bump, but thought it was just a bump in the road...so then the guy followed Jeremy whiel calling the cops on their cell phone. So then jeremy was arrested. They didn't even read him his rights, so we can hold that against them. they searched him and all that, too. I'm so pissed. So ignore the last post, but I REALLY FUCKING HATE GOD DAMNED COPS! *sigh* So, I feel bad for Jeremy. But it still cost us a lot and they ahve his car and we can't get it back unless we pay $500+....and we don't have that..so...we're fucked, basiclly. Then my mom and them argued about it for a long time and shit....I have a headache....

So...why is my life so fucked up? If anyone knows the answer, I'd pay to know.



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   Well, fuck.
Why are good days so hard to come by? The day started well....I updated one of my stories...*sigh* but then of course things go bad. Erik had to drive me to the camp now(over an hour and a half away) cuz that lady's car is busted. So...that's not going to be fun. And since he says he has "plans" for tomorrow, he's making me get up at like 6 AM. *sigh* So that's bullshit. And he's like "you better go to bed by ten". Then I'm making dinner and it gets to ten and he's supposed ot be doing chores AND HE'S ON THE FUCKING COMPUTER TALKING TO HIS BITCH AND HER MOM!!! And he's all "I can multi-task" no you fucking can't you asswipe lying bastard! He sits there for a long time, half hour, just typing away to that bitch instead of doing his work. WTF?! Multi-task my ASS.

Then Jeremy's SO wonderful at driving, he scraped some car while pulling out of the parking lot at work. So he didn't know where the police station around there was, so he came to the one around here to report it, they haul him to the other one, and he's in a holding cell and we need to pay $85 FUCKING DOLLARS!! Jesus Fucking Christ, you may as well keep him! Fucking cops-sorry to anyone who knows them-but I fucking hate them and I always will. Some of you knwo why. So Erik left to go do that and that's the only reason he's not on here right now instead of me.

FUCK. Okay, I'm swearing too much, I'm sorry. I'm just so pissed off right now it's incredible. This'll be my last post until Friday. I don't even know if I want to go to stupid camp with all those fucking happy people I'll want to kill them all. But I can't stand being here, either. So I'm stuck. Whatever.

Enjoy your week, everyone, cuz I know I won't. I love you all, and I'll miss you all very much. Sounds sappy, but it's true. Take care of yourselves. You guys can PM or email me or whatever at anytime if you need to, though I won't be able to see it till Friday. Thank whoever-made-this-fucked-up=world for also making music...like metal. Just...shoot me now.







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I tried to kill the pain
But only brought more....
I lay dying
And I'm pouring
Crimson regret and betrayal.
I'm dying...
Praying...
Pleading...
And screaming...
Am I too lost to be saved?
Am I too lost?

My God, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation...
My God, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation...

Do you remember me?
Lost for so long...
Will you be on the other side?
Will you forget me?
I'm dying...
Praying...
Pleading...
And screaming...
Am I too lost to be saved?
Am I too lost?

...I want to die!

My wounds cry for the crave
My soul cries for deliverence...
Will I be denied?
Christ-tourniquet-
My suicide...

Tourniquet - Evanescence

No, I'm not going to kill myself, don't worry.
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Monday, July 25, 2005

   ummm....
Well, since you guys all say I should...and since my family seems to be railroading me into it...I guess i'll go...I'm sure it's music to Erik's ears...

I'll pack tomorrow...hopefully update my stories tonight...get you guys some nice screencaps...but for now, ice cream sounds good. I'm not in the best mood, thanks to Erik and such...shower helped, but not as much as usual. should be making one final post tomorrow night...then after that I'll be back Friday...
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Aren't they wooooooonderful? I like Satoshi a lot, not just cuz he's cute, but because he tries to do the right thing, even though his father is using him and he's treated so badly. And in the end, he really does care fo Daisuke(as more than a friend in my opinion), so...it's really something. Ja ne.
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Sunday, July 24, 2005

   I guess I should...update.
Man, it is hotter than hell here today. Seriously. 103 degrees and with humidity, 111. So, I'm dying here. Buuut, I promised someone I wouldn't die yet. So...here in front of the fan I shall stay, thank you very much.

There's a camp I used to go to...we go hiking, horseback riding, canoeing, swimming, and all that...My mom wants me to go...should I? I can leave tomorrow with everyone else, or a lady we know can take me Tuesday. I think I'd come back Saturday. I know it could be fun, and my mom says her and Jeremy's days off are cordinated enough that Kyle wouldn't be alone at any time...it may be nice to get out of the house...but I'm not sure...and I'd eb gone a while...what do you guys think?

On a side note, my bastard oldest brother is back. I'd say more, but who even gives a fuck about that big stupid tard? Neways.

I dunno what else to say, so I'll leave you guys with some yummy screencaps. If anybody wants to request a certain pic from any episode of Fruits Basket, Full Metal Alchemist, DNAngel, or Gravitation, just let me know. Tell me the episode number, the pic you're looking for, and I can get it. Ja ne!
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Catch me, as I fall...
Say you're here
And it's all over now...
Speaking to the atmosphere
No one's here
And I fall into myself...
This truth drives me
Into madness...
I can stop the pain
If I will it all away
If I will it all away...

Don't turn away
Don't give into the pain...
Don't try to hide
Though they're screaming your name...
Don't close your eyes
God knows what lies behind them...
Don't turn out the light
Never sleep never die...









More smexy pics to come!!!
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